Life through my eyes......
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Lady at Work: Wont you shut up! I mean dang does everyone have to know about how you always pay your property tax on time and what your momma told you. I mean you are at WORK not the salon, I should not be able to hear it and I'm in a whole nother cubicle on top of that I shouldn't even be able to hear it if I'm standing in front of you desk. SHUT UP!!! I wanna to tell you that so bad, but I'm afraid that if I say anything dang on near that I will scream on you and bite your freakin head off. Yes you a grown woman and I feel some level of respect for my "elder", but you I PROMISE you make me want to forget that my momma taught me manners.....you are allergic to everything...I think it's all in your head personally. On top of that maybe if you stop letting your dog kiss and lick you in the face on your open sores then maybe you wouldn't be so sick..I feel sorry for you, your parents, those who even consider you a friend and us at work cause we have to deal with you. You buy people's affection by doing nice things, boo you can do nice stuff for me all day and I still wouldn't like you. Stop walking by my desk and breathing all hard like I'm gonna turn around and ask you what's the matter...stop clearing your throat all loud like I care that you are so winded from walking one inch that it kills you.....stop saying ohhh I'm sooo tired...if you're that tired STAY HOME...better yet go live with your momma since you are 40 years old and talking about moving back in with her to save money...WHO DOES THAT!!!!
Red: Wont you leave me the piss alone!!!!! I mean dang we are over..stop sending me emails trying to gauge how I'm doing. I'm fine, thanks...doing rather well without you...glad that I took you out of my life. You trying to act like you care how I'm doing, while asking when can you come visit, is not a good look, I mean dang LEAVE ME ALONE! I hate to ignore emails but your emails are ones that I don't mind responding to for months at a time. The nerve of you, thinking that I care if you "check" on me. Please...don't do me any favors...I'm fine....THANKS
Constant: Am I mad at myself right now? You'll always have a special place in my heart, but I'm punishing myself by thinking that we could even be friends. It's clear that you have too much going on to even be concerned about friendship. How could you change your number and not even let me know....how could you not email me and let me know you were out to sea but doing well.....how come I had to email you first to find all that out. Apparently you don't care and I'm continuing to care and that's not a good look....so I'll stop. I have to make myself stop, it's a sick routine that I have. Acting like I don't care, when I do...forcing myself to try to move on when part of me is dwelling on the drama. I'm so finiky (sp?) that its annoying.....ERRRRRRR No more calling you, if I don't hear from you then oh well...I'm tired of being the good friend (cause that's what we are now), I'm tired of checking up on you and you not doing the same for me....I mean dang sometimes I like to recieve a call just to say hello.....believe me I won't be wasting my breath anymore.
Nurse Dude (remember him, if not go back to some posts during the summer of last year lol): UMMMMM...LOL............you are a HOT SPAMMY MESS!!!!!!!! Sending me text messages asking when can you sex me and what not. Boo I haven't talked to you or seen you since last year (I know it wasn't that long ago lol)...and if I haven't been dialing your number don't you think that means that it was what it was....we did what we did and I'm not trying to go there with you again...we both know the rules.....what we had was not a relationship....we were cut buddies.....THAT IS ALL. You do what you do, I do what I do and that's it. At first we were more than that but clearly you couldn't handle it and we just dropped down to satisfying one another for the moment....don't think that you can not see me for 3 months and then BAMN send me a hot steamy text and think that I'm gonna hop on it....UMMM NO. It don't work like that, you ain't that good LOL. On top of that your lil game you play aint' all that under cover either. Don't try to wine and dine me with your words, trying to act like you trying to be with me, I'm not STUPID. Just because I don't call you on it don't mean (and yes I used don't) that I can't see you coming from a mile away. You think you're all that cause you got pretty eyes and nice lips...ummmm boo boo I 'm not a fool and ain't nothing that good gonna make me loose my dang on mind..I can lose it on my own. On top of that it looks like you gained some pds....you weren't all that lil to begin with but now it might be getting out of control....trust me I'm not trying to be funny cause I'm not a 5 myself and actually I wouldn't want to be a 5 (don't be offended size 5's lol) I just like where I'm at but back to you LOL....your tummy looks like it might be on the verge of pregnancy....some of the weight I might have lost seems to have found you. HANDLE THAT. When you see me in the street...you don't know me, unless I know you..meaning I will walk on by if i feel like it, if I stop to speak it will only be because I have MANNERS...not because I'm trying to BONE you....GOT IT...GOOD
Honey (yes that's me): GURL! You are a trip. You like him, so why are you worried about where this is all going, just be easy and let things happen how they happen. I mean haven't you noticed that when you over think things that's when you begin to think up things that don't even exist or stuff that ain't even an issue. Why do you do that to yourself? He likes you that's evident, I mean he spends almost every weekend with you...sometimes he comes over during the week....ok you don't go over his place alot but being realistic...traffic coming in your direction is wayyy worse than for him going back that way....and he likes going to the gym with you and he knows that you can't go to his gym which is why you all dont' go to his....your free pass is for the gym down the street from your house....why get a pass to go to his gym when you'd have to drive out there after work and you know you aint doing that...so calm the HECK DOWN. On top of that why are you jumpin on the scale every morning...put that thing away...you know you've lost weight stop acting like you haven't....look at pics from last year and even the year when toot was born....see how chubby your face was...look at it now...be happy that you've come this far...STOP BEING SO DANG ON NEGATIVE. I'm so sick of hearing you complain to yourself about how fat you are and how you aren't losing weight.....put the scale away be on your grind for a month then weight yourself.....I bet you'll see progress. I'm gonna need you to chill though on wanting to think up stuff to do with him though, let him do some work....if you do everything then he will do NOTHING.....ok you can do something for him for his bday but breathe easy, you don't have to get him something everytime you're out at the store....calm down!! I know he makes you happy and you get all geeky whenyou think of him and all that stinky jazz, but fall BACK! Let things go where they go, do what you do and if he's there then ok and if not then ok. I mean your grown...let him know that you can have a life when he's not there....you hang out when he's not with you...you don't sit in the house the whole time waiting on him to call...i know i know you dont' do that and gurl pipe down I'm not saying you do..I'm just saying. You know I'm just looking out for you, cause it's me and you against the world...gotta be careful. I'm glad you're happy though, I'm glad that he calls you just as much as you call him...cause I hated when you felt like you were doing all the calling..feeling like you were bothering folks when they answer..ain't that some bullish. Funny how you love to be in love, you kill me with that LOL....loving to do nice things for people, just watch out. I'm here though trying to help you not blow caution to the wind...just doing my job so don't get mad when you know I'm right and you dont' wanna listen. So start paying attention to me :)
Toot: Why are you the cutest thing ever?! I love you more than life it's self. I want to shield you from hurt and take your pain away. I want you to know that I will always be here for you, Auntie will never ever be too far away that she wont' drop what she's doing to see about her Toot. You bring me joy, you light up my life and whenever I feel like I can't smile I look at your picture that sits on my desk. You are the reason that I pray God blesses me with children, you are the reason I push myself to do so much more than I even think I can do. I wish I were there each day to put you to bed, hug you when you need hugs and kiss you when you fall down. I know you have a mommie and you love her lots but I can't help but feel that you are sorta mine LOL...I mean look at you....it's like I spit you out LOL....so we won't tell anyone that your mommie sucks monkey balls LOL..I'm playing, but seriously I love you and just thinking that I could something as much as I love you doesn't surprise me it motivates me.....
Bestest: Why do I miss you so much? I have moments when of course I wonder what you're doing and where you are. How Livy is doing and how you're really, really doing. He sucks for treating you the way he did I know and believe you me if I could have him "touched" for $5 I would..maybe I can find a crack head LOL....I miss spending weekends at your house or mine..I miss when life was so simple that all we had to do was go get our nails done and we thought we were the bomb..and might I add we still are. I love how when I see you it's like we've never been apart, like we're still living a block away from one another. I wish I could see you everyday, but I can't and you know that you can call me at the drop of a dime and I'm there. I've done it before and I'll do it again. You are a strong woman and I admire you...I love you cause you're my sister....you're the twin that I wasn't born with...we're like the sun and the moon.....if I go too long without talking to you..you start to pop up in my dreams. I cherish the day that we became friends...when you told the teacher that Leon ate my crayons....and you gave me a hug in the 6th grade cause Shauna picked me last to be on her team....you've always subconscienly done that...been there when I've needed you even from 3 hours away....I can't wait to see you next month for her 2nd bday and your 25th....we're gonna make more memories to tell her when she grows up
Dad & Mom: Why do I get teary when I think of just how wonderful you guys are.....I mean I know it's not corny and I know you already know how much I love you....but I really love you more than life itself...I would do anything for you....knowing that I'm not there to somewhat ease the tension kills me. Dad I know your doing what you can and Mommie is such a quiet spirit but I feel like I want to bust some heads together...I mean why is she so frustrating..why can't she get with it!!! Why is she acting like she was no home training....why are you both so calm. LOL, I guess it's cause you know that patience is truly a virtue (and i have little) and that God has a plan for all of this and it will all occur in his time. I know he has it on lock LOL...but please belive give me the word and I'll come down there and do some damage :)
Sisters: Why are you guys acting like I'm your momma?! I mean dang we're not little anymore, so grow up. I can't solve all your problems with a phone call..cause believe me I would if I could...I love you guys and there is no difference in my love. However I ain't gonna lie I do like you on different levels LOL...but that doesn't mean that I wont' karate chop someone in their throat for either one you the moment you ask me to. Be good and I love you....I'm always here
Expecting life to treat you well because you are a good person is like expecting an angry bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian.-- Shari R. Barr
With that being said: BRING IT ON!!!! I can take whatever your gonna dish out to me life...cause i'm a GO GETTA!!!!!