Life through my eyes......

Time to move....

2008-10-22T08:47:00.000-07:00

farewell my friends....

After 3 years, lots of happiness, joy, tears and pain...the time has come for me to move on.....feel free to come along, if not it was nice knowing ya :)

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posted@11:49am

Yo Son......

2008-10-16T07:07:00.001-07:00

Lady I think it's safe to say that you are in need of a new pair of Spanx. Linty spanx are not what's poppin and neither are faded ones. Now this wouldn't be an issue if I hadn't seen them but I mean when you bend over (with a tail that is wider than the train doors) and I see them it becomes my business. I mean you could have put on a longer shirt under your hospital garb...but oh well you're fly can't no one tell you nothing.

D, please stop acting like the phone only works one way. Or that you're trying to figure out if I like you or whatever....you're starting to slowly annoy me and the only reason I called you last night was cause I was bored lol sad I know but oh well. Once the debate came on I was no longer bored..talk to you later. And why did you send me a pic via text...a pic that I've already seen of you....boo that aint cute.

Man on the train with the locs you are one fly brotha em em em. I just wanted to walk up to you and run my hand over your locs. Ask what you put in them, ask could I sit you down between my legs and oil them for you.....ahhhhh lol

SOB's at work and yea it stands for what you think lol.....I'm outta here snitches. I aint coming back till Tuesday.....wait I cant leave yet it aint even lunch time...darn

Boo why are you taping so hard on your luggage. I mean whatever you cranking I wanna listen to it too, then again I was listening to Bad Girl by Ursher so I'm good :)

Your kids are sooo cute. Wait you got three of em, how old are you. WOW......cute kids :)

Hmmm I dont even think I could handle 3 kids right now....I mean when I have the JSquad yea but that's not too often that I have all three of em since Toot lives in Richmond so at the most I have 2 unless I get my goddaughter even then they tire me out. Once they hit the sack I'm out as well

I think I wanna name my son Harrison lol. Very distinguished and how many other kids would have his name......yea he might be 3 with a 40 year old name but hey when he grows up it will fit him lol

Bladder why are you acting like I've drunk a whole gallon of water and not just 16oz WOW...man I promise I feel like I might as well work in the bathroom or put a bathroom behind my desk or better yet wear some depends...then again that might get messy lol

Ummm lady I hope and pray that the bug that was on the toilet at least it looked like a bug did not come outta your pants or your butt....gross just gross....I had to go into another stall lol

I started my WW point counting again. I was slacking but I've lost 14 pds since I went to the dr two months ago and when I got back in Dec for my gardasil shot I want to have lost at least 10 to get where I wanna be by new years

I'm gonna take pics of the apt once I get the bathroom like I want it and post it for you guys

Well the celebration for my bday starts as soon as I get off work. Wont be too much tonight though, go home make dinner, wait for Greys and ER...head over to hang with R, drink and stay up late....maybe go to breakfast tomorrow then hang out with the roomie.

If you're in the area on Sunday around 11am email me and I'll tell ya where to come so we can hang out :)

posted@10:15am

Growing Pains

2008-10-15T07:11:00.001-07:00

So last night I'm talking to the BFF (we'll call her T). She and I have been BFF's since kindergarten and she has two beautiful children to which I am the godmother (Olivia who is 3 going on 33 and Gavin who is 5 months). We dont talk everyday but when we get to talking and hanging out it's like no time has passed at all.

We were both in awe that in a few days I'll be 26....she will be 27 in Feb and how we were both so anxious to grow up when we were younger. Now that its here we're like dang where did the time go. I can recall being in HS saying by the time I'm 25 I want to be married with a kid....ummm yea LOL can I see myself being that way right now yes I would love to be married with a kid but the reality is that in order to have done that I probably would have had to keep putting up with trash and trash stinks so I discard it and move on....hence the place I'm at right now.

She talked about some guy that she had dated who is older wanting to marry her (he has 3 kids) and she was like Honey I dont even wanna get married no more at least not right now. I mean I'm almost finished school (she goes to NSU and will be a teacher when she is done) and I wanna move to NC and buy a house by myself for me and my kids. I'm like well homie do what you do, you've always been strong make it happen I'm behind you all the way....when the time comes I'll take some time off and help you get adjusted...she's like the big sister/twin I've always had lol.

We began talking about me and my dating scene. I told her about G...nice guy but he just turned 23 and he's in the Navy so any real relationship with him would take lots of communication which isn't a problem but its brand new and if we progressed then the Navy would then become my life. On top of that sometimes when we talk his opinions make me wanna hang up on him lol...is that bad. I mean I listen but yesterday for example this fool said one of his ex girls got raped by her ex...he goes I wonder what she did...I'm like what are you serious fool.....sometimes you dont have to do anything.....he was like well I dont believe a guy is gonna try to have sex with a chic unless he thinks he has a chance....I'm like are you punking me right now....is Ashton about to jump out of the back of this spanish delivery truck on route 1 as I'm pulling out the walmart...I mean seriously. I was sooo glad when he was like I gotta call you back. Before that he went on to say that men are always plotting which is why gay men and straight men cant' hang out...I'm like WHAT?! He was like yea..I said so you think that every gay man is plotting on you to take your booty...you are kidding me fool, you probably aint even their type.....I was getting agitated lol

Then there is R. My honey bunny, my ace, my homie. Been around for 4 years. When I first met him he didnt try to suger coat anything, told me I was pretty wanted to spend time with me and I've been hooked ever since. He has a son, and now instead of me living in VA 30-40 min away from him I live in MD in a spot that is about 8 min from him. So you can only imagine how diff this is for both of us. I am pretty much at his house every night and I leave from there to go to work, sometimes I make dinner for him and bring it over since he works at night...sometimes I stay at home till he gets off work, or I'll go over his house and sleep till he gets off. Roomie says next year is the year when he'll finally say something....i dont think so, cause we've already discussed that he might not go into the whole wanna be boos phase he might just pop up with a ring lol. But everyonce in a while I see him looking at me and I wonder what is this man thinking. He calls me his sunshine which makes me smile ALLLL the time lol and when we're joking around and he sings to me I blush. I honestly can't see myself right now without having him to talk to or hang out with.

Sometimes I'm just like what the piss do I wanna do. I love the attention G gives me but we're not together and sometimes I wonder if his over affection would annoy me if that makes sense lol. Then I wonder if R will ever acknowledge what we're doing, then again he does tell me he loves me and for all sense and purposes others view us as couple....when I show up his friends say what's up sunshine or if he's with me he says I'm with sunshine and they know who I am....I guess sometimes you want the security of a title....why is that lol

Why do i feel that I have to label something that I sorta already know what it is but for the benefit of others I think I gotta call it something...maybe it's already called something......my brain hurts....

10:26am

Its Monday....I mean Tuesday

2008-10-14T07:02:00.000-07:00

Well I was out on Friday and out on Monday...which makes today my monday and not my tuesday.....which means I wish I were at home in bed or at least not here hahaha

The weekend was aight. I had to get four new tires so that pretty much sucked leaving funds a lil low and me trying to decide if I'm gonna go the distance of getting my hair done for my bday or do it myself and I might just do it myself and save myself $40.....great.

Friday I woke up pretty late in the morning and was flying around to get the tires put on my car. The plan was to only get two..well once I got to the tire place he informed me that one of my tires had a crack in it and could blow out later on....great....$100 now turns into $200. After that I went to my doctors appointment. Everything is cool just a 6 month check up.....nothing special. But I am down 14pds since I was there 2 months ago so I'm excited about that. Called Hun (hard not to call him that) to see if I could stop by and pick up my mail and what not but he was busy at work and by the time we spoke I was already back in MD. In between all that I got a wonderful comforter set from Linens and Things http://www.lnt.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2894554&cp=1331605.2623890&view=all&parentPage=family

I'm going back in a couple of weeks to get the bathroom set that I liked. I could get lost in that store I tell ya. I had a coupon so i was really excited to have found my comforter set...I love those color together have even contemplated having those as my wedding colors....we'll see of course I have to have the input of the groom but he aint around yet so for now it's whatever I want it to be lol.

So Saturday I couldn't sleep late had a chapter meeting and I couldnt miss it cause I had to present a report on our Spring Luncheon to which I am the chair..well there is another chair but I had to present the report since my big sister couldn't be there. So anyway went to the meeting was suppose to stay for our domestic violence seminar but being that I have gotten NO SLEEP lately I took myself home and laid out on the couch and woke up around 5pm to the sound of my phone ringing and folks trying to talk to me. Now unless I like you I dont do the wake me up in the middle of my sleep to talk to me, I will tell you I will call you back....if you dont get a call back then oh well dont call me back lol.

Some dude that I think is trying to talk to me called and I told him I was watching a movie and I was...I was watching Iron Man. I told him I was gonna call him back and have I...no sorry. He annoys me, talking about he can tell getting to know me is gonna be a slow process...ok and. Calling me babe and all that jazz..boo you dont know me that well thanks...I'm not mean its just that when I'm not into you like that I dont let anything slide if you annoy me....I will not go out of my way to talk to you.

So anywho I finally get my wits about me take another shower and G comes over so that we can double date with his lil brother. We go to Capitol Blvd to the movies and to this Wing place that's nearby......the movie wasn't all that good...Quarintine....kinda stupid but oh well. Went back home and oh boy decided that he wanted to take a bath. I'm like are you kidding me LOL. Trying to spoil me I tell ya. So we took a bath....with some candles and then I got oiled down and I was out like a light LOL.......woke up and made some breakfast. Laid around a lil bit till he had to leave around 6 to get ready to go see the What Band and someone else play at Fur.....the man is seriously trying to spoil me. I've told him that I wanna enjoy being single for right now and if he can't handle that then he might wanna go on and roll...dont wanna lead homie on. I'm sure my parents would love him though hahha....

Sunday night made some food then hung out with R watching the games and what not and decided I needed to do laundry. So I took my laundry over his house and did it while watching Joy Ride 2 which was heck a gory ewwwwww. He surprises me cause just when I think I have him all figured out..BOOM he does something and I'm like wow dude lol.....just the fact that he calls me his sunshine makes me smile. He hinted at taking Monday off....I will believe it when I see it cause like any hard working man this fool dont take days off lol...my dad is the same way. We're watching tv and he leans over and rubs my face and Im like what and he's like oh nothing just looking at my sunshine.....roomie says I'm wearing him down hahaha...she has us engaged next year lol great..which leads me to another story...one of my girls told me she got engaged her boo is in the military so he'll do the real on the knee when he comes home in Dec but she then proceeded to tell me how much the ring cost....umm WHY...I'd just be happy that God blessed me with a man you do not need to know how much the ring cost...great...some folks I tell ya

I had Monday off so I pretty much slept the whole day which was rather nice and will probably occur next monday at least until time for my bday dinner lol

So I had a pretty nice weekend....came back to some crap on my desk...I hate when folks need to look for something on my desk and they leave stuff behind or mess it up. I'm bout to send an email around when I'm gone. If you need to locate something on my desk please leave it like you found it. Thanks

posted@10:24am

Honestly Speaking....

2008-10-09T06:53:00.000-07:00

...Nikki (you can see her link on the side Indigo Trails) awarded me the Honest Blogger award and I'm finally getting around to doing the post :) I know I'm a slacker what can I say....so here goes:

When you receive the prize you must write a post showing it, together with the name of who has given it to you, and link them back.

Choose a minimum of 7 blogs (or more) that you find brilliant in their content or design.

Show their names and links and leave them a comment informing they were prized with ‘Honest Weblog’.

Show a picture of those who awarded you and those you give the prize (optional).

List [if you can and or dare] at least ten honest things about yourself. And then, pass it on.

7 Blogs:

BK Diva- Weight Down Money Up- My blog sister (who is more like a real life big sister now lol) always gives it to me straight no chaser...however she knows how to put it nicely when necessary...always cracking me up and making me look forward to hitting that Fly 30 mark :)

Nikki- Yea she gave it to me and I know I can't give it back to her but I mean man chic is real...bad date and all you dont want to encounter her she will put you on blast hahaah

TC- Golden Time of Day- Its funny because half the time I stop by her blog and I'm like why is this chic inside my head...but that just means that great minds think alike and that God is providing confirmation for whatever he's showing me through someone else's words and I can't be more appreciative of that. She hurts, she laughs, she grows and she moves on...who could ask for a better blog

La Bella Noire-When she found love I felt like I had found it with her. I love how she loves D and life even when someone might think its kicking her tail. She's not afraid to show her heart and every crevice of it....can't get much more realer than that

Just Be- My blog big sis is amazing that's all I can say :) I dont comment all the time but that doesn't mean that I dont stop by as much...sometimes you just be like dang how did she know I needed to hear that

TSG- Southern Girl- What can I say I love to hear her stories and the real stuff that makes you go dang....WOW

Monique...I remember when I first came by and started reading the blog and peeking into her world. I dont stop by everyday but when I do stop by I make sure I read and comment on the posts that I've missed lol and you know that's real talk haha.

I'm sure all of them have done this so no need to do it again just wanted you guys to know that I enjoy

10 Honest Things About Honey:

1. I love Ranch- everything about it and I love to put it on almost everything I eat

2. I can't sleep with the closet door open- haven't been able to since I saw Freddy one night in elementary school

3. I want to write a book

4. I dont want to die alone with 50 cats surrounding me

5. Sometimes I use the bathroom at work with the stall door open haha (of course if I dont think someone is coming in)

6. I want to get married and have a kid by the time I turn 30

7. I love being in love

8. I wish my nephews were mine ahahha...then I remember that there are 3 of them :)

9. I wish I could show my parents just how much they mean to me

10. I love him :)

posted@10:09am

2008-10-08T06:50:00.000-07:00

"At twenty we worry about what others think of us; at forty we don't care about what others think of us; at sixty we discover they haven't been thinking about us at all"

Approaching birthdays always have you reflecting on life and what you've made of it so far.

I was reading a blog the other day (I forgot her name..went back and found out it was Blk Butterfly...hey girl!!) and she said that for once in her life she was really happy and it didn't revolve around a man. I couldn't stop cheesing because that's me right now. Yes finances haven't changed too much, I didn't hit the lotto, I didn't get married over night, but I'm happy. I wake up each morning wondering what the day will bring, excited that I've stepped into this new phase of my life and how I've embraced it even though at first I was a tad bit scared.

I mean yes I hang out with R...so much now that it's normal for me to no longer sleep at home but at his house. It's funny how time and space work themselves out and you just fall into "something" with someone. I say something because one of my friends asked me what was going on with that and I was like umm I have no idea hard to put a title on something when you have no idea what to call it other than a deeper friendship that is sorta like a relationship but we're not yet wanting to call it that hahaha

Anywho so I'm thinking about how I was even 10 years ago and I'm like man I was in such a hurry to grow up and move away from momma and if it weren't for that dang on gas then I would be there every other weekend lol. I call home about 2 times a week even if it's just to hear my nephews gabber on the phone. Fat Fat is no longer a fatty he's slimming down rather nicely but he'll always be aunties fat fat. Toot is getting so big that everytime I see him I wanna bust out crying. I honestly wish he were mine...that's how much I love him, and want to see him have everything he needs to make his mark on the world. However, he loves his daddy and is doing well there....maybe I'll call him this weekend and see if I can get him one weekend this month take him to the zoo or something. JayDee or Jailyn is sooo cute, looking like my sister when she was a baby and on a diet LOL...Doc says he is eating too much poor lil thing haha. 2 months old and on a diet.

I'm thinking about getting a new bed....maybe for an early Christmas present to myself. Upgrade to a queen..yes I'm sleeping in a full...it's nice and cozy when you got someone else in there hahah. But I def need to step the bed game up so I'm gonna start looking into those. I think I found one I like though at Value City so we'll see.

Gotta get new tires this weekend..that should be a boat load of fun....errrr. But I can't complain, God has blessed me with having a wonderful car that didn't fall apart after I hit the 50,000 mark hahaha.

I mean I can't help it if I wanted to watch Noah's Arc and not talk to you, I'm sorry.

YAHHH Brunch with some of the blog homies that have been become real friends and not just computer friends....if you live in MD and wanna come email me so I can give you the details we dont want no strangers showing up lol :)

I can't believe you said she might be a stripper lol just cause she changed her clothes before she went home....lol you're funny

Ummmm a weekend getaway sounds rather nice.....when can we leave :)

Hey TC!!! I see ya girl, we'll have to arrange lunch now that we have bumped into each other accidently.....I must know where you got that coat from. I was knocked out on the train or I would have talked your head off hahah

posted@10:04am

I'm not the greatest.....

2008-10-06T06:44:00.001-07:00

I'm the double greatest. Not only do I knock em down, I pick the round ~Muhammad Ali

For some odd reason I saw this quote and its been my week favorite. Anywho...on to some randomness

Nikki you crack me up why this week I was wondering if you had gone on any dates that I could laugh at. I seriously need to come to ATL..when you guys get some gas of course so we can reek havoc on some men HAHHAHAHA

I made 3 hats this weekend (for my locs and one for roomie) and I'm working on the third...I learned to crochet last winter so now the time has come to make more hats for gifts lol.

I had to get new tires and front brakes...I can't complain I've only bought one tire since I've had my car so that is what I'll be doing this weekend.

I'm glad we had that talk last night, it put somethings into perspective. Point well taken and the information you provided will be noted

My bday is 14 days AWAY!!!!!!!!

I am soooo excited. Each day I've been doing something that makes me smile even if its not huge. But as my bday draws near I will admit that I hope some of the bigger things I wanna do go off without a hitch.

I've learned that Musiq is gonna be in Alexandria so R has suggested that we do that either on Sun or Monday night. I'm looking forward to it. I'm doing dinner with the girls one of the days during that week which is always nice...so all in all I'm looking forward to the rest of this month....

I'm glad you finally came to visit...

The similarities in the three of us might be a sign that you can love again...

I love Jazmine Sullivans CD....I've been playing it all week...along with Joe (I am partial to Back by any means I think that's number 2 or 3)

Why can't you just be happy....its like you look for a reason to hate life....I'm sorry you feel that way

I aint callin you no more...one sided phone calls are not cool lol

On top of that why are you callin me your boo, I aint your boo.....we aint even chilled yet, I dont know if you chew with your mouth open....if you talk during a movie or if you just plain annoy me..until then call me by my name...thanks

I'm not mean....I'm just me

Stop INVITING yourself over, if I want you to come over then I'll invite you. Talking you know I'm trying to get with you....boo you got a girl...leave me the piss alone DUDE! On top of that stop asking when can you meet me at the metro station.....that would mean you wanna come over and you're not so no meeting at the metro station lol

You know why we stopped talking dont play stupid.....I can't change a Gay Man lol just cause you aint ready to admit you're gay is not my problem.

SNL is seriously TOOOOO hilarious

Why do I feel like just cause I'm the neo that I'm gonna be doing all the work....lol great. I guess its to be expected but I mean dang dont leave me in the cold.

You looked rather comfortable on my couch....I could get use to you :) - not being on my couch but just being over lol

posted 9:54am

Pen touching paper

2008-10-02T07:01:00.000-07:00

The act of putting pen to paper encourages pause for thought, this in turn makes us think more deeply about life, which helps us regain our equilibrium. ~Norbet Platt

Anyone that knows me knows that I love to write as well as read. Ever since I can remember I've loved going to the library, writing poetry and writing in my journal. I even wrote a lil book when i was in elementary school and it was taken onto a city wide competition...I need to find that book, I'm sure it's marred beyond recognition now haha.

In school English was easily my favorite subject. I could be given an assignment and crank it out A status the night before it was due, this of course made all my college friends jealous...how could Honey do that and I got recruited in helping others write their papers, which didnt matter to me since I loved anything that had to do with writing. I've heard that I'm creative and have a wild imagination. I thought about writing a book perhaps one day....maybe something to read to my children when they enter this crazy world but for right now I'll write in my journal :)

So last night I took out my journal....it's light blue covered in suede. Purchased from Barnes and Nobles in 2001 it's seen some rough time, and I didnt even write in it everyday..I did at first then I slacked off...I noticed that last night that sometimes months passed and even years between my posts.

Ya know what else I noticed last night...I'm in love with love. I mean I know I've been hurt but I just love how loving someone makes you feel. The joy you get when you see them, the pain you feel when their gone, the butterflies when you know you're going to see them, the realization that you love them but its just not meant to be and yes you're sad but you're just happy that you got to experience that lil bit of peace for ever how long it lasted.

I also noticed that once I say I've left you alone...you might dangle along but I've left you alone...you just haven't gotten the hint just yet hahaha. I laughed as I read how one ex was getting on my nerves and how much non stress I was feeling since I was no longer his girl. I talked about how my heart was broken once I realized it was over with Z and how he was all that I could even think to dream of in a guy. How my HS sweetheart claimed I was the one that got away and how I realized that we aint meant to be together but we make the best of friends.

How R is cool and how I feel about it was vaguely mentioned and I read it to him (I told him he's the first I've ever done that with) and he smiled. Since I've moved closer to him I will admit that we've been spending a lil bit more time together...so much in fact that I can count on one hand how many nights I've actually slept at my apt LOL.....I know I know but we aren't bunned up so that's why I live where I live and not with him (which will not be occuring unless we get married lol)

I also noticed that after each entry I thank God for whatever it is that he's blessed me with. No matter how sad I am I always take the time to say thank you.

All of this got me to thinking about what is going on in my life right now...trying to finish this paralegal program so I can advance and possibly move out of this area and make some serious changes....R and how I really feel about him and if I think we have a chance to make this something deeper. G who has come out of nowhere and appears to be every womans dream, by that I mean someone one who runs your bath water, lotions you down and holds you all night, etc. I dont know how to take him just yet..I mean he could be insane...tellin me he likes me this early or he could actually have some direct insight from God telling him I'm suppose to be his wife LOL...I like to think that he's just cool for right now and until God informs me of this master plan it will stay that way...but I love glimpsing into what it would be like to come home (not literally) to that every day (would I get sick of it) lol

Last night as I was reading about past happiness, past hurt and just over all joy I realized that writing heals me. I need to keep at it or I'll fall apart. Even if no one else understands me, my penned words always help me get my thoughts across. No one understands me more than me, so as I countdown to my 26th birthday I vow to take more time to put pen to paper and help myself grow.

I was informed that I won the Honesty Award......WOOHOOOO aight I digress. I'll post about that tomorrow :) I know Nikki but what can I say I wanted to write about this today :)

posted@10:18am

Thoughts

2008-09-30T08:47:00.000-07:00

I take nothing for granted. I now have only good days or great days. --Lance Armstrong

A wonderful blogger big sis reminded me how it feels to think on the good things that are in our lives and not the bad (Thanks Blu Jewel!!)

With that being said thank you....

for coming over yesterday, I've missed you my friend.

for checking up on me even when I think I'm ok

for just being who you are....in this day and age it means alot

for loving your big sister even when she says stuff that you dont wanna hear

for loving your daughter even when she disappoints you (and makes you question if she is insane lol)

P.Diddy/Poppa Diddy/Diddy for allowing me to witness the realness or fakeness (lol young one) that is Que and Dawn...I'm a sucka for love as well

G for showing me just a glimpse of what happiness could be whenever I'm ready to settle down again

roomie for just being the best friend/sister from another mother a girl could ever as for (have fun with the boo on vacation)

love for just being able love and all that you entail even if its not between a man and woman love is a beautiful thing

HoneyLibra for embracing this whole living alone thing and making things happen...you are so wonderful, you amaze me each time I catch ya lookin at me inthe mirror and I must say that you're looking a lil smaller these days...good job girlie...I love you

for the traffic this morning, I got a chance to listen to the Russ Parr horoscopes!!

for listening to my jabber all day everyday, every once in a while God gives you a friend who knows when to say I know and I understand and when to shut the hell up lol and let you talk

for coming back into my life after disappearing after a year...I've missed you man but what do I do now knowing that you love me enough to be with me......

..to each of you, for still coming by, for sending emails, for talking to me on IM even when I dont stop by your lil piece of world (It doesn't mean that you're not in my thoughts)

posted@11:57am

TMI

2008-09-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

I use to do these and then I slacked off..today seemed like a good day to do one...it's Monday I need a lil pick me up :)

1. What is the strangest thing you have ever inserted or seen inserted (in a sexual manner) in person?

Ok so one of my insane guy friends had me watch some horrible film with him and the lady was doing it to a horse...enough said LOL

2. Have you ever had sex anyone whose name started with a J?

Hmmm actually I haven't lol

3. Have you ever been outside completely naked?

Are we talking completed naked or naked with a robe on lol

4. Do you prefer music, tv, or other noise in the background when you have sex?

I love listening to music in the dark, the TV will do if I dont feel like music though.

5. Have you ever used ice for sexual purposes?

Someone has used ice on me and bOYYYYYYYY was it HOT!!!!

Bonus: Have you ever been propositioned for group sex?

BWAHHHH yes. My ex who lives in TX has been wanting me to have a threesome with him and his girl for the longest....ummm NOOO BOO wow. Asking to buy me a ticket wont help...now if you offer to pay my car off we'll talk LOL

posted@12:36pm

Interruption

2008-09-26T08:39:00.001-07:00

Dr. Pratt is dead.....I'm in mourning

Why do they kill off all the good people on shows....and why do I act like its more than a show lol

Thank you sir for saying that I caught your eye....however you caught mine about 5 months ago when you stopped me at the subway shop near my job and I told you I had a man....now I dont but you're still not attractive. I'm pretty sure you didnt even know that it was me, however if you were watching me like you said you were you would have noticed that I was trying to catch some Zzzzz's before I headed off to work. So you got the I have a man answer and I proceeded to look back out the window...and catch my Zzzzzz...thanks

I wanna sleep in......a full Saturday. I have yet to do that and I miss it. Not sure when I'll be able to get that sleep I want but I'm crossing my fingers.

I have indigestion really bad at night...so bad that it keeps me up and sometimes makes me cry...guess its time to go to the doctor....ewwwwww

He's counting down the days till he's back home...cute. I'm not even gonna say I miss talking to him cause he will take that a whole diff way :)

Once again I didnt sleep at home hahhaa....I like sleeping at your house...what can I say.

I need to get this head done I can't stand to have it lookin like Mr. Shuttlesworth

I like smoothies.....especially the Odwalla superfood one..its green but tastey

I admit that I love laying on my couch watching the tube...ahhhhh such a refreshing feeling.

posted@11:47am

Randomness

2008-09-22T08:07:00.000-07:00

I'm ready to go home...my tummy dont feel too good

I dont wanna be on this conference call tonight but I have to....

I wish it were Friday already

Then again I have a packed weekend so maybe today is just fine

You are such a loser

You're my sister and right now I feel like slappin the crap out of you

I like you yes...but dont try to wife me yet dang lol can we chill for a second

I miss ya man.....yea you....not you haha

I'm your sunshine......awwwww just typing that makes me smile

I wish I could take your pain away.....but if I could then I'd take mine away too

I like the new place, and no I dont want you to come visit just cause you live 10 min away

Dont invite yourself over

You lickin your lips while you talk to me is suppose to do what.............

Yes I'm losing weight, but I dont look like I'm starving wow

On top of that did I look bad before hahaha

Man in less than a month I'll be 26. And just to think when I was in HS I wanted to be married by now with a kid hahahah..can ya imagine

I can see next year shaping up to be the year though...not for a baby lol but for something big :)

I know you miss me...I dont miss you.....you saying that you're gonna be moving to Bmore aint gonna make you look no better to me....

You are insane if you think I'm going out of the state with you I wont even let you come to my house hahahh...man you cause me to be mean to you

I think I secretly like it though

I need to give some more shoes away....I just dont know how they are gonna fit in my closet

I miss you Toot, Fat Fat and JayD....auntie can't wait to see you again :)

posted@11:13am

New Start....

2008-09-15T06:42:00.000-07:00

My name is HoneyLibra and I.....am a packrat :(

I didn't realize I had so much stuff....I've packed away two bags of clothes and a bag and a half of shoes and I still gotta get stuff from the other house and move it to my apt. So tonight after class that's what I'm gonna be doing.

However all the big stuff is moved which is great so that was a blessing. Dad and my sisters boyfriend got there around 2 on Fri, I was already at my new apt waiting for the cable guy (a whole nother story in itself) so I left the key for them and they loaded up the truck and came to the new spot.

My dad likes it, wonders why I moved so far away lol..told him I needed to step out and do something diff but he did say the area was nice and it seemed quiet..told me not to be standing outside all late at night....lol ok Daddy.

Anywho we got done with the big stuff around 8 and I followed them back into VA cause I wanted to get some more stuff that would last me at least till I could get back to VA to get the rest of my shoeboxes and clothes.

I realized after finally getting back to my new spot that I had left the shower curtain rings in the bridge....so what did I do...fold the shower curtain over and stand next to the wall hoping no water was on the floor when I got out lol and it worked..yesterday I used earrings to hold it up hey what can I say I'm creative.

This weekend was pretty chill, I hung out on the couch...no I did not unpack my clothes LOL that will occur gradually :) what can I say when it comes to unpacking I'm a slacker...but the kitchen is unpacked and so is the bathroom minus of course the shower curtain rings. I LOVE my closet space being that I have so many clothes...there is a closet in my room, a coat closet and a storage closet (with racks) so I should have more than enough room for all my stuff.

I need to get a new comforter set and some curtains for the bedroom and mini window in the living room. But other than that I'm def lovin the space..it has the bomb ceiling fan in the bedroom someone asked me if I bought it I was like heck no lol

My dad was in love with the lights in the bathroom and the new appliances which are black...wooohooo

Aight so here is the funniest part of my weekend other than me getting locked out which was not funny at the time but is a tad hilarious now.

So the cable guy was to come between 2-5. I left with my sisters boyfriend to get some more stuff from VA so my dad stayed at my place. Cable guy comes, installs the stuff and my dad calls me tellign me that he needs my comp to do the internet. I tell him to just leave it and I'll do it myself. He informs me that it might be difficult and that he didnt' want to get in trouble with Comcast by not doing his job...I said ok sweetie i'm not in VA and I dont want to hold you up just because you need to install my internet...leave it I'll call comcast and request you if i have trouble. So he says aight I'm gonna leave you my number so you can call me directly...aight works for me I love personal service....i asked him his name...Julio apparently I said it funny cause he was like what and I was like nothing you just dont sound umm.....LOL and he says I'm Dominican and I open my big mouth and say Ohhh you must be a cutie..he laughs we hang up and I go bout my business.

Sidebar: We get to the house in the bridge and my dad had my key so we had to wait for Hun...he came helped load up some stuff and I noticed he had a spot on his chest I'm like what happened to you did you hurt yourself.....ohhhh is that a hickey...nah it's not..laugh and all that and finally I'm like dont like...so he's like yea it is...I'm like dang dude have you not learned not to lie to me...WOW...you just proved that you aint changed one bit. Yea it was strange living together and not being together but you already sleeping with chics did you use protection wow cause you sure were sleeping with me at the same time....talking about why he gotta explain himself I'm like dont even worry about it dude....great...moving right along

Call my dad to tell him we're on the way back and the cable dude is STILL there...WOW I know this dude aint waiting around to see what I look like (in my dirty white tee, sweaty locs, and velour pants lol and I'm smelling like a field slave), but we pull up and there he is..WOW. I have NEVER seen an ugly Dominican man...that day was the day.....glasses that covered eyes that were either too big, or cross eyed, or lazy I couldn't tell....a mouth that was missing some teeth and the ones that were there some were bigger than the others WOW....why my sisters bf was like he got a nice smile dont he I was like WOW..dang next time I even gonna say nothing hahah..a hot mess and this fool still messed up...giving me a regular cable box when I asked for DVR so great.

I locked myself out on Sat night waiting for G to come over needlesstosay I need to give my keys to someone who lives close enough to come help in case I get locked out and there is only one person that comes to mind LOL....R. He actually has a key to my car cause I've locked myself out numerous times either leaving his house or near his house or whatever. Plus even if he's not home he's still close enough to bring me my keys...cause he's never that far from home...even for work.....

So that was my first weekend in my apt...it's always an adventure hahah

posted@9:58am

Lord Have Mercy!!! Kelly Clarkson...Eddie Murphy!!!! (B. Scott)

2008-09-11T07:41:00.001-07:00

Man I love B. Scott hahaha I sooo wanna call some folks nasty gutterbutt trollops hahah

I packed up the kitchen last night....I was nice enough to leave him some silverware since I have more than enough and some glass I just made sure I took my favorites and the can opener haha..he can buy another one, it's only a dollar.

I wanted to take the dishrack but I decided that I could find a way better one :)

I def have to get a nonstick pan I wanted his but didn't wanna be mean plus I saw this blue one I want...yes it's my fav color back off

Everything is a go, I'm going in the morning and my dad should be in town by 11. Cable folks are coming between 2-5 so I'm gonna try to put some stuff in my car tonight so I can stay in MD tonight and be there right when they open so I can be back at the house by the time my dad gets here.

Man I must say I love my parents....I didn't have a dresser..yea I know so my mom gave me my nephews since he doesn't live there anymore so whooohooo. I want a new bed but that will all come with time..I'm sticking with what I got it works just fine :)

Lots of my friends and I will call these folks friends have said that if I need them to call them or even that they will come by and help me unpack. I dont mind at all cause at first I was like I aint gonna need no help. However I can see just from the boxes that I packed up that I can't do it alone lol

My clothes will prob be the last to be unpacked cause there are so many of them. I am even giving stuff away so far one bag of clothes and one bag of shoes....and I haven't even touched two other bins upstairs..those will get tackled tonight.

By the time my daddy comes tomorrow I should have everything in the living room ready to be loaded up.....we shall see if this happens cause I have a tendency to be packign and moving at the same time LOL. I can't help it I never know when I'm gonna need something.

Ok so why was I walking to the Springfield Mall parking garage from the Metro (it's free and not that far) and this guy in a military fatigue uniform walks beside and says hello..now I can be nice so I say hi and keep walking..he says you like nice in strips..I'm thinking aight so I respond thanks....he goes on to say yea I like my women nice and think.....you must be a southern girl...and I'm like is this old man serious, you're old enough to be my dad...now I didn't wanna over do it and run screaming perv perv so I'm like thank you and I keep walking...he then says yea you know I was just thinking that you'll give me something to think about when I get home...skkkuuuurrttttt...EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW you nasty gutterbutt trollop.......get the F^%& outta here.....i just did this nervous laugh and proceeded to let him walk in front of me. I mean did he feel the need to keep talking and not pay attention to what he was saying...WOW..buddy you should have stopped while you're ahead...I got my eye on you!!!

So I'll be busy packing tonight, moving tomorrow, hopefully catch a movie in between all that and a chapter meeting on Saturday and then lunch with the sorors after the meeting...so I prob wont get back home till mid afternoon.

G has offered to come over and help. I'm not trying to lead him on, so I was like aight but I'm pretty sure I'll be fine. Dont want him to try to bust his way into my life...just chill dude....breathe a lil stop trying to wife me LOL....I'm living the single life man hahaha

See you guys Monday! Hopefully I'll have some excitment to report on :)

posted@10:51am

Great....

2008-09-08T09:22:00.000-07:00

Called today and apparently the person who lived in my apt before me has yet to turn in the keys...get it together folks...I will be moving in on Friday even if you have to put me somewhere else...thanks

Cable is set up to come on Fri..can't be without my cable too long yes!

Going to the movies Fri night prob to see the new Tyler Perry movie or the Women dont know which one yet

Looking forward to finally moving in...although I have NOT packed...yes you read correct I have NOT packed...I'm a slacker I know

Man I've been on the brink of falling apart and its not even because of the move...I promise when you think you're getting things on the right path the devil steps in and slaps you down...so keep me in your prayers.....

Middle sis put me on her membership to Sams Club which is great cause I'll def need that in my life LOL

Friends have offered to come and help me unpack..with little distractions this weekend and I can't be more overjoyed that folks love me enough to help me pack and unpack.

I'm blessed I know that much

Lil Sis is acting a dang on fool talkign about I need to talk to my mother...umm boo no she's momma I aint sayin crap to her...you can't take care of your kids and she can....we'll leave it at that.

I think she's on drugs...dont know if she's just smokin the cheeba or what but she's on something.....

Had a "date" on Sat night. I use the term loosely cause it's someone that I've known for a min we just never hung out. Watched the DVD of Martin shows which was cool cause it was just chill. Dude talking about he'll wait till I'm ready to be in a relationship I said that will be a min LOL not trying to do that whole thing again just yet.

He's cool offered to help me unpack and what not....we'll see how cool he is this time next year hahhahha

Counting down the days till Fri...got the whole day off to move...great

posted@12:27pm

Change is good....but it can also sting

2008-09-03T07:36:00.000-07:00

So this weekend was spent with the fam. My sis, the nephews and her boyfriend didn't make it to my house till about 3am. She was moving out of the house where she stays with her bestfriend (you really learn about someone when you live with em lol) back home with the parents which I think is a good move with her. So they took forever getting there, I had fallen asleep and everything lol...finally they arrived my fatfat is getting sooo big, walking and talking now..one going on 5 lol. He cracks me up. The whole weekend I was amazed by his vocabulary..he loves to tell folks to stop and let go when you're holding on to him and he wants to do his own thing....he calls my mom magdey since he can't say maggie lol (he hears my dad call her that)

Got up the next morning and took jailyn with me to look at apts since I didnt wanna take fatfat along...he would be all over the place. Found a spot and had to get the funds for a deposit. So as of next Friday I'll be a resident of Landover, MD. I love the apt, can't wait to move in.

The rest of the weekend was spent playing auntie and spoiling my nephews and goddaughter who came along. She started K-3 on Tuesday so we went and bought her some school shoes....I tell ya that girl cracked me up telling her mom and me what she didn't like I was like boo do you have a job LOL. They stayed till Monday and I just laid around and slept....having a baby in the house is NOOOO joke. I love my JayD but I promise that boy slept all day and wanted to be up at night LOL

This morning I had a breakdown..I guess it's getting to me that I'm moving out. I cried in the house, in the car and then finally called my mommie to have her pray with me. She did so and told me that I'll be fine (I know and sometimes I get tired of hearing that). She said that me feeling how I feel is a trick of the devil to get me to doubt what is occuring...God can't bless mess...and I get that I'm just gonna miss him... I miss him already. He's been gone most of the tme cause he says it feels strange and I know but dang I can't help wanting to hug him since I'll be gone in a week or so.

Dont wanna think about it too much might start crying again....crying cause I'll miss him and that I'll be living alone...I have only lived alone for like 3 months LOL and it's SOOOOO freakin quiet I didnt know what to do with myself. I mean it was nice coming home to me, shopping for me, having folks come over then leave lol but it was still SOOOOO quiet. I like the area though and it's near Captiol Blvd and the metro so I should be fine. Some of my blogsisters live near by so I'll def have a chance to visit them more which is great :) BK has also informed me that I now have no excuse not to come to her class on the weekends...and sadly she is correct LOL what have I gotten myself into :)

Thank you ladies (you know who you are) for helping narrow my list down, telling me that I'll be fine and listening to my pain......I'll def have to have you guys over for some wine and cheese :)

So I'll be packing starting tomorrow LOL...I dont wanna I dont wanna I dont wanna...and not because I dont wanna move...but because I hate packing....unpacking is gonna be worse though...roomie has already said she will help so I'm thankful for that. She's actually gonna look at the complex and she might decide to move out there since her rent is going up in Oct lol

"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." ~Anatole France

Weekend Plans.....

2008-08-28T08:11:00.000-07:00

So this weekend will be spent with the best friend who will be in town....she's bringing my sister, my god daughter who is 3, my godson who is 4 months old and possibly my nephew fat fat who is one going on 4 lol. As you can see I'll have a house full of baby love :) the best if you ask me

We'll prob do the touristy thing you know zoo, museums, depending on how the weather is. But we are def getting some apt hunting out of the way. I have two that I'll prob go look at since they are waiving the app fee might as well go holla at em. With the help of my blog sisters and friends I narrowed my list down from 20 to 13 to 8 so I think I'm doing pretty good.

Most of the apts are in the same area so I already have an idea of the type of commute that I'll be looking at. The only thing I know is come Mon-Wed I'm gonna be beat after class. It wouldn't surprise me if I didnt loose about 20pds by December LOL

Hun has agreed to help me move my stuff. We're both gonna miss one another but honestly we need to do this...now instead of later. He's def gonna be missed, from the early morning hugs to the arguments over leaving the silverware behind the faucet lol....but we've agreed that we have no hard feelings towards one another and will actually prob still hang out on the weekends of course.

He apologized for dragging me out of my element and then things not working out but I like to think of it as a lesson learned for both of us...it's gonna be diff i know that much but I know that I'm gonna be fine..God already has it worked out.

So hopefully I'll have a place in mind to move to by the middle of next week which would mean that I'm moving out prob by the middle of Sept.

Gotta love me :)

"She got her own thing That's why I love her Miss independent Won't you come and spend a little time She got her own thing That's why I love her" (Miss Independent by Ne-yo)

posted @ 11:18am

2008-08-26T11:53:00.001-07:00

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power."

Writing the Vision:

I will find an apartment that I can afford that will be safe and will provide me with everything I want and need

AMEN

Ya girl is embracing new things and stepping out on her own....pray for me :) Apartment hunting has never really been that fun to me but hopefully with the help of friends I can narrow my list down and have some places to visit by this weekend.

posted@2:57pm

~HoneyLibra

Tuesday Thoughts

2008-08-19T07:21:00.000-07:00

My guilty pleasure..Baldwin Hills and the Secret Life of the American Teenager come on tonight...of course the first in on BET which I rarely watch just cause I'm tired of seeing horrible music videos and for some odd reason I dont like 106 and park anymore...on top of that its just full of nonsense yet I find myself glued to the TV or the internet trying to catch up on the lives of Moriah and Lor'rena and the rest of the gang and of course everyonce in a while Hell Date LOL

The Secret Life of the American teenager comes on ABC Family and consists of some bad acting but hey the story got me...HS girl gets preg by the school man whore at band camp (which my children will not be attending...too much stuff occurs at those types of things LOL) and now has to deal with that and the fact that her dad is dating or was dating the school girl whore who just so happens to be the school man whores butt buddy...great. The girls boyfriend who is the heir to a sausage throne has already said he wants to marry her..yes at 15 lol so you can see why sometimes I roll my eyes but hey it's like a train wreck you can't look away.

Finished the Mary Higgins Clark book on to the next one and I even went to the library to check out somemore...I'll keep ya posted on what I've read and what I think about it...no spoilers unless I feel like being mean LOL. I love my share of Ghetoo Urban Ficiton but sometimes I get disgusted when I read one and there are grammatical mistakes I mean dont you have an editor...it's already Ghetoo Fiction should I put on my ghetto glasses in order to read it. I picked up Black Widow by Nikki Turner who I actully can stand...read an excerpt from the first chapter online and decided that I actully might be able to get through it so we'll see how that goes.

So this weekend I will def be catching up on my reading. I'm suppose to hit up Bmore with one of my homegirls without the menfolks...we've been friends since we were younger and she just got engaged....her fiancee is actually one of the few guys that Hun likes hanging out with so it's always easy to get him to do stuff outside his box if she knows that her boo is gonna be there...

I'm leaving early on Friday and off on Monday wooohooo (no vacation just an appt and class starts on monday)

In other news: Why do homeless folk fight over corners...I mean come on there are more than enough and standing in front of the CVS aint gonna get you more change than if you stand in front of the Wachovia....great

posted@10:29

All Done...

2008-08-18T09:13:00.000-07:00

Here is a website that will fill you in on the case : http://www.law.umkc.edu/faculty/projects/FTrials/scottsboro/scottsb.htm

Done with the first book and here's what I thought.

First the book was pretty darn near close to the movie which is called Heavens' Fall (which stars Timothy Hutton, Azura Skye and one of my baby daddies Anthony Mackie).

The book by no means a factual representation of what the whole case is about however the author stayed pretty close to the facts and even obtained real transcripts from the case and quoted them in her version of the story.

I enjoyed the book and will probably read other books by her. It's funny cause when I read a book that has a movie adaptation of course I visualize the characters and I can totally see why they chose some of the actors to play these individuals.

Here was the outcome of the real case:

In this retrial, Haywood Patterson (d. 1952) was again convicted of rape, but sentenced to 75 years in prison rather than the death penalty—the first time a black man had been sentenced to anything other than death in the rape of a white woman in Alabama. Haywood Patterson escaped in 1948 and fled to Detroit, Michigan. In 1950 he published a book called The Scottsboro Boy about his ordeal; shortly afterwards was arrested by the Federal Bureau of Investigation. However, Governor of Michigan G. Mennen Williams would not allow him to be extradited back to Alabama.

In July 1937, Clarence Norris (d. January 23, 1989) was convicted of rape and sexual assault and sentenced to death. Later, Governor of Alabama Bibb Graves reduced Clarence Norris' death sentence to life in prison. He was paroled in 1946. Norris was later pardoned by Governor George Wallace, and in 1979 he published The Last of the Scottsboro Boys, an autobiography co-written with Sybil D. Washington.

Andy Wright was convicted of rape and sentenced to 99 years. He was paroled, then violated parole and was re-imprisoned, then finally released in 1950.

Charlie Weems was convicted of rape and sentenced to 75 years in prison. He was paroled in 1943, having served 20 years in some of the worst prisons in the nation.

Ozzie Powell pleaded guilty to assaulting a sheriff (during a previous escape attempt) and was sentenced to 20 years, and the state dropped the rape charges against him in return. After Powell had assaulted the deputy with a razor (and, according to him, had surrendered), he was shot in the head, and consequently suffered permanent brain damage. He was released in 1946.

Roy Wright (d. 1959), age 12 at the time of the alleged crime had all charges against him dropped; the state said that they felt that given his age, and time served, he should now be released.

Eugene Williams, age 13 at the time of the alleged crime had all charges against him dropped, for the same reasons given for Wright.

Olen Montgomery, who was nearly blind and had been found alone in a car at the end of the train had all charges against him dropped, as the state announced that after consideration, they now believed him to be not guilty.

Willie Roberson, who was suffering acutely from syphilis and could barely walk at the time of the alleged crime, also had all charges against him dropped, for the same reasons given for Montgomery.

The four who had charges dropped had spent over 6 years in prison on death row without trial.
Governor Graves had planned to pardon all of the defendants before he left office in 1938. However, during the customary pre-pardon interview, Graves was angered by the mens' hostility towards him and refusal to admit their guilt, so he did not issue pardons.

It's sad that many of these men lead lives of crimes even after they released probably based on the traumatic experience they had just for being black. I tell ya.

Next up one of my favorite authors: Mary Higgins Clark..I discovered her in High school and have loved how she puts together a story and I can always visualize the story as I'm reading it. Her daughter also writes pretty good books as well.

Here is a brief overview: At the start of bestseller Clark's riveting new novel of suspense, Kay Lansing recalls her first visit as a six-year-old to the Carrington estate in Englewood, N.J., where her father worked as a landscaper. Twenty-two years later, she returns to ask the present owner, Peter Carrington, if she can use the mansion for a fund-raiser. The two fall madly in love, and after a whirlwind courtship, they marry despite the shadow of suspicion that hangs over Peter regarding the death of a neighbor's daughter two decades earlier and the drowning of his first wife four years before. After an idyllic honeymoon, the couple return to New Jersey, where a magazine article has caused the police to reopen the cases. The subsequent discovery of two bodies buried on the estate causes even Kay to doubt her husband's innocence.

Hmmm very very interesting, Mary Higgins also has a few of her books made into movies (like Danielle Steele) so I always enjoy watching those as well.

I'll let ya know what I think when I'm done, but she's never let me down.

R.I.F

2008-08-13T08:34:00.000-07:00

Remember that Reading Is Fundamental.

Man that use to be my favorite time of the year, my lil heart use to pound and I'd wanna be the first person in line (which happened a few times since I'm a shorty and always have been). I wanted to be the first to run up the book table and see what I could grab before everyone else did. Would it be Goosebumps this week or perhaps a BabySitters Club book I sooo wanted to be Claudia even though she was Japanese lol.

Reading books is something I def want to instill in my nieces and nephews and of course my children. For each holiday/birthday and every event in between I buy books, which means my nieces and nephews will probably be like here come Auntie Honey with them dang on books LOL. I use to be able to read a book a day...still can when I have time.

With school starting in two weeks I've decided that my brain will be overloaded with legal stuff so I'm going to relieve some stress by delving back into my favorite past time....READING.

I can remember when I was in elementary school and Wed was library day. I use to even dress up lol for a long time Wed was my favorite day of the week, one because of library time and two because it was bible study night at church. Yea I was a weird child I know but I loved/love the simple things in life.

So after work yesterday I hit up the library near my house....got my library card...listened to the lil presentation about having late fees after about 10 min of talking...or what felt like 10 min of talking I was released to the stacks. I can get so lost in there when I finally left it was like almost 830 and the library closed at 9.

Reading is one of the things that can excite me so much I get lost in my own little world....so once I got home I couldnt' decide whether I wanted to read first or watch TV....TV won out a lil but once I realized that I had missed more than half of my Tuesday night show- Secret Life of the American Teenager--bad acting I know but I cant help but wanna know how she is going to handle being preg in HS (that is until SVU comes back on) I turned to Family Guy.

I poured over my 5 books (wanted to get more but my arms were hurting) trying to decide which one I wanted to read first and decided on SCOTTSBORO by Ellen Feldman. It must have been meant for me to read this cause I had just finished watching a depiction of this book on TV last weekend. In case you're not familiar with this story here is a brief description: The case of the Scottsboro Boys arose in Scottsboro, Alabama during the 1930s, when nine black youths, ranging in age from twelve[1] to nineteen, were falsely accused of raping two white women, Victoria Price and Ruby Bates. Although repeatedly found guilty and sentenced to death by all-white southern juries, the case garnered international attention and eventually all the men went free, the last over 20 years from the initial incident.

Very interesting movie and the book should be even better (I always think the book is better than the movie..prime example the Notebook by Nicholas Stark and the follow-up book the Wedding...hands down the best LOVE story in the world)

So I'm at it again I will prob be done half these books by Sunday lol....I learned to speed read in elementary school too and I dont skim and scan I actually read and can remember various small details of what I've read.

So if you're a reader...email me some of your favorites (mshoneylibra@gmail.com)
I'll read em and perhaps they will become some of my favorites as well.

Happy Reading!!!!

posted@11:53am

Are you on Crack.......

2008-08-11T06:44:00.000-07:00

So remember the story from last week about the accident well more follywag has been spoken from this persons mouth.

I promise I think she is smoking the breastmilk that she should be giving the baby. This chic took her one month old to Hershey Park on Saturday....and was talking about she put her in a bathing suit and she was in the wade pool.

Now I'm all for babies lookin cute in swimwear but I mean come on dude you can barely drive yet or have sex and you taking lil red to the amusement park...that's like 3 hours away in like 95 degree weather (in the words of B. Scott: Lord have mercy kelly clarkson eddie murphy!!!!).

On top of that supposedly the baby daddy is out of work this week cause he got injured...how you gonna go to Hershey Park and be injured....ummm great...the trip was to reward his oldest daughter who is 9 I think cause she read a book...not even an educational book just a book. Now I'm all for reading no matter what it is, but if he wanted to go so bad he could have taken her alone..a nice lil father daughter trip....since he doesn't spend time with her too much anyway and if he wanted everyone to go why not go to DC, there is the Zoo, the Spy Museum, the Smithsonian I mean all within a comfortable distance...but who am I....I dont have no kids LOL

That mess dont even tip the iceberg I have heard/seen so much nonsense that it doesn't make any sense anymore...perhaps an intervention needs to be staged. LOL

Maybe I'm overreacting........

posted@9:46am

No Sleep!

2008-08-08T08:16:00.000-07:00

Well the story from the other day has not been proven to be true or false...but the car is damaged (according to roomie) but of course we dont know if the persons license wasn't valid or whatever which would cause them not to file a police report. Im just gonna start laughing at folks when stuff sounds like follywag.

Anywho this morning I get on the train prepared to sleep till its my time to get off and at about the second stop after mine this lady gets on with two little girls...i'm like oh kelly clarkson please dont let this be the crying car. So I settle into my seat again after this great apprehension and start to fall back into sleep (those lil 20 min do me a lot of good). Low and behold another lady gets on this time with a lil boy. So it begins first the lil girl was crying becuase her big sister would not share whatever she had with her. The mom of course tells her to give it to her lil sister and stop being mean......on and on she crys. She quiets down but is still whimpering. The lil boy apparently took his que cause he decides that he wants to go out the metro doors even though clearly its not his stop. His mom begins to pull him into her lap, he's falling out of her lap screaming at the top of his lungs. I felt so sorry for the man sitting beside her cause I know he was like what the hell have I gotten myself into this morning.

The mother of the lil boy was trying not to spank him you could tell but inside my head I'm like pop his lil legs he will cry a lil longer but at least he will sit down and stop screaming and distrubing my sleep. He goes on and on up and down onto the floor. While all this is going on apparently an old man took this as his que to go into stories ( a what seemed like 10 metro stop story) about his grandchildren and how he was forced to beat their behinds when they tried to run game on him. I was like come on folks I'm trying to sleep...I didnt say this out loud but of course I was thinking this in my head. I mean I need that lil bit of sleep, it makes me sorta wake up for the day...these bammas destroyed it!

Great..how will I be with my children...will I let them just scream and scream....knowing me I'll pop them bammas as soon as they start. Hopefully I will have the evil stare like my mom use to have on me and my sisters...boy was that lethal.

posted@11:38am

True or False

2008-08-05T07:08:00.001-07:00

You hear the following story from a friend:

I got into a car accident with the kids and my boyfriend (one of the kids including a less than one month old baby). We didnt' get a police report, the lady had allstate (does that mean that she aint gonna try to get you on the funds to get the car fixed).

The ambulance checked the kids out said they were ok, we didnt go to the hospital cause we didnt wanna ride in the ambulance (and yes they have insurance).

She says the car is messed up bad, the person hit the passenger side, her boyfriend says it aint that bad. No one has seen the car. After the accident they go to his moms house, take a nap then go to dinner. The next day they go to the hospital.....hmmmmmm

True or False?

posted@10:11am

Thoughts

2008-07-31T07:55:00.000-07:00

My lil sis is seriously blowing me. How you just give birth like a week ago and you worried about when we going out...not to say that she is trying to go to the club but I'm like dang. I hope she dont think I would put my nephews off on my parents or that I'm gonna let her do that either..when I'm in town haha

I'm suppose to go home tomorrow since I have it off and I figured she would go into labor...but she had him last week..I can't wait to see my Ja'lyn who I have nicknamed JayDee (JD) his middle name is Derrick.

If I do go home we'll prob just do a movie and dinner or something..nothing too serious I cant bear the thought of my parents taking care of HER kids while we party the night away.

Ok so I am sooo in love with Lloyd's new CD man he never lets me down and there are few folks that I have every one of their cd's cause music tends to be trash these days...but I am feeling Keri Hilson's Energy I hope her CD does well.

Hun and I are aight I guess....honestly I dont know what or how I'm gonna handle whatever it is that I'm doing. I wanna move out..but that's easier said than done when you're paying a mortgage and going to school. So I'm gonna see how school goes and make plans to move out by the end of this year...does he know...no but honestly I dont even wanna talk to him about it until I can seriously move....he knows that I was thinking about it but he doesn't know that I'm still thinking about it.

About a month or so ago I got a message on myspace from some chic that had some info. Turns out she had been sleeping with him and what not. He had been lying about going to work and going over there and what not. I'm thinkin i'm giving him space to do music since thats what he claims he LOVES and he's bonin oh girl. Great, yea I'm not home all the time but I didnt move in with a guy to be alone all the time...so I hang out with my girls and other friends...I come home yea but when you make it a point to be like well if you aint here i work on music..I dont wanna do nothing but work on music...then I'm gonna think you dont want me around or you dont care if I aint around......yea uh huh. So we had a big blow up about that cause just the day before I had a strange feeling and I asked him about it and he was like nah things are good..I'm good...we're good then BAMN I find that out...great. On top of that I saw more info that I think he held out on and that's the other thing that hurts.

So he's trying to prove to me that he wont ever do that again...at this point I dont know if I even care cause everytime I leave or whatever I question what he says and does. He is planning something for my bday in October (if I'm still around then) I told him a while ago that I didnt wanna be in VA so I have no idea what he's planning...once again to prove to me I guess that he is very sorry. The part that blows me is that this fool really played the part I didnt see any of this crap coming....SERIOUSLY...ah well. I was always like oh he dont care if I leave he is gonna work on music anyway he is a real chill type dude yea uh huh chill with someone else lol

Lesson learned and I wouldn't have known any of this if we had not lived together. But what I hate is when folks take it upon themselves to tell me oh I dont you two should have moved in together do I say I dont think you should have come out today with that purple outfit on it makes you look like Barney..no I let you live your life mistakes and all....for the most part it isnt' even my girls cause they know I'm already half depressed about it's my male friends..well one in particular. But he's trying to holla so I'm kinda like boo dont be trying to make yourself seem better than the averge when you just like them...its just gonna take time for your dogness to shine through.

In other news I am soo ready for class to start I make my first tuition payment tomorrow and I buy my book in a couple of weeks. I took the first day of class off from work so I could have my head ready for this 4 class load. Needlesstosay the closer I get to finishing the more excited I get about finding a new job.

I was at R's job the other day and I realized just how strange our relationship might seem to folks. Roomie was like you spend more time with him than you do Hun and I was like yea I know..he's like the BF and Hun is like the roomie. He doesn't like to do anything and R will do everything. When I wanna go to the movies..I go with him. When I go for drinks he comes or meets me there....when I get invited to cookouts if Hun is acting stank...R goes....I know sad but true...ah well.

This weekend will be chill...gonna go look for a dress cause I'm hanging out with my girls and we've decided that we're all wearing dresses.....

I know I gotta update on my weight..I haven't forgotten just wanted get down some more before i report lol...have a great weekend since today is my FRIDAY!!!!

posted@11:07am

WOW

2008-07-29T07:42:00.001-07:00

I was so not expecting to go home this weekend. I had taken off next Friday so I could be home the whole weekend since my lil sister was due with her third kid.

I get a call Saturday morning that her water had broken...I half way closed my eyes then jumped back up cause I realized that this is the first time that I could be there for the whole thing so I jumped in the shower, put clothes on, packed some clothes for that night and sunday and drove to hampton. Made it down there by 9:15am and lets just say I was on Big Sister/Auntie mode for the rest of the weekend.

I got hungry and decided that I would hit up the church picnic and also play with my nephews while I was there so I got lil sis some ice and told her I'd be back in like 2 hours. Got to the church, ate some food, played with the nephews and get a call that they are gonna give my sis the epidural.

I pack up the nephews and get my other sister and we head on to the hospital. My parents had other stuff to do so it was up to me to make sure that everything was ok. Of course it would have been ok even if I hadn't been there but you know how that goes, you just wanna make sure. Now my sister's pressure had been going up and down and the baby's heart rate was going up and down as well. Homegirl was on Magnesium and potocin (to induce her contractions which had stopped) so yea she was like in and out of it. She progressed from 4.5 cm to 5 to 7 and finally 9...my other sis took my nephews out the room and it was time for baby to come.

Now I've seen the videos and all that crap but to be there live and in living color man I was crying. She did a good job even though see was in and out of it. The midwife was like I hope she can remember she gave birth (I think my sis was a lil dramatic but that's just me..I aint had not one kid so what do i know lol). But she asked to hold him so the midwife was like well that's good. I got to cut the cord and be the first person to hold him.

My mom and dad got there like 10 min after Ja'lyn Derrick O'neil came into the world weighing 7.9 pds and 21 inches long. After they cleaned him up his big brothers came in and we all took pics of course. My youngest nephew fat fat (Jeremiah) was looking at JayDee like I'm the baby what are you doing here lol....

So once again I'm an AUNTIE!!!!! I've named my nephews the JSquad since all of their names begin with J's: Jai, Jeremiah and Ja'lyn.

So I'm pooped, I can not even begin to imagine how I will be preg lol...and yep I had another preg dream this time it was my momma.....what in the devil is going on....

posted@10:50am

Once again...

2008-07-21T07:46:00.001-07:00

I've gone and disappeared only to reappear lol...I know I know horrible of me...what can I say...lots of things going on and dont really have the time to update like I use to...

School starts in a month and when I say I am excited I mean that in every sense of the word...I can't wait!!

My lil sis lied about being 5cm had me all worried and what not. I promise she has mind problems...chic when to the hospital and is barely 3cm dialated. So she will prob go into labor when she is suppose to Aug 2nd. I took that Fri off so I'll prob go home thurs night after work or more than likely early Fri morning around 5am. Just so I can be there the whole weekend.

Things with Hun and I are kinda weird. He's trying and I can't that I knock him for it. It's just I dont care anymore. He did something that I didn't expect him to do and I to be honest I'm in shock. I dont wanna look at someone and have to wonder if they are telling me the truth everytime they do something and that's what I do. So I choose to ignore the situation and just do what I gotta do without saying anything...which I know is a bad thing but that's how I handle things.

Twin had her baby..she is soooo cute. She's the first baby born into the crew. When I say crew I mean to one of my closest friends. We met freshmen year in 2000 and we've been going strong ever since. Folks are amazed that we still talk to one another and what not but hey as they say in college you meet some of the best friends that you'll ever meet and that is just what happened to me. We're there for every bday, every crying night and every sunshinny day and I can't imagine not having those 5 ladies in my life :)

Hmm what else. Went to see Dark Knight and I LOVED it. Of course I'm a sensative soul so all I could think about was how Heath Ledger died in his prime..I tell ya I was sooo sad. Of course I loved how they brought all the characters stories in and you werent left hanging at least I wasn't so it was a great movie.

I rode R's bike on Saturday and we went to a pool party that was pretty aight. I regret the fact that I didn't get to get in the pool cause we got there so late but I'm going to a bartendars party on Saturday so that should make up for it lol. He's gonna teach me how to ride a motorcycle...so that should be fun...I told Hun what I was doing I have no idea if he was mad or whatever he didn't say he was but later that night he sent me a text and asked if I was still at my cousins house..I was like where else would I be...I guess he thought R's place...great

Now I gotta go see Hell Boy and Journey to the Center of the Earth (in 3d) if I can't see that in 3D then I dont wanna see it...great

Nothing much else going on....what's been going on with you.....guess I should just stop by the blogs huh?

Take care and whenever I disapper just holla at me on gmail I'll prob respond faster lol

posted@10:56am

I've been tagged...

2008-07-09T12:19:00.001-07:00

I haven't done one of these in a while so since I was tagged...and I do like the person that tagged me LOL I figured I would participate....here goes:

The Rules"List seven songs that you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your spring/summer. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to."

Jazmine Sullivan (I need you bad): Boy I need you bad as my heartbeat, (bad like the food I eat)Bad as the air I breath, (baby I want you bad)I need you bad I can't take this pain, (bad I can't take this pain)Boy I'm 'bout to go insane (baby I need you bad)

This is my JAM...on top of that I have a compliation of her songs and I def play them :)

Deitrick Hadden w/ Mary Mary and Reuben (Love him like I do): See I got a testimony how He saved my soul When I was just a sinner left in the cold Gave me a second chanceSaved me from myself Came to my rescue When I needed help You want to know why I love him like I do Cause when my enemies said I was thru He took me from the bottom And put me on the top He laid his hands on me And now I can't be stopped

Jennifer Hudson (Spotlight): Well, I don't like Living under your spotlight Just because you thinkI might find somebody worthy Well, I don't like Living under your spotlight Baby, if you treat me right You won't have to worry

A newbie but I jam to it all the same

For some odd reason when summer or spring rolls around I jam to LL Cool J's Luv you better: Baby smile today Cuz I been on that journey always I'm gon' love you better When your friends'll see you too Just when you think there's nothin' else I can do I'm gon' love you better

Jordin Sparks (No Air): Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air Can't live, can't breathe with no air It's how I feel when i know you ain't there It's no air, no air Got me out here in the water so deep Tell me how you gon' be without me If you ain't here, I just can't breathe It's no air, no air

Monica (Everytime the Beat drops): This is my JAM and I love listening to it when the weather is nice out and my windows are down lol I can't help who I'm is, when they play my shh I just love to dance, every time the beat dropI love to wild out damn right, shake it all night Hey that's my jam, every time the beat drop I said UH, all the ladies in the club grab a dude And you work it real slow, you can do it Move it, till you make him lose it RoRoRoRock then bend my knees, every time the beat drop He gon' be a fan, every time the beat drop

and last but not least: Aerosmith (I dont wanna miss a thing): Yes I can jam to them to..put on this song and you would think I was about to die on the moon lol I don't wanna close my eyes I don't wanna fall asleep'Cause I'd miss you, babe And I don't wanna miss a thing' Cause even when I dream of youThe sweetest dream will never doI'd still miss you, babe And I don't wanna miss a thing

OK I'm done...oh wait one more...Anita Baker (Angel): Love the way we touchI love the way it feelsEverytime you're near meMy poor heart just won't keep stillNo doubt about it that this love I feel is realAsk me to go with you, you know I willHold me near, hold me tightOnly you can make it realOnly you can make it alrightJust let me know that I am special to youMy angel, oh angelYou're my angel, oh angelYou're my angel, oh angelYou're my angel, oh angelYou're my angel, oh angel

I tag everyone in my comments: List your songs in the comments section...ready......set....GO!!!

posted@3:37pm

Relax...Relate....Release

2008-07-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

Remember that episode of Different World where Whitley was taught this method cause she was being soo extra...then again she was always extra but this is one of my favorite episodes...along with the one where Dwayne crashes her wedding...classic

Anyway....life has been life...it aint roses and hot apple pie with ice cream. It kicks ya when your down then laughs at you while your trying to get back up only to push you over again.

I'm good now....at a place where I really dont wanna talk about what occurred....perhaps at a later date....but I'm not dying or on the verge of throwing myself into rush hour traffic LOL so breathe easy homies :)

Why was I walking down the street the other day on my way to the bank talking to my lil sis and some Spanish man who was walking with one of his homies proceedes to walk in front of me with his arms open and if you know me a lil bit you know I was like eww what the piss and I'm sure my face was all twisted up LOL....boo get the heck outta my way...lookin like some hot trash on a 100 degree day. My lil sis was crackin up.

She's found a new boo, I of course as her big sis told her to learn from before....have your own space and time....be who you wanna be dont try to spend all your time and efforts on someone else....you can love them yes but dont forget you in the process...I've been there done that and aint trying to go there again.

It's crazy how you know that change is good and sometimes needed but darn it to heck if that crap dont hurt like a wooden splinter. You know what you gotta do, but doing it can take forever.

All i can say is that I can't wait for Thursday to come....of course its everyone's Friday..unless your just horribly unlucky lol and I can't say that I wish I were you....and I have monday off...so I'm gonna be in straight party mode come Thursday night....I expect to sleep, clean, drink, eat, but not over eat and just enjoy this time off of work before I start school again in Aug. I'm taking 4 classes instead of 3 cause I wanna be done by next summer...gotta make moves.

I've had dreams for the last month that I was preg...what the piss....needlesstoday I am on tummy watch like it aint no joke. No I'm not actively trying to get preg but when you have a sister who seems to make babies in her sleep lol you gotta wonder.

Have a great weekend!!!!

posted@10:15am

What to do, what to do

2008-06-26T07:51:00.000-07:00

When you wanna leave but you wanna stay

When you know that what you think is good for you is really bad for you

When things just suck but you realize it could be worse

When some folks just feel the need to tell you what they think you should or shouldn't do

When you wanna drop kick folks in the knee and then kick em in the chin while they are down

When you wanna laugh at the stupidity that comes out of folks mouths, but you wanna cry cause it just dont make nosense

When you love someone so much that you wanna give em the world

When you sometimes feel like you can't see the forest for the trees

When you realize you gotta make moves and that you werent expecting to have to do it anymore
When you're scared but you know that once you get it crackin you'll be fine

When you think you know what you gotta do but you honestly dont have a clue

When you wanna just lay down and not get up

When you realize that the person you love really aint who you thought they were

When you realize that you gotta suck it up and make some moves, moves that you thought you wouldn't be making ever again

When the person you love and I mean really love realizes that they love you too but the both of you are scared as a kid crossing the street for the first time alone.

When what you know you gotta do scares you so much that you would just rather not do it at all

What do you do....when you dont know what to do.....

Confusion

2008-06-20T11:46:00.000-07:00

When it come to remaining calm while my insides are being ripped apart, I think I do a pretty darn good job of holding my emotions in tact...but right now I just wanna curl up and drip myself into a drunk coma.

I'll return and speak on it when I feel like it.

TMI Tuesday

2008-06-10T07:26:00.001-07:00

Havent done one of these in a while. Figured if I did one it would take my mind off the heat LOL

1. What lines have you used to let someone down gently.

I can love you and not be with you, I just think I'm the problem and I dont want to mess your life up. Now that was to put it nicely I've also called men A-holes and wack A bammas among other things LOL

2. If I gave you $10K to waste, what would you buy.

I'd actually pay my bills off.

3. If I gave you $10K, but you had to spend it all on someone else, what would you buy.

I'd pay my parents bills off.

4. If your partner brought a double dildo to bed, you'd be ____________?

Laughing and wondering who this strange man is.

5. What sounds to you make during sex.

That depends I tend to moan and ohhh and ahhh. I've also been know to talk LOL and I do tend to favor the S and F words lol

Bonus (as in optional): Tell your worst break up story.

Honestly all of them are considered bad breakups to me, but I think the one that takes the cake would be Z. I fell in love with him during college and we broke up on good terms but I cried and wouldn't eat for weeks....he was truly someone I wanted to be with. We still talk on occassion and sometimes I wish that time and space were available for us to be together but things happen for a reason so I've moved on.

posted@10:33am

Thankful

2008-06-05T06:44:00.000-07:00

Haven't really been doing good with these....and it's funny cause when I did it I seemed to feel a lil better about things so here goes...

I'm thankful for being able to wake up this morning

For having usage of my limbs

For just being able to see through these eyes of mine..whether it be through contacts or glasses some folks woke up to darkness

For all my family being safe and sound amid the horrible weather yesterday

For R, who is bombarding his way into my life...in a good way

For realizing that life is about living and learning, I can't be mad that I'm learning lessons the way I am, hopefully my children wont be as hard headed as me lol

For understanding how beautiful I am, even in the mornings with funky breath

For being important to someone

For dreaming of kissing him.....that Total song is playing now and I can't help but smile

For just being able to be me :)

For my new godson Gavin being born healthy and strong and the anticipation of the 2 additional babies that will be born in the next two months..WOOHOOO

For all of you......I might not stop by all the time but believe that when I see or hear something that reminds me of you....I think of you :)

posted@9:55am

She's BACK!!

2008-06-02T07:44:00.000-07:00

A mid the wonderful weather and getting sick I'm back from vacation.

Wish I were still laying on the beach

I didn't go to Va beach with hun...long story and honestly it might make me upset all over again so I ended up in Myrtle Beach

Let's just say now that I realized that what I thought I felt isn't what I felt at all

I realized that things might not change and I need to change them

I miss him....

If this world were mine and Angel by Anita Baker are my new favorite songs :)

My fam came up for my presentation which went rather well....I've been a Zeta for 3 months now but now I can relish in it :)

I can somewhat get my nights back lol

Joined weight watchers and so far it's aight, I just have to get in the habit of tracking everything I eat....we'll see how this goes

HEYYY REESIE!!!! I just had to do that, that's my homie lol

I'm ready for the weekend!

Vacation Time

2008-05-21T07:44:00.001-07:00

So I'm sitting here at my desk wishing that I had taken the day off cause I just dont wanna be here...not because I'm bored but because today is my Friday meaning after today I dont have to be back at work till next wed WOOHOOOOO

I mean after that's said what else can I say :)

This weekend was fun, two graduation parties. Both friends got masters degrees I'm sooo excited for them...I love having educated friends LOL then again the ones that aren't educated are funny too lol let me stop

Had brunch with the girls so I got to see the baby belly on roomies twin sister. It was nice to hang out with them I told them we need to do it at least once a month.

Was suppose to go to KD but it rained so we invited the couple that were suppose to go with us over for dinner and we played Uno and Taboo and just chatted..it was cool. They just got a house in Triangle...gotta love those blessings.

So after today you might not hear from me till Wed unless you call and harass me lol. Hopefully I have some good stories to tell.

Be safe, drive safe and drink safe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is the Remix Killa

2008-05-15T06:44:00.000-07:00

..and I think he wants me to feel em lol (Gotta love Kells boy)

Today is Thursday tomorrow is Fri and if I get my stimulus money I'll have a great weekend.

Graduation gathering tomorrow for one of my frat and they are having crabs so I gots to be in the building....Hun might tag along...not too sure

Saturday brunch at the Carlyle with the girls celebrating the twins 26th bday...it was really on the 7th but since one of them is with child her 757 baby shower was that weekend...her baby shower for those folks up here is in June (I have a chapter meeting that day and a baby shower good thing both of them are in MD or I would be hurt lol)

Wearing blue today..I feel kinda jazzy :)

I realized my hair was getting long this morning while I was eating my cereal and I had the tip of my loc in my mouth soaked in milk lol

Had my turkey sausage and cereal..sounds like a lot but I ate before I left the house...Hun likes to cook breakfast sometimes and then when I got to work I ate a cup of Special K. So I'm set till lunch

I need some new sneakers.......

We're going to VA Beach for Memorial Day...perhaps learn to like one another again LOL sike let me stop but for real we both need some time away from the norm..

Not buying another bathing suit this year at least not until I've been confirmed to go to Cancun in November (one of my girls bday is gonna be there)

We're going to Kings Dominion on Sunday....should be fun it's not suppose to rain so it should be aight

My sis ex who is now her man again is going into the Air Force..I think it will be good for him...he's still young, needs to decide what he wants to do and that's a good place to start, plus he will gain some weight. Just dont want him to go down there and loose his mind like so many guys do with all the free women available lol you know some women could care less about the man they love those military benefits LOL

So I like Cherish's new cd I've been bumpin it since hmm Monday ish

What do you do when your LS annoys you LOL...I love her dearly but dang on it girl leave me be woman

So I like the remix of Lollipop better....Kanyezy is a BEAST LOL.....like Fritos I'm trying to Lay BWAHHHHHH ok enough of that and yes I really am laughing that hard (on the inside of course since I'm at work)

Hmmm I think that's about it...I wanna go to ATL before the summer is over so I'm looking into doing a lil weekend thing....plane tickets are a beast though...need I say it.....LOL no you already know what I'm gonna say

Wait for it......Wait for it...

WE'RE IN A RECESSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

posted@9:52am

Almost Midweek Randomness

2008-05-06T08:34:00.000-07:00

Aight I'm at work a tad hung over...dont tell anyone lol so if this is not understandable you know why

I realized that I love John Mayer yesterday go get his CD Continuum.....good music to listen to when you're in the zone

I saw Iron Man last night and I wish they had come with that before Transformers but I LOVED it!

I tell ya if I could be a superhero it would be on and poppin!

How come when I drink I think of some of the craziest things...R says that I always say movies would be better in 3d LOL..but I mean hey they would.

On top of that why do I go in the bathroom to use it and just sit there LOL staring into space...maybe I'm not the only one that does that though lol

Robert Downey's body was HAWT or maybe that was just the liquor in my system lol

I'm ready to go home and go to sleep.

Ready for Friday actually.....or anytime that I can go back to sleep..cause I dont even remember going to sleep last night lol

How come when I'm nice I wanna listen to all my favorite songs...last night I was jammin to Marc Dorsey's Crave and the radio was blastin when I got inthe car this morning almost blew my dang on ear drums out lol.....it never seems that loud when i'm listening to it the night before

I have no clue the next movie I wanna see oh yea Lakeview Terrace with Samuel L. That looks good

Nothing else to talk about other than some man harassing me about what time it was boo I'm on the phone and there are a billion and one folks on the sidewalk ask one of them....I was about to say something but I was like maybe if I ignore him he will leave me alone. I had to cross the stree in order for him to stop saying excuse me to me...wow and on top of that how do I even know your talkin to me...lol

How come the old lady at farragut west metro is always shakin her cup so hard...boo we see you standing there with your walker you shaking your cup all hard does not make me wanna give you money it just makes you look angry that folks aren't givin you no money....I should be askin you for some change we both trying to eat during this RECESSION!!!!

Nothing else to say I dont think...let me go get some water since Momma BK said I can't drink so sugar water (aka Propel lol)

Bust it Baby

2008-05-02T07:12:00.000-07:00

So I like that song but not Plies part ( but I do like him)...I know I'm weird...I hate when he says he calls her "wet wet" it just sounds so nasty coming out lol like his breath stinks. On top of that what is a bust it baby...and do I even want someone callin me that

So the homeless man beat me to work this morning. He had his coffee in had and was placing his milk crate down while I'm still walking up the sidewalk to head into my building. Funny cause he was like he what's happening....morning and all that...I guess everybody gotta grind..need I remind you...we are in RECESSION LOL

Complaints of gas (and not the kind you pass) are ever present. I was watching a clip the other night on how folks are breaking folks gas tanks on their gas just to get the gas..WOW...and folks are taking gas through hoses...siphing I think that's the word..well that's the word I just dont know how to spell it

This summer will be the summer of babies...I tell ya. My bestest is having her boy at the end of this month, my roommates sister is due in July and my lil sis (this is boy number 3) is due in August.

I tell ya I can only shake my head when I think about my lil sister being on baby number three. I dont know who she is in a race with LOL..cause it sure as heck aint me. Jaylin will be his name..so she's keeping with the J theme which I like cause I'll end up callin him J3 maybe LOL of just J. I have a lil time to come with with a nickname then again when I see him it will probably change. When my Toot was born I called him Cotton cause he was so soft then I just started callin him toot....I always called Jeremiah Fat fat...cause he's soooo fat lol....so we'll see where J3 fits in.

I'm ready for a vacation. I think we're going to the beach on memorial day not too sure....I was going to SC but with us being on the cusp of living in a box (we're in RECESSION) I think I need to save my lil funds for gas LOL and food hahah

I am in LOVE with BJ's wholesale store...we went in there and shopped came out with like $200 worth of stuff and I cant' wait to go back LOL..I get carried away between the numerous bars of soap you can get and how many samples they give away LOL....stuff I dont even eat on the regular I might eat just cause it's a free sample.

This weekend will be rather busy I guess. Tonight HH with some of the gang, tomorrow morning chapter meeting and hair appointment. Might hit up a step show not too sure yet and between all that study for step practice on sunday at 2. And we have to work on the front yard cause it's starting to look like a jungle. I'm embarassed to walk in the door. I'm just waiting on someone from the home owners association to leave somethin on our door lol

I will admit that I listen to the country station on pandora LOL...What can I say I love me some shania and the dixi chicks are pretty aight

Is it just me or has R. Kelly season begun....the dream, mariah and now my boo raheem have all fallen under his spell...but I will admit the remixes are HOTTTTT. I have been jammin to I gots to migrate for a min lol

Have a great weekend!!!

posted@10:30am

Update

2008-04-22T07:11:00.001-07:00

So things have been pretty hectic the last couple of days and I haven't been able to post like I would like to.

I'm pretty good....work is aight

My fat fat got his first haircut and he is TOOOOO CUTE!!! Man I promise you if I didnt' have to go through nine months of fatness and then labor and on top of that have to deal with how much money it takes to raise and have a baby I would do it ASAP LOL

Gotta register for class, I'm trying to decide between taking a class this summer or just waiting till the fall and it's looking like I might just wait till Aug. I want to do some traveling this summer and I can't do that and go to school.

I'm working on presentation that occurs tomorrow. I need to time it. In case I havent' mentioned it I turned in a final project in my legal research class that consisted of creating a case memo and a case brief. Apparently I got a 100 on it...on of the few that my teachers has ever given out so he selected me to submit an application to present my project at the student spring conference. This is a great opportunity for me to network and what not...so yahhhh for me.

Hopefully I can meet some pretty cool folks tomorrow and get a leg up in this industry.

Man gas is INSANE. Everytime I get in my car I cringe...never have I put some many "Can I get 5 on 2"'s in my car LOL....or I'm scrappin up change out of the house and car to make $10 LOL....RECESSION SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!

The funny thing is I keep saying it.....someone was like lets do something this weekend I was like is it free cause we're in recession LOL.....my boss wasted some paper I was like you're killin trees..we might need those for fuel since we're in recession LOL....I might be over doing it a tad bit.

On top of that my Sundays have been filled with practice for spring 08's presentation (that's me and my linesisters). We have to create songs and greetings all that jazz...kinda like a probate but since we're not in college anymore a lil more sophisticated. Not only do we have practice for that on Sunday but we have practice on Mondays too...so yea I'm pretty much tired come thurs or fri.

This weekend I have community service at 6am with the NPHC and then Sunday is March for Babies in DC at 8am....no practice till Tues so I should be able to do laundry and clean the house a lil.

Have a great day!!!

Happy Birthday...My Fat Fat!!!

2008-04-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

I remember coming to the hospital to see you come into the world and today your 1. I can't believe how fast you've grown. Your beginning to mumble words and I can almost make them out :)

I'm so thankful that you came into this world with everything in tact and seemingly perfect (then again I might just be biased). You are a joy to watch and I love you more each time I think, talk, or see you. I love holding and playing with you. You are one of the reasons I look forward to having children.

I'm so thankful that you have my mommy and daddy to look after you and make sure that your ok (cause sometimes your mommie needs a lil extra help).

I'm thankful that you have come into my world even if it was by surprise....

I'm thankful that God provided you with a big brother who loves you to pieces and will always look out for you or you after him lol

Stay out of the toilet water, I know you like splashing in it but that's nasty man lol

I pray that as you get older you know that auntie loves you and will always be there for you...no matter what.

I love you JJ.....and Happy Birthday FAT FAT!!!!! (maybe once you get a lil older I'll stop calling you that lol)

posted@10:22am

2008-04-10T07:31:00.000-07:00

I'm aight....

I hate the fact that you weren't upset about me leaving the house and now all of a sudden you are...ERRR

If you did stuff with me you wouldn't have to worry about me hanging out

Sometimes the things you love about a person can also cause you to dislike them

I'm ready for a vacation

I know money is important but what are you gonna do sit on it all day

Perhaps I'm over reacting

It seems like just when I try to create peace you wanna keep the drama coming

Your pushing me further and further away

You just dont get it....do you

I wish I could just run away....see if I feel better than that

Boo why are you talking to me now that all the white folks have gotten off the elevator....with your sweatpants leg rolled up....no one does that anymore...get outta here

Why does your face look like you got smacked in it with the branches from the ugly tree

I dont know if I'm gonna go on vacation come Memorial Day I might register for class...got prioritize.

Might just wait for Vegas in June.....I am sooo excited about that. Getting my plane ticket sometime next week

I thought it was gonna be more expensive...not too bad. I'll be there from Fri to Thurs

You are on my list that's all I got to say and it aint the good one.

No more ms. nice lady you get what you get and no more than that

I am hooked on the French Vanilla cappachino at 7-Eleven and the toquitos I dont even know if I spelled that right.

Dont try and fuss me out then try to be my friend....that's why you got no love this morning...meditate on that

I can be just as mean as I wanna be

I'm gonna get you.....AND YOUR LITTLE DOG TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Announcements

2008-04-04T14:15:00.001-07:00

The Pastor would like to thank all of you who paid your tithes last week. With the high price of gas -- every little bit helps.

And, he wanted us to mention that if you write a check, please make sure that it does not bounce. He said that you are still encouraged to pay your tithes and God only wants 10%, but if your check bounces we gone take 25%.>

From the health ministry: The usher board has asked those frequent shouters who routinely pass out on the altar to please wear clean underwear. Let your praise be holy, not your draws. Amen.

The deacon board has brought this to our attention also if you are one of the people that got tapped on your shoulder Sunday morning, make sure you pick up your Altoids at the hospitality desk before entering the sanctuary. Saints, lets not let our breath hinder our neighbor'spraise.

Special Note: We would like to apologize for those who came out to the Youth Explosion conference last night. The youth choir's remix ofShake that Laffy Taffy was totally unexpected. The youth director has been reprimanded and will issue a formal apology Sunday morning. Also, for those who witnessed Mother Green getting up and doing the Laffy Taffy dance, and are concerned, she is doing fine. She is in Methodist North recovering well.

Saints, don't forget about the Chitlin dinner this evening. If you haven't already placed your order, call the church office. And for those who are a little skeptical after the last Chitlin dinner, please feel at ease knowing that Pastor Happy has prayed over the Chitlins and no one from the Drug Rehab Ministry was involved in the preparation this time.

Pastor has requested that all "dark-skinned" members sit in the light during night service. Last Wednesday he heard voices in the dark and thought they were demons.

Please govern yourselves. AMEN

Is it Friday yet.....

2008-04-01T07:49:00.000-07:00

Locked my keys in the car this morning......they were in my trunk

Wallet got stolen, still has yet to be found..had to call and cancel everything and get new cards for EVERYTHING...even Blockbuster....great

I think I'm noticing the weight loss then again maybe not.....

I'm hungry but I know I'm not really hungry

I'm in dire need of a vacation......May can't come soon enough....South Carolina here I come.

I'm going to Vegas for Boule....buying my plane ticket first....maybe in the next two weeks.

Me and Hun had a convo about finances...gotta get use to sharing that info with him.....on top of that he called me childish I didnt like that......

I've stopped asking him to do stuff like go out of town....tired of thinking up everything....

Was talking to a guy friend and he asked me was I really happy...blank stare....

It's raining outside...well drizzling

The shoe store closed early in MD errrrrrrrrr I didn't even have time to try the shoes on...BASTARDS

I'm thinking about seriously going to Law School now......gonna take the LSAT prep course.

posted@11:01am

Almost party time

2008-03-26T07:32:00.000-07:00

Spring is nature's way of saying, "Let's party!" ~Robin Williams

Counting down till I can wear open toe shoes and flip flops WOOHOOO LOL

posted@10:43am

Friday Thoughts

2008-03-21T08:14:00.000-07:00

It's getting warmer outside..I'm gonna need for the wind to stop blowing me away though :)

I wanna wear open toe shoes or at least have that option

The weekend is finally here and I get to wear my Zeta shirt..WHOOOHOOO. Although I've been carrying my bag all week...I wanna wear my shirt

I've lost 5 pds so far....keep this up and I should be down 20 by the end of the summer....get it me!

I sorta feel it but I know it's gone when I get on the scale and I dont see that horrible number anymore...errrr

No juice for a whole month has paid off.....sippin on propell and bottled water does a sista some good

I can't wait to get home and see my fam this weekend.

Monday is Hun's bday...he wants to work on music all weekend so I'm just taking him to breakfast on monday...he's a simple man

I'm getting my hair done saturday which is great cause this mess is HORRIBLE....new growth stop haunting me LOL

I hate for my head to be a mess...i dont feel my best

Next weekend is regionals....so due to my linesisters having thurs and fri off...I'm driving to West VA alone! I'm a solider so I'll be good plus it's only 6 hours and on the way back I'll be following someone so it wont be too bad...I just dont wanna miss it since I have the opportunity to.

It's funny how when folks find out stuff about you via facebook or myspace they get mad...i'm like boo we aint that close that you could get a personal call like everyone else...sorry lol

Weird enough although I thought they were gonna be corny I kinda like Danity Kane and Day 26's albums...I've been listening to Day 26 for two days now I think there might be one song on there I can't get with..i'm a weird person though so others might not like it lol

I am sooo in love with the 25th Anniversay album for Thriller.....She's a P Y Ttttttttt ohhhh yea lol let me stop but you cant' tell me I dont be jammin in my car lol

On top of that it's facebook and myspace come on dog...if we were "real" friends you wouldn't have needed to log on there to know what's going on with me

Ok so I guess CVS on Conneticut Ave is the spot to be cause there are like 5 homeless people in front of there.....I mean we cant give change to all of you.....pick a representative....plus the regulars get mad at the others who just come through without asking

It's funny how the cross walk police be making folks back up out the cross walk...this cab thought he was gonna get by after dude threw his stop hand up.....homie got in front of the car and mad him back up and turn down a diff street LOL

I tell ya....so ready for the weekend.

posted@11:21am

Thankful for friends....who still love me even though I haven't called them in a month of sundays :)

2008-03-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.

But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.

I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me.

I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,

But I can cry with you and help you pick up the piecesand put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.

--Unknown

posted@10:37am

Can't Focus...

2008-03-17T08:19:00.000-07:00

I am tooo excited I can't even focus on my work :)

One of the reasons I've been sorta slack in postin

I'm out.....I'll probably be around more now :)

Off to bask in that ROYAL BLUE AND PURE WHITE LOVE!!!!

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZPHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SWEEEETTTTTTT!!!

Thankful for no charge love......

2008-03-12T06:54:00.000-07:00

This is one of my favorite gospel songs.......

No Charge

A little boy came up to his mother in the kitchen one evening while she was fixing supper, and he handed her a piece of paper that he had been writing on.

After his mom dried her hands on an apron, she read it, and this is what it said:

For cutting the grass $5.00

For cleaning up my room this week $1.00

For going to the store for you .50

Baby-sitting my kid brother while you went shopping .25

Taking out the garbage $1.00

For getting a good report card $5.00

For cleaning up and raking the yard $2.00

Total owed: $14.75

Well, I'll tell you, his mother looked at him standing there expectantly, and boy, could I see the memories flashing through her mind.

So she picked up the pen, turned over the paper he'd written on,

and this is what she wrote:

For the nine months I carried you while you were

growing inside me, No Charge.
For all the nights that I've sat up with you,

doctored and prayed for you, No Charge.
For all the trying times, and all the tears that you've

caused through the years, there's No Charge.
When you add it all up, the cost of my love is No Charge.

For all the nights that were filled with dread, and

for the worries I knew were ahead, No Charge.
For the toys, food, clothes, and even wiping

your nose, there's No Charge, Son.
And when you add it all up, the full

cost of real love is No Charge.

Well, friends, when her son finished reading what his

mother had written, there were great big old tears

in his eyes, and he looked straight up at his mother and

said, "Mom, I sure do love you." And then he took the

pen and in great big letters he wrote:

"PAID IN FULL."

~By Shirley Ceaser

2008-03-11T07:33:00.000-07:00

The Why's of Men

1. WHY DO MEN BECOME SMARTER DURING SEX?

(because they are plugged into a genius)

2. WHY DON'T WOMEN BLINK DURING SEX?

(they don't have enough time)

3. WHY DOES IT TAKE 1 MILLION SPERM TO FERTILIZE ONE EGG?

(they don't stop to ask directions)

4. WHY DO MEN SNORE WHEN THEY LIE ON THEIR BACKS?

(because their balls fall over their butt-hole and they vapor lock)

(You're laughing, aren't you?!?!)
YES YES YES

5. WHY WERE MEN GIVEN LARGER BRAINS THAN DOGS?

(so they won't hump women's legs at cocktails parties)

6. WHY DID GOD MAKE MEN BEFORE WOMEN?

(you need a rough draft before you make a final copy)

7. HOW MANY MEN DOES IT TAKE TO PUT A TOILET SEAT DOWN?

(don't know.....it never happened)

And the personal favorite:

8. WHY DID GOD PUT MEN ON EARTH?

(because a vibrator can't mow the lawn)

Remember, if you haven't got a smile on your face and laughter in your heart...Then you are just an old sour fart !

Wednesday Smiles

2008-03-05T07:18:00.000-08:00

I'm thankful for these wonderful smiles...I love my babies.....they will do till I have my own lol

Tuesdays with Honey

2008-03-04T07:40:00.000-08:00

It a lil warmer outside I know I'm gonna see someone with shorts on lol

Why do I keep blowing my nose, I promise I dont have any more snot in there

I'm actually doing rather well on this no juice thing for a month...I only had a lapse this weekend at my god daughters bday party.

Hun actually had fun I think he was laughing at how much my nephew talks....he says he gets it from his aunt (that would be me lol)

We're doing a lil better, I tell ya it's hard work and on top of that he says I'm bipolar (of course I'm not) but I can't help that I have mood swings lol I'm a woman and most of the time my mood swings come when you know what is here.....he just doesn't put two and two together.

I think I've lost a pound or two....my goal is to be back down to 185 by May and so far I think I'm doing pretty darn good. No juice and I'm eating more veggies and fruits so we'll see...plus I'm drinking water (I think I'm gonna be the new spokeswoman for Propel man I love that stuff)

I'm gonna start walking during my lunch break, so that should help a little. Plus I bought some lean cuisines to eat when I dont cook dinner meaning I dont have left overs for lunch so that I dont head out to get a burger or something else I dont need to eat

Hun and I are going to the gym tonight after I get home...that's one thing I miss..we use to do that on the weekends when we first started dating.....both of us have gained a couple of pds lol

I'm ready for memorial day...yea I know I have a lil ways to go but I think we're going on our first vacation together of course we dont know as of yet..gotta see how funds are but it should be fun either way I'm just not trying to be in the NOVA area

We are def going out the country before the year is over though I've already told him that he needs to get a passport......I wanna head to the DR

My sis found out that she is due in Aug, I'm glad this time it isn't a month before the baby is due like last time..that girl I tell ya

I want it to be like 68 everyday from here on out LOL...too bad dreams dont come true all the time

posted@10:47am

Thankful for Me (I mean I am Honey lol)

2008-02-27T07:00:00.000-08:00

Be Thankful

When you get what you want as your struggle for self

And the world makes you queen for a day,

Just go to the mirror and look at yourself,

And see what that woman has to say.

For it isn't your father or mother or husband

Who's judgement upon you must pass;

The person whose verdict counts most in your life

Is the one staring back from the glass.

She's the person to please, never mind all the rest,

For she's with you clear up to the end.

And you've passed your most dangerous, difficult test

If the woman in the glass if your friend.

You may fool the whole world down the pathway of life,

And get pats on your back as you pass.

But your final reward will be heartache and tears

If you've cheated the woman in the glass.

Thankful for doing what makes me happy!

posted@10:01am

Tag I'm it...and so what it's late

2008-02-26T06:28:00.000-08:00

1. Post these rules before presenting your list.
2. List 6 actions or achievements you think every person should accomplish before turning 18.
3. There are no conditions on what can be included on the list.
4. At the end of your blog, choose 6 people to get tagged and list their names.
5. People who are tagged write their own blog entry with their 6 suggestions.
6. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged.

Rule Number 1: Learn to save, this is something that I plan on teaching and instilling in my children and making sure they stick with it. My parents had an account for me but when I went off to college all that saving went out the window now I'm trying to instill again in myself what they started....and trust me it's harder when your older lol

Rule Number 2: Be a kid, I mean seriously dont be in a rush to turn 21, it aint all it's cracked up to be

Rule Number 3: Follow your heart, I mean yes sometimes we make mistakes but most of the time the best lessons learned in life come from following what you believe in no matter what others say

Rule Number 4: Keep in contact with close friends....trust me...some of my best friends are ones that I talk to once a year LOL, but I love them all the same and I know they love me

Rule Number 5: Do community service, even if it's once a month get out and do something.

Rule Number 6: Be physically active, I mean just go walking when it's nice outside or walk in place while watching tv.....if you create that lifestyle while your young it will be easier to maintain when you get older.....we all know that it's hard to try and wake up at 5am when your 3o with 2 kids LOL

I aint taggin no one too much work...yea I'm lazy ah well

posted@9:33am

I know I know

2008-02-22T07:11:00.000-08:00

According to one of my blog sistasssss (I love the color purple) I've been slacking on my blogging and I do apologize. I keep saying that and I find myself not updating and not even stopping by to comment so charge it to my head and not my heart.....

I've been fine, nothing much going on. I'm working on finding a new job at the moment and so far it looks pretty good, we'll see. I've been with my practice group since I graduated from college and I think it's time for a move if I want to advance any more...it's now or never.

The weather here in the NOVA area is HORRIBLE to say the least, if this means that the summer will be FIYA then please bring it on.....I'm so ready to wear open toe shoes that I dont know what I'm gonna do with myself.

My lil sis who currently has two bambinos is currently preg with her third one..I'm not sure if she is trying to populate the earth or make it impossible for me to catch up with her when I start to have my own children lol....great

On top of that my bestest is having a lil boy (she currently has a lil girl who is three today) so yea there are babies all around and no i'm not preg nor do I plan on getting preg lol, the pill and condoms are a great invention lol so is not having sex as my mother would say but hey what can I say.

Nothing to do this weekend, other than clean the house and work on sending my resume out ALOT. So I'll be catching up on Monk and my other favorite shows...I've just added Nip/Tuck to my lineup and I'm happy to report that via websites, and the FX channel I'm caught up for the season so when it starts up again I wont be confused. Now I need to catch up with the rest of the seasons.

I'll probably work on creating a budget this wekeend too doesn't make sense for someone with no kids to not have money LOL...clearly I need to change somethings up...great

I'm not really into American Idol this time around maybe I will be in a couple of weeks after they have cut em down a bit, but right now I'm into Law and Order so great.

I saw Jumper and 27 dresses, both good movies of course diff ends of the spectrum but both good just the same.

I have yet to see Untraceable maybe I'll take that in this weekend dont know yet, I saw Roscoe Jenkins, was kinda disappointed I thought it was gonna be funnier. Oh yea Hun has a show on Sunday so I'm going with him to that..should be very interesting....

Why is it so cold outside and I saw this lady on with a skirt and no stockings on WOW was all I could say I know she is freezing. I've got gloves, a scarf and a coat on with a hat and I'm still suffering from mountain climber frostbite.

I'm going home next weekend for my god daughters bday party, it's at a community center and I think it's suppose to be a pool party I'm not sure LOL...I get to see all my honies (I have alot now lol 2 nieces, 3 nephews and a possible since I dont know what my sis is having)

OHHH I just realized we're having a practice group meeting during lunch which means that I dont have to eat the peanut butter and jelly sandwich that I was gonna eat...YES!!! Darn those folks they aren't buying lunch so I gotta eat my sandwich great lol even the more reason for me to wish I were at home right now.

Have a great weekend...yes BK I know I've been tagged I'll do it on monday lol

posted@10:20am

2008-02-13T07:19:00.000-08:00

Blessings come in many shapes,

In sizes large and small,

But a brand new little baby

is the sweetest of them all.

With that being said I'm thankful today for all the new lives that will be brought into this world this year....my future niece or nephew (my lil sis is preg again....ah well that's all I can say), my best friend is having a lil boy (Omar auntie loves you already) and my roomies twin sister is having a lil girl......

I pray these children are all born healthy and strong!!!!

posted@10:25am

Friday Ramblings

2008-02-08T07:06:00.000-08:00

It's Friday and to say the least I'm ready to go home already and it's only 10am...great

HH tonight with the girls which should be grand.....actually anyplace is grand other than being at work

I think I say Bush yesterday since they closed down the street while I was trying to get to work and if that was him boy does he look goofy in person and if that's not him then that was a great decoy.

Ok we all know that the DC/VA/MD primaries are Tuesday please stop shoving flyers in my face before I slap you..dang

Yea I'm in a mood...I mean my pants are tight, i'm full but hungry and I'm on birth control on top of that my period is here.....leave me the piss alone

I love Tostitos especially with cheese dip emmmmm i want some right now even though I've just had a bagel.....

I keep trying to tell myself your not hungry your not hungry it's just the hormones playing with your mind.....good thing I dont have any food near by...oh yea a banana I could eat that.....hmmm I'll save it

Fam is good, I talked to my nephews last night...Toot said he was coming over my house on Sat lol he says that everytime he talks to me and we were both screamin whoohoo in the phone...my fat fat was clapping his hands while I was talking to him lol great

My god daughter will be 3 this month and my bestest will be 26. She also found out she's preg with a lil boy who is she will be naming Omar probably...hmm I like the sound of that...so the grand total will be I have 3 nephews and 2 nieces I wont need kids for a while LOL

Man I was sick sat and sun and between all that I was toasted celebrating a friends bday so this weekend was full of a vast array of emotions.

I can't wait for presidents day....only cause I have it off LOL

Counting it All Joy

2008-01-30T07:40:00.000-08:00

It's hard to understand sometimes
Is there a master plan How do I make sense of everything I'm going through
But maybe it's not ours to knowSo we have to learn to let things goAnd simply try to make the most
Of every day and have the faith
That somehow we will find our way

Chorus 1

So count it all joy, all that you're going through
Even when you're feeling down
Count it all joy, each moments a gift to you
So turn it all around
And even in the darkest night
If you look hard enough
There's a trace of sunlight waiting there Yes waiting there for you

Been searching everywhere to find That rainbow in the air
Whenever I came close it just seemed to disappear I had to change my point of view
Start looking at myself I can't believe I never knew Everything that I need
Was right here yes inside of me

Chorus 1

Bridge I don't have to be afraid
From today I have the faith
That somehow I will find my way

Chorus 2 So count it all joy, all that I'm going through Even when I'm feeling down
Count it all joy, each moments a gift to you So turn it all around
And even in the darkest night If I look straight ahead
There's a trace of sunlight waiting there

Yes waiting there for me and you

(Count it All Joy by BeBe & CeCe Winans)

Have a great day!!

posted@10:43AM

2008-01-23T06:38:00.000-08:00

"But the miracle of life itself; why people live and die, why they hurt and get hurt is still a mystery. We want to know the reason, the secret, the answer at the back of the book… because the thought of our being all alone down here is just too much for us to bear. But at the end of the day, the fact that we show up for each other, in spite our differences, no matter what we believe, is reason enough to keep believing." (Dr. Bailey- Grey's Anatomy)

I'm thank ful for my friends...

the ones who I only see ever so often but when we hang out it's like there has been no time and space between our visits

the ones that I see everyday but each day I find out something new about them

the ones that call me when they haven't heard from me and just want to say hi

the ones that I can call when I see something funny on my way home and they get it...... and even they dont they still let me yap

the ones that laugh even when they dont because the expression on my face as I'm tellin it makes them laugh

the ones that go out of their way to help me when I dont even think I need help

the ones that have seen me laugh and cry all in a span of 15 minutes and still come running each time I need them

the ones that understand my many facial seizures (that's what hun calls my facial expressions lol)

the ones who understand just what I'm thinking when something occurs and I look over at them

the ones that know when it's ok to be hard on me......and when I dont need to hear I told you so

the ones that I share simple and complicated memories with....if we never talk again we'll always have stories....

the ones I've met via blogworld....some of you I talk to pretty darn often others once in a blue moon but best believe if I'm ever in your neck of the woods I will be banging at your front door :)

posted@9:48

GUMBO

2008-01-22T06:14:00.000-08:00

I just realized how much I love singing along to music LOL....it's taking everything in me not to sing to Tamia's So into you...and I mean I would be gettin into it now if I wasn't at work LOL

I got my new phone..WOOHOOO and I love it. I have to get use to the keyboard cause it's a lil diff from the V that I had but I love that I have the internet right at my fingertips literally and the text messages I send look like IM convo's...GO TREO 755p

Man I had a blast this past weekend. Although we didn't get into the avenue cause the line was too long the guys got to go to H2O while my sis, hun and I went to a bday party so it was all good.

I took my sis to get her nails done for her bday cause she's never had them done. Now my sis tends to be very quiet when it comes to what she wants and what not. So we're in the nail place and I told the lady just give her a manicure...I was getting a fill and a cut down which is $16 and hers would have been $12. The lady is like oh what about d'sign and you know they talk like that with that foreign accent lol and I'm like aight she like on 4 fingers I was like umm no bookie and my sis is just sittin there LOL. I said dont let that chinese or asian lady bully you (I still can't tell the difference lol) so my sis walks out with a french manicure with a design on two fingers (one on each hand) instead of $12 it was $22 LOL...i was like girl you better be glad it's your bday or you would have been short.

We headed to the mall and I got some earring...3 pair for $7 from clairs and you know that's unheard of LOL...I think the only reason they were so cheap was cause 2 of them were on sale and the girl assumed that last pair was too although it had no sticker on it I aint mad i got me some earrings....she gets a hoodie from papaya and we head home so me and hun can get some groceries.

Now me and hun have been doing weird lately...one min it's aight the next it's kinda weird....so I was going home to head to a bday party and he was going to a fight party....somethign was going on with my car so he was gonna drop me off but then he was like I dont know how long I'm gonna be at the fight party...his boy wasn't going so he couldn't ride with him...so we compromised....we both went to the bday party and we were going to leave when the main event came on.....well folks didnt answer their phone when we were trying to come through so we both went home and passed out....great.

I enjoyed my monday off did some laundry, cooked dinner and watched The Wire. I have no clue what the heck is going on with Marlo this season he is straight hood killin folks and what not that help him get him money right. I mean I get tryin to cut out the middle man but dang. I'm not gonna spoil it for folks who dont want the episode early on On Demand.....so you'll just have to wait till Sunday to watch it.

Today is Tuesday and I actually feel rather rested.....so hopefully today will be a good day. The boss that's been on vacation is back and while he was away I along with another attorney cleaned his office...ekkk I hate cleaning other folks stuff but oh well that's how the cookie crumbles when you work for someone else LOL....all I got to say is this wont be goin on for too long...time to move up and move out...great

posted@9:25am

Thankful for Life

2008-01-16T08:42:00.001-08:00

LIFE IS...

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

By Mother Teresa

posted@11:42am

Ordinary Me

2008-01-15T07:20:00.000-08:00

I love listening to pandora radio right now it's on the Toni Braxton commercial

I watched Juno, that movie was actually quite good and interesting....so see my tastes cover a wide variety I'm not just into Denzel movies

Hun is good, we're getting better. I guess talking helps more than not talking does...however it's still a lil weird at home sometimes

My sis is coming this weekend along with the rest of the gang..her birthday is monday so she's hanging out up here with me. I will probably make dinner on Fri night and then hang out bowling or something...I wanted to go ice skating I dont think she's ever done that before that would be fun...Hun probably wouldn't go LOL then again he told me to stop assuming...he would hate it but he'd go

I love Grey's last week's episode was THE BOMB and so was ER I'm mad chic was grillin Abby though like she aint' slept with every male that's walked in the hospital except for Frank at the front desk and Pratt and she might do them if she was too drunk to make a decision.

Medium my other favorite show started back up and I must say that I'm happy it's back on...I dont believe in that stuff too much but I love the crime aspect of it more so than the psychic part of it

Law and Order is another favorite and last week was great, this week will be even better

I saw that all the bloggers who work in DC should all meet up for lunch LOL......great on a friday so we can all be late or dont even go back to work...better yet we could do happy hour....email me if your down...great :)

Ok so I have 3 days to go till I get my new Treo and I am tooooooo excited when I say I will be at that store right after 9am I'm serious I'm gonna come to work, check email them walk 2 blocks to get my phone LOL

I got to spend the day on Sat with one of my homies from college who moved back to her home town. It's funny cause whenever she comes in town I have crap to do but something always seems to move out the way or get mysteriously cancelled so I can hang out with her..it was her bday on fri night

Went to a Sigma party for their founders day celebration in MD it was cool mad that I didn't read the email and print out the flyer cause I ended up paying $20..they better be glad I love them lol

Asked Hun for $20 the next day to go to lunch with my homie and he gave me some whole speech......talking about I need a credit card and what not...boo no I dont not right now Im just learning to do better about my money I still got crap to pay off...thanks but I feel him....but sometimes I think he treats me like a damn lil kid...give me the money or leave me alone LOL I can get it from someone else without all that lip LOL

Watched Lonely Hearts on Sun with Bruce Willis and Salma Hayek...it was good. If you haven't heard of the Lonely Heart killers look it up...very interesting. I'm a blockbuster girl in case you can't tell LOL I'm in there if not every weekend every other weekend.

Ready for Friday...enough said

posted@10:29am

Its been a long time

2008-01-10T08:08:00.000-08:00

I shouldn't left you with a tag to read LOL ok ok that sucked but oh well. I'm feeling great cause I'm FINALLY getting a new phone...well not today but next week unless I can convince Hun to buy it this weekend (and that aint happenin) I am getting the new TREO 755p and I ammmm sooooo excited. My V (May she rest in peace) was dropped in my drink on new years eve and she aint' worked right since so I was back to using my LG6100 which has been discontinued and is a flip phone so I hate texting now on top of that one min it's fully charged the next min it's not. So with a lil motor mouth talking the Verizon rep changed my new every two date to today instead of Feb 19th...yea the 19th was not that far away but once you go QWERTY keyboard you dont wanna go back....so yea I'm a lil stoked...I've already been to the Treo website to look at what I can download and all that....it was a tight race between the TREO 755p and the XV6800 both of which are touch screen but the later has a hidden qwerty keyboard and no outside dialing pad which means to dial I would have to each touch the screen
(which by week one would be masked in grease lol or so dirty that I couldnt read it) or slide the screen up..which is aight but I dont know. I think the kicker was the fact that the treo displays text messages in conversation view instead of different texts.....I like that since I do text alot....anywho the post today is a TAG I haven't done one of these in a while so this should be fun. I was tagged by one of my favorite people to talk to on a daily basis my SISSYYYY DeepNThought (I call her sissy you can't lol)

The rules of the game are:

A). Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog...

B). Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself...

C). Tag 7 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs...

D). Let each person know that they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

I was tagged by DeepNThought (I forgot how to link so just go tot he side to view her page)

Names I go by:1. Danny (very few folks call me this lol), D (most of the time folks call me this), or Sunshine (only one person calls me this and I smile whenever I hear it), and last but not least Yell (one of HS friends call me this)

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now: 1. black dress pants 2. white shirt

Two Things You Would Want (or have) in a Relationship: 1. Compromise 2. Understanding...I mean hey that's a big one lol

Two of your favorite things to do: 1. write 2. Laugh

Two things you want very badly at the moment: 1. to get my new phone so I can play with it I 2. On the couch watching the WIRE

Two pets you had/have: 1. Fish- Named beta who was a beta lol 2. Gizmo- I had to let him go to another home cause he was mix with I dont know what but he was getting TOOO big for the townhouse :( I miss him...the only man who was always happy to see me other than my daddy lol

Two people you think will fill this out:Everyone has done it already..great

Things that you did last night:1) watched walk hard which was not all that funny 2) slept

Two things you ate today: 1. multigrain cherrios 2. nothing

Two people you last talked to: 1. My buddy Ween 2. The Verizon folks

Two things you're doing tomorrow:1. Work 2. Party

Two longest car rides: 1. VA to ATL 2. VA to MIA

Two favorite holidays: 1. My birthday I mean to me it's a holiday lol 2. I actually all the other ones too cause I'm off from work lol

Favorite beverages: 1. water 2. pink lemonade

Person no longer alive who you'd like to talk to: 1. My grandmother (my moms mom) 2. My lil cuz

I aint' taggin no one cause it seems that everyone has done this thing already LOL great

posted@11:31am

Lately....

2008-01-09T06:59:00.001-08:00

I've been rather MIA, it's not because I wanna be but more so because I just can't bring myself to write about what I'm feeling so today is more of a release and a whoooosaaa if you will for me to get over what I'm feeling...

I'm thankful...

for peace, especially the peace that comes with understanding

for friends, sistafriends and those who check up on me when they sense something in the midst

for love....the joy that comes with it, the tears that wash away doubt and understanding that you can love someone and not be with them

for being able to live in the moments of my life

for enjoying and learning from everything that comes my way

for just being able to smile....sometimes that's all it takes.

LEARN THE GREAT ART OF DOING THE BEST YOU CAN WHERE YOU ARE WITH WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!!

posted@10:02am

2008-01-08T06:45:00.000-08:00

I'm rather blessed in the big sis arena....one in fact works across from the street from me now WOOHOOO (heyyy reesssiiieeee)...she listens and gives it to me staight no chaser, one calls me a baby even when I dont think I'm being one (jussy) and the other laughs, listens and enjoys the feelings of being in love with me (deep) and of course there are others but I talk to these ladies if not every day then at least once a week with the exception of one :)

I recieved this from one of them and decided to share it :) She's a rather smart lady I tell ya

It is the new year. 2008. 8 years into the new millennium. 2007 brought the end to some situations in some folks lives.

Some marriages ended. Some folks graduated. Marriages were began. Births, relationships. Some of us even saw death.As we say good bye to a year, we say hello to a year of infinite possibilities. I do mean infinite.

The opportunities are endless.It is my hope in this new year, that you walk in the bountifulness that God has orchestrated for your life. Your Destiny.Life is indeed what we make it. We can choose to be sad, we can choose to be down.

Or we can decide that what ever comes our way, we are going to walk with grace in the grace that abounds. Holding our heads up high and loving ourselves as God loves us. Not excepting the mediocre but demanding excellence. There are two scriptures that are embedded in my thoughts this year and I must share them with you.

The first is, "Faith without works is dead." James 2:17I know there are promises and things that you know are coming to you. I stand here to tell you that you have to activate your faith by working towards growth and believing actively by working. Saying God is going to do and believing by actions of faith that God is going to do is two different things. You have been praying for weight loss.

Get up and get on the tread mill. We have got to work in this year coming. Put that faith to action.The second Scripture is, Matthew 6:, "But, seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness;and all these things shall be added unto you."Let us not go into this year worrying about a thing. If we earnestly seek God this year concerning things, and then LEAVE THEM THERE, He will do what He said he would. God said, He would never leave us nor forsake us. This is your year.

My hope is that you walk in the prosperity of love, peace, grace, health, and abundance of God. Prosperity is not just about money, but being whole. Whole in God. He wants us to be Whole.This is my hope for you in this new yer. This will be a year of growth and peace for us all. Please know that you are all in my heart and I am praying for you.

I love you and know that you will walk in greatness. You are all destined to be great and prosper.You are all men of valor. You are all women grace and destiny.

posted@9:52am

Out with the OLD...in with the NEW

2008-01-02T08:38:00.000-08:00

New Years was great

I wasn't Hun....we got into it

Am I upset...nope....do I care...nope....I'm content

He's beginning to remind me of someone I dont like and dont talk to anymore hmmm not a good sign

He made some valid points but he still has not apologized

I dont care if you think I am drunk you dont do that

Living is a lesson in itself

Living with someone is a lesson in itself

Just when I think things are ok....BAMN I get blindsided

I'm fine though

New Year..new things...new thoughts

That's all I can say

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Growing Pains (Listening to it and def feeling it...go get it!!)

2007-12-19T06:58:00.000-08:00

I'm thankful for...

People loving people when they don't need to or would rather not... but they do so anyway.

The ability to see colors and the on-going ability to see things I never realized or comprehended previously.

Fighting that ends -- whether it's between countries, in marriages, or between little friends or big kids who should no better in the first place.

The beauty, simplicity and healing power of laughs of all kinds...

Weird ones, Louder than you'd like ones, Barely above the sound threshold ones, And ones that make your stomach ache despite any feeble attempts to stop the process.

Dreams that create ways to help, heal, motivate, inspire, and conceive dreamers who repeat the process.

Teachers who give more than they receive and know more than they share because they they'd rather build up than tear down, see eyes brighten with every new discovery, and design for others ways to enjoy and improve the one life they've been given.

Soldiers who defend for all the right reasons instead of maiming and destroying for every wrong one in the book.

Moms who love their kids, kids who love their moms, and dads who love them both.

Butterfly Kisses that mean so much more than the song ever could because of lyrics played during the ever changing rhythms of daily life.

Those who really do help little old ladies across the street, and little old ladies and gentlemen who preserve the art of caring by living and loving in ways that leave legacies of hope for each of their watching worlds.

Dogs at the neighbors that don't bark and barking neighbors who don't live near me.

Cars that run, Empty bathrooms during times of ultimate crisis, Spyware that works, And cats that quickly leave my back door.

Minds that remember what they should while forgetting what is brought to mind because they love people more than they do grudges that don't matter anyway.

Addicts who win, And athletes who know and show the difference between winning at life and simply taking a win to the next game.

In short, I'm grateful for my life................and the God who entrusted me with the same.

posted@10:01am

When life gives you lemons...thrown them at someone!

2007-12-17T07:17:00.000-08:00

I just like that quote nothing that serious going on with me to where I'm throwing produce or veggies at folks...however I do feel that way sometimes.

School is finally over and now I have to register for next semester. Great

My favorite shows are over till next year now I have nothing to watch....Great

I want a new job and I just got a good evaluation....great

I want to go to school full time but I can't.....great

I can't wait for Thursday to get here so I can be off until Jan 2nd.....great

I did nothing this weekend and that was.....great

Constant is moving back to DC, he's out of the navy........ugh.....great

I had some drinks with my Hun this weekend and we played UNO.....wonderful times

I so want this week to be over....NOW

Why the heck is it so cold outside...oh yea it is WINTER.....so why are folks still walking around like it's spring then again walking around with a hat, gloves and a coat on with shorts....doesn't really work as spring weather either

What am I going to do with myself for a whole week......NOTHING and I'm looking forward to it, yea I might get bored like one day but I doubt it lol

I can catch up on some reading, clean the house cause I need to do that.....and catch up on some movies I've been wanting to see....have dinner ready for my Hun when he comes home and I'm sure he'll love that.....and catch up on Maury.....who is NOT my baby's daddy LOL

I have done NO christmas shopping yet...I plan to get it all done this weekend..which means I will probably be mad standing in those long tail lines......great

I miss bloggin but I mean hey I dont wanna make up stuff to write so I just dont.....

I wonder did Tenacious finish her wedding planning....I wonder how Luvin me is doing....I really need to go to one of Tiff and James' events coming up. Too bad I can't have a blogger jet fly all over the US to keep up with some of my homies

Lata-

posted@10:24am

If it is to be, then it's up to Me

2007-12-12T08:33:00.000-08:00

Should you find it hard to get to sleep tonight;
Just remember the homeless family who has no bed to lie in.

Should you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don't despair.
There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.

Should you have a bad day at work; Think of the man who has been out of work for the last three months.

Should you despair over a relationship gone bad;
Think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.

Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the man or woman in some third world country, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week, for 20.00 to feed the family.

Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance, Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.

Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror, Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, what is my purpose?
Be thankful, there are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, prejudice, or insecurities, Remember, things could be worse. You could be them!!!

Should you feel depressed because of your weight, Remember, obesity is curable: AIDS is not.

Be thankful for who, what and where you are in life.God Bless and always be a blessing to others.

"Be thankful"

posted@11:35pm

Relax, Relate, RELEASE

2007-12-07T09:00:00.000-08:00

So yea my blogging as of lately has been real sucky but I mean hey what can I say....I have lots of crap on my mind and unless you talk to me then I just dont feel the need to write it out....sooo I'm doing TMI Tuesday questions to help me relieve some tension of the brain...I haven't done it in a while so I'm trying to catch up lol

1. If your partner buys you a sexy little "something" is it a present for you or for your partner? I think it would be a present for the both of us..I mean we could use it together

2. What are 3 characteristics of "your type"? Tall, full lips, and a nice smile...I dont really have a complexion thing everything is situational.

3. On a scale of 1-10, how good a cook are you? I think I'm about a 6, as time goes on and I have to cook more I'll probably get better

4. Tattoos: Love them or hate them. On you? On a partner? I love them, I have two and my hun has one and wants another one

5. Stubble: Good or bad? How often do you shave? Umm stubble where LOL

Bonus (as in optional):What are a few of your favorite things (both sexual non-sexual)? I love kissing, caressing, music, ranch dressing, shoes and pretzels just to name a few :)

1. Are you a member of the mile high club? Nope but I think it's something that I'd like to do I'm a member of other clubs though lol

2. What is the most public place you have ever had sex? in a nightclub..dont ask maybe if your nice I'll tell ya..one day

3. What is your most embarrassing family moment? I was at a family reunion dinner and my lil cuz who is not so little anymore came up to me (I think I was still in college) and he was like remember when we came over your house and you farted and it stunk..I was like dang homie lol every farts wow..but everyone was all quiet and busted out laughing..great

4. What kind of birth control do you use? Umm why are you gonna buy me some more

5. Have you ever had sex in the snow? Rain? Not in the snow and not in the rain but the rain is on my to do list..the snow however is too cold and I'm not trying to freeze my ovaries..thanks

Bonus (as in optional):Describe your flirting technique: innuendo, telling a dirty joke, talking about sex life, or physical contact? I tend to smile and touch a lot, lean on you that's about it

1. what's the sexiest gesture a woman can make? I have no clue someone said me acting and looking mean attracted them to me

2. what are 3 inevitable things about you? I talk alot, I ask lots of questions, I love being in love

3. what do you want . . . . now? Some food

4. what asset do you have besides the physical and the material? I'm a wonderful listener and a wonderful friend..once your in my circle it takes alot for me to eliminate you :)

5. describe a sexy mind. ME lol

Bonus (as in optional):What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving? Just being able to enjoy life and all that it comes with including the bad.

2007-12-05T06:52:00.000-08:00

"Man is fond of counting his troubles, but he does not count his joys. If he counted them up as he ought to, he would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it"

I'm thankful....

for friends who show me love even when I'm being a bia bia lol

for those who love me enough to listen to me ramble on and on about the same thing

for my family....couldn't wish for or ask for anything better

for being able to talk to my god daughter she is getting so big she sang dont you want me baby to me on the phone yesterday and said she wanted a baby for christmas and $100 lol (of course the money was prompted by her mother lol)

for my nephews they are getting so big..time passes so fast

for being able to not snoop...as nosey as I am....I will ask over and over before I looking for crap

for having the ability to not make something out of nothing

for the anticipation of hanging out with my homies ALLLLL weekend starting fri night with a sleepover (dont act like ya'll dont do that anymore lol and it's only for girls so dont be thinkin nasty)

for partying sat night with my friend and her boyfriend before they move to Miami...I'm gonna miss em....you rarely meet folks that you can deal with on the regular lol and when they move away you get sad....

for realizing that I've outgrown my job....it's time to move on and move to another area in my life....so umm if you know of anything holla at a sister via email lol

for the miniature amount of snow on the ground LOL...I mean it shows me that maybe dreams do come true :)

for being able to cry and not feel bad for feeling so relieved after I had let it out.

posted@9:59am

Nonchalant

2007-12-03T09:42:00.001-08:00

As of lately it seems that my posting has been hit or miss...with the end of the semester here and just being plain bored out of my mind I haven't had the energy to really write a real post or even stop by my favorite spots..perhaps it's also because it's holiday time and I'm consumed with looking at websites trying to decide what I'm getting the few people that will be getting gifts.

However after talking to a friend of mine...well an associate I need to hang out with her to call her my friend a little more right now she's my girl but I use that term loosely and I dont mean that offensively I just guard myself when it comes to chics....so anyway we were conversing at my house after I had treated her to a bday lunch since I had missed her bday due to the fam emergency with my sister. So we're at my house chatting it up when Hun comes down the stairs. I had gone up there to his music room when we got home to harass him as I normally do and he's on the phone with one of his best friends named C (has been changed to "protect" the innocent. So anyway he's on the phone with her and I'm not saying they weren't talking about something important and I know how I am with my best friend....but I harass him thinking that he's gonna get off or what not but he continues to talk which I dont care about so I mosey on downstairs to chat it up with my homie before she heads back home.

He comes downstairs and informs me that he is going over her house...I'm like didn't you just talk to her on the phone and hes like yea but I'm going over there and I'm like well can she come over here. He gives me a strange look and is like do you want her to come over here and I'm like I mean she moved back here and I haven't met her yet..shes your best friend.....but aight go ahead. We were suppose to go to walmart so i'm like are you coming back so we can go and he's like yea I aint gonna be gone that long...so I'm like aight....I continue to talk to my homie, she leaves and i do some laundry, pop in a movie, clean a little. To make a long story short..I finally went to bed and he walks in after 6...yes 6 a.m.

I'm like aight whatever..he has a hangover and I say how come you didnt call me and he's like my phone died....now at first i'm thinkin yea aight but he does have a horrible thing about charging his phone......I say I was worried he says I shouldn't have been he was fine. Then he says remember the times you've stayed out and not called and I said yes that was when we first moved in together if I know I'm not coming home I call you so your not worried and if I stay out you know that I'm not coming back home..correct he replies that I'm right and I go on back to sleep.

Yesterday I cook dinner, call him downstairs and he's on IM talking to her..I'm thinkin dang should I be offended or nonchalant like he is when I leave and dont come home. I mean if you meet Hun you would know that he is not an emotional type dude he's just there sometimes...he isnt' all emotional..i mean he says I love you and I miss you sometimes but I mean its like 2-3 times a month LOL compared to me who is alll emotional all the time LOL

Now I'm not jealous...but can you see my frustration....I dont snoop and I aint gonna start. So I'm forced to just let this play out...if this even is something it might not be...I mean she is his friend he says they have never slept together and she does know about me.....so my hands are tied......great

They are just friends...they are just friends...they are just friends...

WOOOSAHHHHHHHH

posted@12:57pm

Uhhh ok

2007-11-30T07:25:00.000-08:00

...people are gonna cough and sneeze but you need to cover your mouth homie

..if your gonna stare then speak

...yes you are a cutie....damn damn damn LOL

....I miss my fat fat and my toot can't wait to see them for Christmas

...Monday starts my new physical training regimen...no I didn't hire anyone I have decided to be my own worst enemy...the scale will be my enforcer lol

....I was never really in to Jay Z before but for some odd reason I like his latest cd....hmmm would it be because HUN plays it all the time lol (I love I know what you like)

....I want another Tequila Sunrise emmmm that is sooo good

....I wanna dance so hard that my feet hurt even in flats

....I wanna be able to love you so much that you feel it when you hold me

.......nice ring, a black diamond is very different for a engagement ring

.....I was passed out on the train glad I didnt miss my stop like I did before

.....there is no need to fight over whose corner this is...well CVS entryway...I mean there are enough CVS' in dc for each of you to have one....come on now mr homeless man do you consider this a real job, I guess you do cause you're killin me with fussin homelady out for taking your spot LOL

....I'm ready for the weekend...matter fact I'm ready for every weekend..no more work days LOL

....You will never get me back, even if you lost the weight and got Bill Gates money....you just dont appeal to me any more

...I am not your love and stop callin me sexy coming from you it just sounds gross.....ehhhhhh

.....I love my new headphones...they are called skullcandy or somethin like that....the sound is great and they're even a jazzy blue color

.....I love my new handbag....I use to be into big bags but around junior year I stopped now I'm back to em LOL

....I can't wait to go shopping for my HUN I already know what I'm gettin him...although he only asked for 2 things I'm gonna get him those 2 things and 3 other things....

..my toot is getting so smart I talked to him yesterday and he says I'm eatin and watchin TV...I love you too...no more wuv you he knows how to pronounce words now...aww I'm gonna cry..I still have my fat fat though :)

....ready to go home aint even the word.....I been ready since I was on my way into the office..

...yahhhh RESSIE will be working near me now!!! WOOHOOO we can do lunch now..have your people call my people and we'll talk :)

posted@10:33am

2007-11-28T07:13:00.000-08:00

"This day, this day you feel helpless. This day makes all those other days when you fight to save a life and lose. This day makes you grateful you have a chance to do anything at all. You take it in." - Grey's Anatomy

I'm thankful for....

being able to have life, health and strength and not even in that order

my sister being ok, she is bruised but alive, hardheaded but still breathing and for that I'm thankful

her being able to spend time with me and understand that she has value...if not to herself to me and I dont wanna live life without her

the time that I spent with my family, it was so needed yet draining lol

the wonderful food that I got to eat all weekend and boy did I eat from Thurs to Sun and I have one more plate of leftovers that will get devoured tonight for dinner lol

God and his helping me understand that he's always there even when we think he isn't

the drive to get this weight lost thing going again...I am soo gonna look good at my parents wedding in May that its gonna be insane LOL

developing a new view of Beyonce that chic is on her grind lol I'm gonna be on the Beyonce grind as of....NOW LOL

seeing my mommie become ordained as a Bishop....she is an amazing woman..she might not approve of everything my sisters and I do but she lets us live our lives and make our decisions and loves us just the same

my sisters wanting to spend new years with me...hmmm I dont know if that's a good idea LOL..I might have them chicks knocked out for days

seeing my fat fat he's getting so big and still not trying to even walk lol

being able to beat Hun and his team mates in Taboo.....I'm a beast...he says I was cheating LOL

Greys Anatomy....I love that show and it seems like I always find the best quotes when I'm watching that show

each of you...your thoughts, prayers, texts and phone calls helped me more than you know

posted@10:20am

Cant think straight...

2007-11-20T11:18:00.000-08:00

just got a call that my youngest sister is in the hospital after being thrown out of a moving car.....so I might out of the loop for a while.

Keep my in your prayers cause I tend to be very emotional when it comes to my family. I tell you if it's not one thing its another.

Have a wonderful holiday....

I'm ready to EAT

2007-11-19T07:35:00.000-08:00

Yes I know I sound like a 1,000 pd woman but I dont care, I dont plan on over doing it but I do plan on grubbin and since me and Hun are going to two dinners I have to keep it to a minimum anyway LOL.

This weekend was chill as I expected it to be...other than getting lost going to Bethesda and being passed out Sat night but still making it to church on time..I think I did pretty well LOL

I must add that Raheem DeVaughn is a cutie in person LOL and he wanted some of my cake but he couldnt have any lol...not that kind of cake ya nasties!!!

So yea Friday I get off work about an hour early to head home to somewhat find something to wear. Of course I had something in mind but when I was hit by the 100 mph wind while walking to the metro I decided that wearing a skirt would not be a good idea LOL. So after ransacking my closet and my clothes room (since I dont have a dresser all my crap is in boxes) I finally found something and still ended up late. I was suppose to leave my house at 840. I didn't leave till 930 LOL and then once I picked my two riders up we got lost using those dang on yahoo directions...they have now been officially banned from my usage list....as has my homie been banned from the front seat LOL. She was eekkin and making noises talking about I was gonna hit a bus and what not...boo I know your from N.C. (the part where you kill your own turkey the week before thanksgiving) but dang LOL this is DC and when in DC you do as the DCins do LOL yes I made that word up....and on top of that I'm on the phone with roomie trying to get directions to the place and she's on the phone asking her friend how to get there with the phone on speaker..boo I'm only one person get off the phone and let me talk to who I wanna talk to LOL..I told her she can no longer sit in the front LOL...plus she fell asleep...that is a no no LOL. So we finally get there.....have a blast cause we got into VIP cause the bouncer thought me and my friend were cute..she ended up getting his number come to find out he is 48!!! WOW and she's only 24 so he can literally be her dad matter fact her dad is 47 LOL. So anywho we got in VIP and some African man harassed us all and bought us some MOET...I dont like that too much but hey I drank it LOL and gave him a lil dance for his trouble AAHAHAHAH. Too funny, we went to IHOP afterwards...then got lost heading back to the highway...once again cause I listened to the person who should have not been sitting in the front seat LOL and finally made it home after dropping everyone off around 6am.

Yep I was passed out till about 1pm, layed around most of the day..matter fact all of the day. Me and Hun headed to dinner to get our fat person on at the closet buffet place and it was sooo good. I dont eat too much at the buffet but I love going there cause you can eat more for the price of less..I guess thats the logic I dont know anywho it was good. Got home layed around again and got dressed to go meet some homies in MD to bowl and hang out. That turned into me being loose off the goose and woke up one part of the night half in the bathroom half in the hall LOL. I was told that they tried to put a rag over my head and I was like NOOOO leave me alone LOL...sounding just like a little kid...great. Ah well....woke up a lil woosy in the head and headed to church. After that headed to the movies to see Lions for Lambs, which I thought was good since I dont like Tom Cruise too much I wasn't disappointed in his acting..he is weird to me...even before he jumped on the couch LOL so I thought it was good and of course I will be telling folks to go see it and that movie that is coming out on Christmas with Denzel called the Great Debators...gotta love Denzie :)

So this weekend will be filled with food, family and friends....I didn't take wed off like I usually do cause for the first time in forever my fam is coming near me instead of me having to drive to SC. We're having thanksgiving in MD and so is Hun's family which is great....I wonder what everyone is gonna say when they meet him.....especially when they hear that we live together LOL...yep you read it right we now live together......save the emails LOL.....

posted@10:49am

Not as good as could be but still good

2007-11-16T08:00:00.000-08:00

The above pic was "borrowed" from Ms. Behaving lol

1. Have you ever met a fellow blogger in person? Yep I've met quite a few and that list will expand next year when I make it my business to meet my sissy and my twin..so be prepared ladies!!! Actually everyone has been mad cool that I've met I look forward to hanging out with them more.

2. Did you ever play an innocent game of "I'll show you mine if you show me yours"? How old where you? I dont even recall playing that game and that's real LOL. I remember doing stuff when I was a kid, like playing house and watching a guy pee I mean I thought I was doing something when I finally went in the boys bathroom and saw that it wasn't that diff from the womens bathroom LOl of course the urinals amazed me and I tried to use them LOL

3. When did you get your first not so innocent kiss? I was at church at an afternoon service and the place was the sound room LOL...out in the hallway....he's one of my best friends now and honestly we will never go down that road again and that's fine by us :) I think we know each other too well

3a.If your partners are no longer of the opposite sex, when did you get that first kiss? Umm my partners have always been of the opposite sex but when I was little I did kiss a girl..I mean of course I didnt tounge her down we were 4 I didnt know any better LOL

4. Have you ever awoke with someone who's name you did not remember? Nope, I've always remembered names now the question would be do I call them again after they've been horrible LOL..and that answer would be no as well..that's only happened once though. I have regretted giving up the goods to someone though...regretted it so bad that I cried.

5. Have you ever let someone else wash you while you were perfectly capable of doing it yourself? Yes and it's something that turns me on. I love taking a bath or shower with the person I'm with. It's something about them taking care in soaping me up and then letting the water run over my body...umm ok enough of that LOL

Bonus (as in optional): What makes a great first date for you? Honestly, I dont like doing movies as a first date, I have been bowling on a first date that was fun and I've been to a museum which was great cause I got to see what he liked and what interested him.

Plans for the weekend: Hanging out with some of the girls tonight, tomorrow might do the homeless walk here in DC, run some errands, clean the house a little and decide on a thanksgiving outfit LOL..yes I can't just wear anything cause we will be gone all day and I dont wanna be looking a mess when I meet the rest of his family LOL. We will see if everything goes as planned

posted@11:08am

2007-11-14T07:49:00.000-08:00

"No matter how bad things get, it could always be worse"

I'm thankful for...

the fact that I was blessed enough to wake up this morning and go to my job, some people dont have that luxury

being able to have a family to see next week during the holiday, this is a rough time of year for many people

the semester almost being over, when I say I'm ready multiply how ready you think I am times 10 and you probably still wont know how ready I am lol

old and new friends who pop up during this time of year...even the ones that I dont care too much for

the anticipation of going christmas tree shopping with my hun....we have no clue where we are putting the tree but umm I'm sure we'll figure something out :)

putting my vacation time in for christmas and if everyone approves it I will have a week off and wont be back to work till after new years WOOOHOOO

the anticipation of the above happening I have never been out of work a whole week so I'm seriously not gonna know what to do with myself

not having my thurs class till after thanksgiving..its one of my harder classes, but I'm still getting an A, however I do need a break from it :)

thanksgiving being almost here

each of you as you read this, I pray that you enjoy the time spent with those you love

posted @ 10:58am

Ponderings

2007-11-13T06:45:00.000-08:00

I'm not sleepy but why do I wish I were at home right now..perhaps the rain outside is the cause of this feeling

I've gained 10 pds and I'm so upset with myself....so tonight I will aggressively begin attacking the treadmill...then again not so aggressively I'm not trying to pass out.

Why the heck are you trying to convince her that she meant nothing to you, if she meant nothing to you then you and homegirl wouldn't be having this convo on the train...on top of that why is she buying the B.S., ewwww kissing just so nasty...save that mess for home

Why are you staring at me, I mean if your gonna say something then say something or else I will continue to look at you like you've lost your mind..thanks

I dont need you to ignore me right now, this is the time when I need you the most....I know your mad but shutting me out isn't going to help the situation

I can't wait to see my fam next week, hold my nephews, play with them, give em lots of kisses..they make me feel better

Why do I wish that tears really did wash away pain...permanently

Why do I sometimes wish I had the power to starve myself...I just can't do I guess that's a good thing

I have the end of the semester bug...not wanting to go to class, turning my work in via email..one more month to go and it's all over...until next semester

This is getting darn right ridiculous....I mean come on man....WOW

I wish I could just up and move, leaving everything behind..I wonder who would miss me first.

If I could have a remote control like the one in the movie CLICK would I really use it, I wonder how it would change my life

I'm tired of caring.....sometimes I just wanna be mean...however as hard as I try it's just not there

WHOOOOOOSAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

posted@9:52am

2007-11-09T06:26:00.001-08:00

In Honor of TMI Tuesday here are my interview questions from Freaky...since he ummm rather Freaky I figured his questions would fit right in..cause this week's TMI questions SUCKED!!!

1. Swallow or spit? UMmmm when I taste something nasty I spit it out LOL

2. What are three things a man can do to insure not getting another date with you? Dress horribly, talk more than me (lol), have horrible breathe, try to grope me when I haven't made it clear that I want him to do so

3. Where's the swimsuit pics you were supposed to hook me up with? I got fat and I figured you wouldn't want to see a whale LOL

4. If you could insert yourself into any show on TV what would it be? What would your role on the show be? Law and Order...an attorney so I can say I OBJECT (funny enough though I say stuff like that in real life LOL you would think I'm in law school right now)..my favorite episode of that's so raven is the one where she is trying to get chelsea and her guy friend (I forgot his name) out of jail and she is dressed like a colonel lol and she says these habeous corpusals LOL

5. What was the last thing you got into a fist fight about? Hmmmm I can't even remember I'm too old for that LOL probably when I was in HS with one of my little sisters over the remote or something..yea we did that dont act like you didnt when you were younger

6. If you had to move somewhere (at least three states away) where would it be and why? GA....I love it down there and I mean who wouldn't want to be near the Coca-Cola factory and get soda for free allll day lol

posted@ 9:28am

2007-11-07T06:28:00.000-08:00

"The grass may look greener on the other side of the fence, but you still have to mow it."

I'm ever so thankful for...

being able to realize the things around me that can be changed and the things that I can't change and keep it moving

understanding that sometimes you just have to be quiet

friends, who check up on me when they know something is wrong even when I have yet to tell them what's going on

honesty, love and friendship

my parents, even when I dont talk to them I can't help but smile at the memories they've given me

my sisters...they keep me smiling and on my toes

my nephews..especially my toot who is doing wonderfully in scwhool..as he says it lol and that he loves me and I should be good

the fact that I'm doing pretty good in school, I mean paying for it yourself gives you a whole different view on doing homework lol

each of you for still coming by even when I was being lasidasical (thanks Pro for that new word I love it lol..I might have spelled it wrong though)

posted@9:32am

Interview from Epsilonicus

2007-11-06T06:58:00.000-08:00

So I've slacking on my pimpin..not really just my writing LOL so these next couple of days will be me getting back to me :) So I realized that I could knock out a couple of posts with questions and here is another one of my favorite bloggers....EPSILONICUS. First it takes me forever to remember how to spell his name LOL and I always have to look at his page to do so. I love how he is sooo real...and I love his hair I mean how can you not love a man with locs :) Although I have seen some horrid ones LOL....he's not one of them though :)

1. What six songs sum up where you are in life right now?

a. No More Drama...I've loved that song since Mary came out with it and I try to have that around me...if you got drama go on about your business cause I can only deal with me and what's going on with me :)

b. I dont wanna miss a thing by Aerosmith. Yes I know that's not the real title but I'll call it what I want. I mean I just love living life even when I'm depressed I wouldnt want to be anywhere else maybe not in VA but you get what I'm saying LOL....I wanna take it all in

c.Wipe Me Down....ok so I love this song but I take the words and make them work for me LOL...I mean it's my year I am so on it that I'm HOT LOL...so go ahead and wipe me down I'm just to fresh lol.....

d. Stand Still, by Deitrick Hadden..I love some gospel music and I listen to it most often when I'm feeling some sort of way about my life but I have gotten use to listening to it more and this song really makes me think about how you have to let God do what he needs to do, stand still and just let him handle things :)

e. This battle is not yours....of course by Yolanda Adams..the title says it all

f. Count it all joy.....BeBe & CeCe Winans....everything we go through has a reason, count it all joy even when it seems so hard to, that's when you gotta understand that yes your crying, yes your in pain but dont you know that he's preparing you for something greater by putting his precious jewel through the fire....

2. What were your career aspirations when you were a kid? Are they the same now?

I wanted to be a teacher so I could read the answer books LOL...no I want to be a family attorney

3. Who was your best friend in middle school? Do you still keep in touch?

Toya..yep we've been best friends since kindergarten and I'm the godmother of her daughter..and she's pregnant now so I'll be the godmother for that one as well :)

4. What has been your favorite job you have had so far??

Working at a house for women and children transitioning from homelessness or abusive homes into the real world...I love children and I loved talking to the women and seeing their faces when they realized they could recieve a break for themselves while learning life long skills to make their lives and their childrens lives better..man that sounded like an interview answer lol

5. How did you create your blogger name?
Well some guy told me that my skin reminded him of Honey and I'm a Libra hence HoneyLibra :)

6. What motivated you to start blogging?
One of my friends had a blog and I've always loved to write, I've even been told I should write a book one day..clearly not about my life LOL but just a fiction story so I started blogging and the rest is history.

posted@10:15am

Breathe Easy....

2007-11-05T06:46:00.000-08:00

So these last couple of weeks if you've noticed I haven't been on top of my game when it comes to posting...partially because I've been doing homework or somewhat trying to do it and apparently my trying has paid off cause I've gotten all A's on my exams and I have one to turn in today and that will prayerfully be an A.

Hun and I have been dealing with one another and I've come to realize after talking to him...which of course came after we had a yelling discussion that we are VERY different people and if we're going to work then we have to accept that and go from there. I have my own way of doing things and so does he, we dont want to change one another but we do want to accept one another. He made a valid statement yesterday....he said be who you were when I first met you, that's what I liked about you...how you laugh at everything how you talk too much how you give me space yet still want to see me.....and I will admit I have changed a little but I think that comes with the territory of getting to know someone better.

I told him that sometimes it bothers me when he yells about things especially when I'm not trying to yell..body language says alot and if your on the defense then that's gonna put me on the defense. So let's just say we have a lot of growing to do together and individually. He works alot and that use to bother me and I guess at certain times it still does, but it's not like he's working just because....in his words he's working two jobs to make it better for us later...and I love that about him...which is why I try to understand how he feels when he does have to work two jobs and I'm at home chillin while he's grindin..I can't expect him to be superman although he tends to act like it lol....

So all in all I'm good I think that I just had a Honey moment where I got spoiled and wanted more time and attention and that's not necessarily a bad thing but I can't be a baby about it LOL as much as I want to be :)

The weekend was nice, saw American Gangster twice yesterday I fell asleep on it though cause we went for drinks and I was a lil too relaxed but Hun fell asleep on it on Friday night so we're even. I love when we have dinner together and just relax on the couch I wouldn't trade those moments for anything....I like to stretch out and have my legs across his lap or if I'm laying down he sometimes lays on my side....we do good when we're like that LOL...it's just when the devil creeps in and trys to make the good...the bad and the ugly that I have a problem with but I've got him in check now so it's all good.

Got some sleep this weekend....put rugs and stuff down in the bathrooms, so it was relaxed and chill..which of course is always nice....I'm once again looking forward to this weekend....

Quote from the weekend: "Dont let your happenings determine your happiness" (Jo-Jo from Run's House)

posted@9:54am

Friday Frankness

2007-11-02T07:20:00.000-07:00

I dont do TMI Tuesday on Tuesday I do it on Friday lol so here goes....I didn't really like these questions but oh well...here goes

1. If they kept stats of your sex life like they do in sports, what would you lead the league in? what all time record would you hold? Hmmmm since I am not up on my sports game like I should be the first thought that came to my head when I read this question would be a tennis match where the score would be 0-love.....me having 0 lol sike let me stop. So umm yea here's a question I dont' really have the answer to....

2. What song gets you in the mood to have sex? best music to fuck to? best music to make love to? any slow song, stripper themed songs make me want to F like when I listen to some UGK or something lol..making love is def some slow jams, some brian mcknight, some jodeci, some tamia

3. Where is your favorite place to have sex in your house/apartment? I like everywhere I try not to do it in the bedroom LOL but i keep my spot clean so you dont have to worry about where you sit lol

4. (girls) Have you sent or given your used panties to a guy? Do you know what happened to them? (guys) Have you taken/asked for a girls panties before? What did you do with them? (non-breeders) What is the protocol for this "tradition"? Umm I've had a guy ask for my panties but never given them to him

5. What makes a kiss a great to you? Time, meaning the slowness of it, how he caresses my neck or my back how he slowly pulls away them comes back how he might pull on my lips emmm I love lips haha

Bonus: Who pays for a date? If the girl asks a guy out, does she pay? If you are interested in same sex partners, how do you determine who pays? When I ask a guy out I sometimes pay unless I know that he doesn't care to which we will sorta split it meaning i'll put in like 10 if the bill is 30 lol..me and R use to do that....umm I'm not interested in same sex partners so I have no clue but you could say whoever wants to be the guy tonight lol..sike let me stop

posted@10:30am

Thankful for Enough

2007-10-31T06:36:00.000-07:00

I love getting this email so I figured I'd share it

Recently, I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport as the daughter's departure had been announced. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, "I love you and I wish you enough."

The daughter replied, "Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom." As the daughter left I walked over to the mother and said "When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, "I wish you enough." May I ask what that means?" She began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations.

My parents used to say it to everyone." She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. "When we said 'I wish you enough' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them". Then turning toward me, she shared the following, reciting it from memory. I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright. I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you enough helloes to get you through the final good-bye. She then began to cry and walked away. They say it takes a minute to> find a special person, An hour to appreciate them , A day to love them, and an entire life to forget them.

TAKE TIME TO LIVE! I WISH YOU ENOUGH

I'm thankful for Enough!!

posted@9:39am

Getting down with Jameil

2007-10-30T07:08:00.001-07:00

Ok so I love stopping by this chics blog first it was because I saw she went to Hampton which is like 10 min from where I grew up so I was like hmm I wonder what she thinks of hampton....then I started loving her fashion tips and pics and now it's just out of pure enjoyment....lol....and I am so hoping that I run into her one day when I'm in the 757 so I can confiscate one of them jazzy hats I know will be in her possession :)

1) You have a Ghandi quote as your tag. What change do you think you can make to have a lasting impact on the world? I would have to say, raising my children as my parents raised me. You never know one of them could be the next president cause I sure dont want to be it LOL. I mean I know I do some community service and what not but most of the time honestly I'm content with sitting in the back or rather doing the work that goes on behind the scene, not to say that I dont ever want to shine..I do, but I get more happiness out of seeing things go right....so I'm raise my children and pray that they would discover a cure for cancer...or better yet stupidity LOL...let me stop.

2) Where do you want to be in 5 years? Hmm I think I did this one already but since I just turned 25, I want to be married with possibly one child and out of law school.

3) If Hun left tomorrow, would you be ok? I would be hurt yes, but depending on where he went and why I'd do my best to get over it and move on.

4) Your fam has you all up IN the church. What's your favorite Bible verse? I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me. It's just something about knowing that I can do ANYTHING because I have this power inside me..I need to remember that more often.

5) Other than DC, NOVA, or 7 cities, where would you like to live and why? I'd love to live in SC (I have relatives down there and I love the sun), Atlanta...I visited there and I love the black culture down there...I've been to Miami but I dont wanna live down there people are too stuck on how you look I aint got time to be working out all the dang on time.

6) What's your dream job and what are you doing to get there? A Family attorney with my own practice working my own hours and being able to really say that I'm there for my family and not feel like I'm sacraficing my time or my clients time to do so. Well right now I work at a law firm, I'm in paralegal school and after that is done with I'm going to look for a job as a paralegal in a family law practice, work there for a couple of years and then go on to law school.

Today is one of those days, I keep saying to myself somethings that I've written in my thankful posts. Me and Hun got into it last night....he had to work last night and came home and wanted to cuddle...or rather he was holding me and I was just there. Kissed me this morning and I didnt want to get into it so I let him and he asked if I was ok, I of course said I was when I wasn't but I just dont feel like dealing with it anymore so I left the house......hmmmmm so to take my mind off of things I'm working on reading and whatnot for class..I have an exam due tomorrow it's take home so I'm gonna work on it at work and then go home and hit the bed......hopefully I'll be aight later this week.....I talked to my sissy (DeepNThought) and she got me to thinking that I really do need to understand that he has his own way of doing things and loving...we're both different..however I think we should be able to compromise..I dont think he feels the same....great

posted @ 10:18am

Back to It...

2007-10-29T08:28:00.000-07:00

Weekend: The weekend was nice, I need to get back in the groove of things, the semester is over and so far its looking like I will be getting A's and B's which is great wooohooo. I went to see Saw 4 on Friday night and just hung around...nothing too serious..Hun had some "me time" so I hung out with some of my other friends...went to Alero on U street Sat night for some after Bday celebration with one of my girls who bday was Friday then headed to Posh where I stood in line for like 20 min waiting for a drink and no less than 5 min after I got it they decided to close the party cause someone was fighting...great nothing like a free club to get folks to fighting...passed out and hung out on Sunday before heading to a date auction...man there were some cuties....ah well I didnt' win anyone so great LOL....and here I am on Monday ready go home but I gotta go to class and do my exam that's due on Tuesday...great

Back to the Interview Questions

Questions provided by the Opinionated DIVA...I love reading her blog she is too hilarious...so I figured her questions would be interesting and I was right :)

1.The story of your life is being made into a movie. Who would you pick to play you (you can't play yourself) and why? I would pick Angela Bassett, I mean she's the bomb and I loved her in Tina Turner so I know she would do me justice lol....

2.If you could live in any city in the world other than your current one, where would it be and why? I can't really think of a city but a state other than VA hmm that would have to be SC I dont know what the south is calling me but as soon as I finish school I'm looking to move...I've already told Hun so he can either get with it or stay here LOL

3.If you could have dinner with a famous celebrity (currently deceased) who would it be and why? Martin Luther King, I mean he was a great man who moved the country but I'd also like to learn more about him other than what we all know like why he had affairs on his wife...everyone has secrets and I would want to know them

4.If you could be invisible for a day, who would you spy on and why? I'd spy on Hun LOL to see if he talks about me during the day sike he's pretty boring, hmm I'd spy on the president of the US, just cause I'd want to catch him diggin in his butt or something LOL..I'm crazy like that

5.Who is your favorite blogger and why? I dont have a favorite and that's honest LOL...all the ones I've met are cool and all the ones that I've talked to are cool but of course I'm pretty biased to a couple but they shall remain nameless LOL

6.You receive an indecent proposal from Flavor Flav...$5 Mill to spend the night with him. Do you accept the offer? HECK NO...unless spend the night with him equals him not kissing me or trying to grop me up...I would..however I am in no shape or form attracted to him and yes 5 mill is enticing but I dont like throwing up so no.

Friday..enough said

2007-10-26T06:46:00.000-07:00

Aight so I was holding my nose in the pics below cause for some odd reason I thought that if I did I wouldn't taste it (something someone first told me when I drank in college) I should have remembered that it doesn't work too well LOL...but then again if I hadn't drank so much before that one then I would have remembered that LOL

Next week I'll finish the interview questions...dont know what I'm doing this weekend other than celebrating my bday again with one of my homies whose bday is today. Going to the movies tonight to see Saw 4..matter of fact I'm on my way to buy tickets right now for the midnight show. Hun is enjoying some me time this weekend which means that he wont have to feel like he needs to entertain me LOL so I'll be hanging with some homies all weekend..great

In honor of it being Friday (one of my favorite days of the week) Here are my TMI questions.

1. What are your 7 favorite tactile things that turn you on? Sex (like oral, or penetrative) cannot be an answer. (Examples: silk, light tickling, etc). a light touch...like just barely (Hun does this great, it's never his whole finger just slightly his finger tips), a smile (I love looking at the person I'm with and seeing them smile with their face and eyes), a kiss (as you know I love lips so umm yea lol), cologone (I love me some man smell goods, Hun doesn't wear cologne too much but I love his deodarant..yea I spelled it wrong I think oh well), dress (nothing beats a man in a suit, we might not make it out on time lol), hugs (I just love hugs whether they come from Hun or someone else I love) and music (aint nothing like some jodeci or brian mcknight mannnn its a WRAP)

2. What are your non-genital errogenous zones and what do you like done to them? My neck I love to have it nuzzled (I know that sounds kinda animalish lol), my ears (I love to have them licked lol), my lower back (I love to have it rubbed) and I love when someone plays in my hair

3. What sounds get you sexually charged? I would have to say him talking, sometimes I like a little eggin on, I like to know that you are enjoying what I'm doing and you find me HIGHLY attractive lol.

4. After losing your virginity, what is the longest you’ve gone without penetrative sex? I would have to say a couple of months. I lost it to this guy who was not my boyfriend and at the time I had just met someone and a couple of month later we did the do lol

5. What is your least favorite sexual position? Why don't you like it? I like em all LOL..let me stop. Hmmm I'd have to say I dont have a least favorite..maybe I need to experiment so I can find one that I dont like

Bonus (as in optional):If you could sexually dominate or submit to 5 people - any 5, currently living or deceased - which 5 would it be? Malcom X, Denzel Washington (see a theme lol), my ex in college, Devonte (from Jodeci..the old him not him now lol), and Shaun from Boys 2 Men...

posted@10:01am

Worth a Thousand Words

2007-10-22T14:01:00.000-07:00

THIS IS TODAY'S POST.....so see I had planned on posting after my bday however I was tired....so I saved it and never finished..so here it is today :)

The weekend was great, my bday was wonderful, good food at Carrabas (the bill was insane). Went to the movies, saw 30 days of night (which was great) had Mon and Tues off so you know coming to work yesterday was a TASK of itself. Got a gift card for Nine West (my babe knows I love me some shoes), was nice the whole weekend....so yea it was rather nice....I'll probably be back to normal Monday lol...I'm fine just trying to get back in the groove of things...and we all know how hard that is....I'm almost there though. So since I dont have much to say (I know WHAT?!!) lol I'm postin pics.

The ones below are from the blogger meet and greet with some of the gang (I've actually met everyone before but Mike....who you know as Organized) I know I'm late sorry LOL

As you can see I'm a camera whore...Hun says I take it everywhere too much LOL...how can you take photos too much lol

Terrific Thursday

2007-10-18T07:43:00.000-07:00

Today is my Friday, Friday is my locaversary...it's been 2 years since I began this natural journey and I LOVE IT! My babies have gotten long and I must say that I dont miss the days when they were babies however I love seeing how much they've grown when I wash them. Saturday is my 25th bday..yes I'm a baby..hun is only 24 though so I feel better LOL. So as you can see this weekend should be a blur or at least I hope it's a blur.

So here goes my version of TMI Tuesday of course done on Thursday:

1. What was the first movie you saw on a date? Hmm on a group date I went to see Anaconda...my mom didn't know so I dont know if I count it as a real date LOL...

2. Who was the first person you kissed on a date? [First name is fine.] He was my first boyfriend and now he's one of my best friends his name is D. Actually we had a couple of supposed first kissess lol...we went to the same church and our friends were always trying to get us to kiss...so yea lol

3. Where was the first place you ever "parked" (on a date)? I've never really parked on a date....however I can remember going on this date with this guy I use to work with at Sams Club and we were parting ways and it took us about an hour and a half to say bye LOL...needlesstosay we umm finally said goodbye after halfway taking off our clothes LOL and it was right in front of his house haha. However the first time I "parked" would have been not really a park cause it was in church lol in the sound room above the santuary...in the stairwell..yea I know what can I say I was sheltered so when I got to church I got to be around my friends lol...my mom is a rev and my dad is a deacon however I AM NOT A BAD GIRL LOL

4. Have you ever gone on a date with someone you met via the internet? If not, would you? Yes I have a couple of times and I've only had one bad experience I think I've talked about it before. I had a really nice date with this guy once...he picked me up and we went to DC did dinner and then walked at night through the city....ahhhh see I love simple things like that

5. What is the most romantic thing you have done on a first date? Hmm most romantic thing done on a first date...picnic by the water in Hampton..it was a nice day and I've never done that before..well at the time I hadn't

Bonus (as in optional):Describe the best date you have ever been on. Hmmm I'd have to say it would have been when I went out with the person I consider the man who taught me how to really love. He came and picked me up we actually had on the same color shirt we went to a museum and talked and walked, then we went to dinner, went back to his place and watched movies...it was really refreshing. Of course I can pick others but I liked that one

Have a great weekend...I might post pics tomorrow in honor of my locaversary however if not I will be back on Tuesday!!!!

posted@10:52am

Thanks for the Laugh

2007-10-17T05:30:00.000-07:00

"What soap is to the body, laughter is to the soul" (Yiddish Proverb)

Thank you...

old man on the train, I was knocked out good till you kept bumping me trying to talk to the person behind you

old man on the train for talking so loud I though you were talking directly in my ear..hopefully your wife isn't deaf now

person on the train for laughing so loud I just had to shut my eyes tighter praying that the sirens would stop

5 min dream that I had while I was knocked out on the train...why can't I remember you now

old lady outside the Farragut West metro station....you seem so angry asking for change and shaking that cup I just had to thank God that I'm blessed to not be in that situation...we're all one bad decision away from that

Farragut Triangle man for smiling at me while you swept up the leaves....nice to know that you think I look rather cute..or you just love smiling either way it benefits me lol

hotel bell man for walking past me when you did....your aftershave reminded me of my daddy and I just had to smile

old couple for walking down the street hand in hand, I pray that I'm blessed with someone to love and care about and for when I'm in my old age.

Russ Parr and the morning crew for making me crack up when Mai ling asked how she could get her behind to clap and snap back LOL..WOW

Lord, for allowing me to notice the things around me and smile

posted@8:38am

Tuesday Tantics

2007-10-16T06:41:00.000-07:00

It's a nice brisk Tuesday outside, so far I dont have any work to do so I'm blogging LOL. Today's questions come from a blogger that I can finally say I've had the opportunity to meet face to face and he is a cutie if I do say so myself..when he gave me a hug I was like dang LOL...I was about to be like can you pick me up hahha..can I get on your back :) Organized Noise....I love reading his blog and his questions were rather interesting as well.

1. In your first ever post, you said you "hope to try to create some of balance within my life inunderstanding the daily trials and tribulations that I go through being a 22 (almost 23) year old professional, intelligent, attractive black woman in the DC/VA area". Here we are two years later. Have you? No that's the short answer LOL. The long answer would be no however I've learned so much more about myself by writing and getting it all out that sometimes the confusion makes sense...I mean it means I'm living life versus not doing anything at all. I enjoyed dating while I was doing it, had some great stories and not that I dont have great stories now but being with someone in a relationship is a whole nother aspect lol. I am not saying that I tell all my business on here....I'm sure some of that have talked to me voice to voice know that and some of you dont but I get the gist of my feelings out and that helps create a little bit of balance.

2. What has been your best/worst blogging experiences? Who is the best blogger you've met?Which blogger do you most want to meet (and I won't be mad if it isn't me)? I've never had a bad blogger experience and I'm thankful for that. So far I think that all the bloggers I've met would be great ones your all my favorites :) Some of you are closer to me in distance than others are farther but I love ya just the same. The blogger I wanna meet (if I had to pick one and you know that's so hard to do sometimes LOL cause I love you all and would love to go on a blogger tour) would have to be my Libra Twin Mis Understood....she seems like she's be loads of fun to hang out with...we have sooo much in common and I think we'd have a blast together :) HEYYY GURL!!! I'm coming to visit sooner or later.

3. You're turning 25 this month. What's your five year plan?
Finish paralegal school in the next year or so. Get a new job, move out of VA, maybe get married if that's in the cards at the end of the 5 year period. Apply to law school around year 4...I think that sounds like a pretty good 5 year plan.

4. From your TMI Tuesday responses, I get the impression that you are very comfortable with your inner freak and or a closet exhibitionist, and you've even admitted yourself that you are very liberal when it comes to sex, but what is one thing that NO man will ever be able to get you to do sexually? I've learned to never say never so honestly I dont know HOWEVER...I will not I repeat WILL NOT be sexing any animals LOL or peeing on you, that's just nasty!!!

5. What are your relationship non-negotiables (things you can't/won't compromise on)? You have to have lips I can't stand someone who has no lips and on top of that can't kiss EWWWWWW!!!! You have to like to talk, which is weird cause Hun don't talk much..he says I talk too much haha and on top of that I love talking about how I feel I want to know that you care about me..you aint got to say it everyday but at least once a month is nice LOL. I can't compromise on someone making me feel like they support me....dont tear me down, dont make me feel like I'm nothing..you might not like what I do but dang on it dont degrade me.

6. I am one that no longer believes in regrets. Things happen for a reason and everyone that comes into your life does so for a reason. That being said, what have you learned from your last 3 boyfriends? I've learned that I can be very stubborn, I've learned that I can be anal about some stuff, I've learned that I am beautiful, I've learned that I can very emotional which is a blessing and a curse. I've learned that I sometimes wear my heart on my sleeves, I've learned that sometimes I get into things and when they dont go my way I run not a good look. I've learned that I can never stop learning about me :) I mean I'm the bomb who wouldn't love me hahah

posted@10:17a

ERRR

2007-10-15T05:52:00.000-07:00

So I had this all done and come to find out I had typed it in the wrong blog dang on it.

Aight here goes again. I had a nice relaxing fun weekend. Got to finally meet Mr. Organized who at first intimidated me with his deep voice LOL...and he is also a cutie..too bad Hun's in the picture. Got to hang out with TTD, GTL and T who I haven't seen in a while..so that was nice...the food was good, drinks were even better and the company was great. Sunday I went to see Why did I get married, which was a GREAT movie..MAN. I told Hun he needs to see it he of course didnt' think so however R wants to go see it LOL..funny...speaks volumes about how different they are. But anywho it was a good movie I def wanna go see it again I went during matinee time and I think some folks had gotten out of church early lol great

The questions in today's interview are by a blogger buddy who emailed me when I was going through some things and I learned that we had something in common (we're adopted) and turns out she's rather interesting lol...check her out sometime. Trenting is her name and I aint linkin, I'm too lazy it's monday and plus I forgot how to lol

1.If you were to die suddenly, who would be the first to find you, how long do you think it would take for you to be found? Right now I'm at work, so it would be my coworker hopefully it wouldn't be too long seeing as she has to walk past my desk to get to the printer lol...plus I'm always talking to her and talking period so she might come over when she notices that it's too quiet on my side of the wall.

2.If you [knowingly]were going to die tomorrow, what would you do today, what would you say to people, who would you choose to say goodbye to? I'd take the day off, drive down to Hampton tonight to spend my last day with my family..kissing them and letting them know how much I love them. Id write letters to my nieces and nephews so that they would know how much I love and adore them and how I know they will become great things and I'll be looking over them. I'd call Hun and tell him thank you for loving me in his own way and even though I might not understand his way of loving me...it's love and that's what matters. I'd call an ex of mine and wish him the best and thank him for opening up the door for me to understand how to love me and be happy alone and ask him what would he have done if I had fought harder for us..tell him that I love him. Eat dinner with my fam and hopefully die in my sleep

3.What is your biggest dream or goal, do you think you will accomplish that dream or goal in your lifetime? Of course I'd love to have a job where I can work from home..but honestly I want to be a mommie. Not really a stay at home one but one that's involved in everything and can still work a full time job LOL yea I know impossible lol...but I love children and I want at least 3. I can't wait to have kids..but clearly I will lol

4.If you and one other person were left on this earth, who would you want that other person to be and why? I'd have to say my BFF Jill LOL sike nah but for real my best friend who I've known since we were 5 well she was 5 and I was 4 lol. We've been through lots and have soo many memories...she's my twin, my other half and I love her to death. She understands me and although we dont agree with everything the other does we still can be bluntly honest with one another and there's no love lost :) Now I might pick a dude though so that we could procreate lol and if I did it would be R. He's funny, we have a great time together and I dont think we'd have bad looking off spring lol. Hmm celebrity status I'd have to choose between Denzel and LL and I can't do that so hopefully I dont even have to be alone with one another person cause I dont think one person could act like all those people LOL

As you can see I can never give a straight answer LOL

posted@9:02am

TMI Friday

2007-10-12T06:56:00.000-07:00

1. Wash up, cuddle or fall asleep?
I like to cuddle first then take a nice shower however sometimes cuddling can bring on sleep so it depends on how good it was LOL

2. Have you ever fake orgasms?
Yes I have..he was horrible thought he was good and in the words of Keyshia Cole....I just wanted it to be over

3. In any 24 hour period, what is the most number of time you have ever had sex?
Hmmm I think about 6 times.....he and I had the day off and it was a dang on wrap LOL..slept, ate watched TV and got it in....

4. Have you ever had sex or give/received oral sex while you were driving a car?
I've given it while someone was driving a car...it was funny to watch him try to remain on the road while still enjoying the whole thing lol

5. What do you think the average number of sexual partners your partner has in their lifetime (so for me a male)? Do you think most people lie when asked?
Hmm I dont know I think guys tend to have about 50..yea I think folks like but I mean when you really think about it, sex is not just intercourse so if you could all that I think I've used up one hand LOL

Bonus (as in optional): Can men and women be "just friends?" (Explain)
I think men and women can just be friends, I've done it before and I'll do it again. I think when both people understand how things should work and are open with one another then things can work..it's when someone's wires get crossed that things change.

Have a great weekend!!!!

posted@10:04am

2007-10-11T05:54:00.000-07:00

I will admit that I love answering your questions. I was going to do TMI questions today but I'll do that tomorrow and get back to the interview questions Monday.

So today's set of questions come from a chic that I've talked to once (and that will change mayum LOL) offline (on IM). She is as funny on her blog as she is not in her blog. I look forward to reading her blog and I love stopping by to see her pics :) Her name is Pro

1) How tall are you?
The last time I checked (junior year of college) I was 5'2 and a half. Yes I want my half it's mine and I earned it.

2) What's the longest relationship you've been in?
OK, so the longest relationship that I've been in lasted from elementary school to freshmen year of college..off and on of course I think the longest we were together once we realized what boyfriend and girlfriend really were would have been about 3-4 years...but even when we weren't together during our off times we still were kinda together LOL. Funny thing is he's like my brother now and we're both in relationships. If someone couldn't understand how we are then clearly I wouldn't be with them. He's one of my best friends :)

3) What is your birth order?
I'm the first girl and the oldest girl. I have an older brother and two younger sisters..in case you couldnt' figure it out :)

4) Are you a daddy's girl or momma's baby?
Hmm I'd have to say hands down I'm a momma's baby. I love her to death, she's my roll dog, I can't go a week without talking to her, if I do it's cause something is wrong with my phone or I just can't keep up with her busy schedule. However I have gotten close to my dad since I've moved away from home..he's not as bad as I thought he was :)

5) If you could have one extreme makeover done on you or about you what would it be (i.e. like change your profession, college major, boob job)?
I'd have to say I would change my major to social work and minor in legal studies and i would have gone to another school..maybe not another school but I would have tried harder to move out of state after graduation from college. I'd also get some liposuction on these thighs LOL

6) Are you a salt or sweet 'aholic?
I love sweet drinks. I like my stuff to sneak up on me..dont bring me nothing hard unless you know I've had a big meal cause one and a half drinks will have me laughing at you and your momma lol. Now if we're not talking about drinks and we're talking about foods..I love salty stuff..pretzels, chips, doritos and sometimes I mix the sweet and salty stuff like raisinets and popcorn emmmm...m and m's and pretzels delicious!!

There's still time to send me questions...I'll probaby ride this out till next Thursday when my bday weekend begins. So if you got a question shoot me an email and read next Thursday when I answer all the non interview questions :) mshoneylibra@gmail.com

posted@9:02am

2007-10-10T08:08:00.000-07:00

"There will always be people who have more than we do — and less than we have. We need to be aware of what we have and be thankful for it".

Count your blessings instead of your crosses;

Count your gains instead of your losses.

Count your joys instead of your woes;

Count your friends instead of your foes.

Count your smiles instead of your tears;

Count your courage instead of your fears.

Count your full years instead of your lean;

Count all the kind deeds instead of the mean.

Count your health instead of your wealth;

Count on Jesus instead of yourself.

~~Author Unknown.~~

posted@11:09am

Interview with a Vampire

2007-10-09T05:18:00.000-07:00

Not really LOL..I've just always wanted to say that. So I started this whole interview thing yesterday and today is the first day. If you got a question email it to me (mshoneylibra@gmail.com) and I'll answer it on the last day :)

So the first person up to the plate is my SISSYYYYY (well one of them) DeepNThought (at least that's what you guys know her as)

1. when was the moment that you knew that hun was the one?

Hmm I'd have to say it was a combination of two moments. The first was when we got into a deep discussion (known to some as an argument lol) and he said to me..you know your stubborn and you think you can have your way in everything, well I'm not gonna let you have your way so you might as well stop all that yappin. Yep he told me to pretty much stop acting spoiled and stop being so selfish. I mean I know I'm selfish but I sorta think that I hide it well, I guess I dont lol. I can't walk all over him, he doesn't let me have my way but at the same time he doesn't make me think I have my way. That's refreshing...on top of that after that I could have easily cut him off but something about how he handles me calms me. I mean most folks argue and argue..he says what he has to say and that's it. He makes me think outside the box..he doesn't sugar coat things with me which could be a blessing and a curse lol. The next moment would be during one of our together moments (showering lol) and he said I was gonna tell you something but I'm not I said what is it..so he looks me into my eyes and says I love you....he smiles and from that moment and before that moment he's kept me smiling even when he's not around. He doesn't throw that word around so when he said it I wasn't expecting it and that made it even more special. He still says it at moments when I least expect it.

2. what would you like your legacy to be?

My legacy. Dang that's deep. Ok I think I'd want people that knew me to know me as somone who did what she could to help the greater good. Donating billions of dollars are good but if you dont have billions of dollars what can you....support walks and community events for things like AIDS research, breast cancer and heart disease. Take the time out to remember the small things in life cause when it all boils down to it that's what counts. So when I die I want to leave behind the value of time. You can't get it back..so enjoy life to the fullest, help those when you can and take it all in.

3. what is your mantra for your life?

I do what I can. I say that so much that folks be like yea we know you do what you can. Seriously though, I can only do what I CAN DO. I can't do what you do, I can't do what the Joneses do I can only do what Honey can do and if that's more or less than you aight but you know that I put forth the effort and did what I could do.

4. what is the one thing you would change about the world if you could?

All the children in the world that are in orphanages and abusive homes. They can't protect themselves they dont have a voice and if I could I'd take them all in.

5. what is the one thing that you want your child to get from you that you pray they don't get from their dad? (i.e. his head or like your nose)

Hmmm a physical feature, I'd have to hope that they dont get his hmmm LOL funny cause I would hope they get his smile, the shape of his head cause I have a bigger one LOL I hope they get his height lol so pretty much I'd want them to have my complexion with my eyes, his smile and height lol....weird. Now if we were talking about not physical I'd have to say his foul mouth LOL...I tell that man all that time to think of other words ah well old habits die hard.

6. what is the worst date you have ever been on?

BWAH. This date that I went on with this guy who worked at UHAUL. Ok so I met him at H2O and he was aight..we talked on the phone and he seemed cool. So one night he calls me up and we make plans to go to the movies...he mentioned picking me up in the UHAUL truck..umm no LOL. I should have taken that as strike two. Strike one would have been him being on the phone one night while talkin to me and all of a sudden we get disconnected..he calls back and says that he had to get off the phone cause his step mother was coming..UMM what the piss. Who does that but I was like oh aight...then she starts yellin in the backround that he needs to clean the dishes..LOL wow man you almost 25 and they still gotta do that to you LOL. So anyway I convince him to let me meet him at the movies. He asks me had I eaten I say no so we agree to go to Ruby Tuesday's first. I get there before him and I have to wait, a no no in my book. I get the table and I get some water..I dont believe in ordering my food until my party arrives so I wait...and wait...and wait...about 30 min later after I have gotten up to call him twice he finally arrives. He takes forever to order a drink..first askin if they have remy red and patron LOL (WOW I say to myself can you just order a drink dang) then he looks at the menu..anyone who knows me knows I love Ruby Tuesdays their salad bar is off the chain so I knew what I wanted already. He was like hmm should I get the steak..nah I had steak last week..hmm should I get this..nah hmmm so finally he orders. We eat and we chat a little..the bill comes and he's like oh dang I should have told her to split it...BLANK STARE. Are you kidding me? Split it, you're the one that asked me to dinner you asked me on a date..now I dont have a problem on paying for my food or yours if that's what I so choose to do....and I always carry money just in case I need to (my parents taught me that) so I took the check and said it is..seat one and seat two..they are already split...I pull my card out, pay for my food and we make moves to the theater. I'm thinkin I'm bout to roll out cause I can see this is going downhill...we get inline to see I forgot what movie and the person tell him that it's $19. Do you know this fool (I had already walked off to the side) looks at her and says $19 are you serious, are you serious $19, and he turns around behind him. He was like I haven't been to the movies in a while when did it get that expensive. I'm like boo you paid for your own food dang..so if he had asked me to pay for my own ticket it would have been over. He buys the tickets and we get in the movie where he trys to put his arm around me and what not..I'm like umm no are you serious so I sit up in my chair and what not and he is still trying to hold me close. The movie is over, we leave he walks me to my car trys to kiss me on the lips I move so it hits my cheek and that's that. Fast forward a couple of months later and I see him at H2O again when Lil Wayne was suppose to be there..he dang on near spills my drink on me trying to say hello. I saw him like 2 months ago at Love and he asked for my number I quickly informed him that I have a man now LOL....if you can't even take me to dinner and a movie without complaining about how much it costs we have nothing to talk about (cause we all know things are expensive now..where have you been under a rock)

Of course tomorrow is Thankful Wednesday so I'll be taking a break from the questions but I'll be back to it on Thursday...I kinda like this keep em coming :)

posted@8:50am

Thoughts Anyone...

2007-10-08T04:30:00.001-07:00

So this week I've decided to give my lips a break and give you the opportunity to learn a little more about Honey.

Good thing is some of my fellow bloggers have been letting others interview them...this is a great idea so I'm gonna do the same :) Yes I like to copy off of others...only if it's a good idea though lol....so each day I'll have a new set of questions....and for those that don't interview me I'll give you the opportunity to ask me something and I'll post all those questions on the last day.

Here we go.......

Friday Fun

2007-10-05T06:26:00.000-07:00

1. Early bird or night owl?

Funny when I was in college I could stay up till 3 and still make it to class (in my pj's but I was still there), now if I have the day off I can stay up but I sleep half the day away usually I'm in bed by 11, so I guess it all depends (see how I can never give one answer lol)

2. If you could only be one, would you rather be smart or good looking?

I'd rather be smart..I can have surgery lol but you cant buy smartness..many folks have college degrees and are just as dumb as a ummmm hmmm I can't think of nothing LOL ah well you fill it in.

3. Do you gossip?

I use to when I was younger, I'd be like girl I saw so and so..and she was like yea um hm...now it's more like yea uh yea...ok. I tend not to go there with folks cause me caring about that other person's business aint gonna pay my bills...now if it's one of my fam or girls and their hurt and me telling someone will help then it's not gossip so speak on.

4. On a scale of 1-10, how adventurous are you? (1 is lowest, 10 is highest)

I'd have to say 8.5, there are some things I dont think I will ever do but I want to..like skydive. The funny thing is I'd probably have to just do it and not think about it...thinking about it makes me not do alot of things.

5. On a scale of 1-10, how good a kisser do you think you are?

Hmm I've heard that I'm rather good..I have nice lips so I'm gonna give myself a 9..cause there is always room for improvement :)

Bonus (as in optional):What do you consider the biggest turn on out of the following? a) lingerie b) movies c) toys d) role playing e) leather f) none of this does anything for me

Well a man wearing lingerie is just plain weird unless its a stripper and i dont want my man wearing nothing of the sort lol (funny cause I'll go see a stripper wearing that stuff but dont want my babe wearing it lol i'm weird) So if I had topick one of these choices and I couldn't pick anything else I'd have to say role playing....then again if you dont do it right I will be laughing so then it would be toys...something about a man helping me get to that point em em em lol

Bonus 2 (taken from Organized lol): What is the most OFF THE WALL thing you've done to your partner OR, had them do to you during sex?? Off the Wall...hmm other than me showing up with nothing on under my trench I'd have to say as of recently (since me and babe are just getting use to one another). I'd have to say right now nothing with babe...give us some time...but with someone else head in a car while he was driving lol or having sex in a club...so umm yea Honey has her side..doesn't everyone

posted@9:37am

2007-10-03T07:15:00.000-07:00

Today being the day of the week when I take time out to smile at the little things.

I'm thankful for....

being allowed to wake up this morning and see the sky

talking to my sister who cracks me up all the time

for having my phone back and in working order WOOOHOOOO

for the anticipation of this weekend and doing nothing...hopefully

family, friends, life and love

being able to learn new things everyday about myself

seeing how Hun is changing when it comes to showing me that he does miss me when he's not with me lol

my upcoming bday..I dont know what I'll be doing yet...maybe nothing and that will be just fine with me then again I'll probably call some of you guys to harass you LOL...

interesting sights and sounds as I walk to work...I saw a lady playing a harmonica in front of a window..she was facing the window like she was looking at herself play...UMM WOW..alrighty lol

talking to my ex Red from TX and telling him to stop the guilt tripping it's not gonna work, and to not even call or message me anymore...I dont need folks who claim they want to be my friend but steadly asking me when they can sleep with me again ....great

for each of you :)

posted@10:27am

Sleepy

2007-10-01T04:18:00.000-07:00

I got into the office at 648am..yea I had some work to do but I had to commute a lil farther and I didn't want to get stuck in traffic.

This weekend was nice....hung out with Hun on Friday....I was passed out and missed the party so I'm gonna have to come up to BMORE one weekend. Saturday me and Hun went on the boat cruise with the coworkers. Why we thought that we were gonna get left if we got there later than 12 ohhh no this boat didn't pull off till 1pm...and by that time I was soo hungry I could have jumped in the water and caught my own food :)

The boat tour was nice it would have been great if there was real alcohol lol sike let me stop I drank some wine and that was it...it was too funny cause Hun drank some wine and was like this mess is nasty how do you drink this....so I drank his too :) We got off the boat we home and got some groceries it's funny how much stuff he doesn't eat that I do...I like tuna he doesn't, I like alfredo sauce he doesn't LOL..ah well...I'm still gonna eat what I want.

After that we just chilled out and what not..got up Sunday and ran some errands, I cooked some dinner and watched a lil TV...

So as you can see it was pretty chill..however my cell phone got ran over so umm if I have your number you might wanna send it to me again LOL...and if I dont have your number now is the time to send it to me so I can call and harass you LOL...

I was coming out of Bed Bath & Beyond...and I dropped it with my shopping bag (I love that store by the way..I almost got carried away in there). Instead of me picking it up and putting it in my purse I kinda like held it between my leg and the bag....so it kinda fell between the door meaning it was hanging out...so I didn't notice this and it fell out the door...I saw it in my mirror..got out and someone ran over it..great....

Hope you had a good weekend....hopefully this day passes a lil quicker since I've been in here since quarter to 7.

In other news: The countdown for my BDAY begins.....19 more days to gooooooo!!!!

posted at 7:26am