Life through my eyes......
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Ok so I like to catch some Z's on the train in the morning but how come everytime I open my eyes your staring at me...I mean I wasn't snoring so what the ham sandwich are you lookin at.
For the record someone and I'm not saying it's you..smelled like dookie...I mean what is that about
Long sleeves and shorts...do not I repeat DO NOT go together..can you pick a season
Why the heck are you listening to get low LOL I haven't heard that song in forever I was waiting for you to bust out in the infamous white girl sway and we all know what that looks like...dont get it twisted I do know some white girls that can dance but I also know some that sway lol
I mean i'm jammin listening to my music reading my paper why are you lookin over my shoulder get your own express they pass them out all morning and you can get one from the yellow container on the side of the street
Why are you letting susie jean walk down the escalator by herself she's holding up traffic
Aight DO NOT stand in front of the escalator during rush hour home traffic...you will get your feelings hurt
WALK ON THE LEFT STAND ON THE RIGHT....how many freakin times do I have to say that
Jesse Mae dont ask your kids if it's ok that you dont watch TV when you get home..tell them fools...and when one of them said no you tried to act like you were being authorotative (spell check lol) boo you weren't. Then you yell excuse me getting off boo you ain't gotta do all that..we can tell your a tourist when you do that...just say excuse me and keep it moving
So I know that when I get excited about having a day off I might illuminate some illustious color but why are you staring at me while I'm trying to park my car...Boo you bout to get your legs taken off
Hmm that fedex man was kinda cute...can I get a hook up on sending out some packages LOL
Why are you screaming in the phone apparently Diana can't hear you....
Just because she sits down beside you doesn't mean she wants to hear your corny jokes and neither do I ....CAN IT!!!
Of course I see lots more but those are some of the things that stood out to me between last nights commute and this morning. I might blog tomorrow but being that it's a holiday I might just be sleep LOL. I dont have to be back to work till Monday so you know I'm bout to act a fool all up and through Northern VA LOL (that's my new phrase all up and through here)..feel free to cite me on it :) I wish I were gonna head to Miami but I might head to Atlantic City but I wont know till maybe thurs or so......which is fine with me.
Hun is fine...I guess...we sorta got into it. He said I was selfish and stubborn (all of which I know to a certain degree) I just didnt like how he carried some things....I'm trying so hard to understand that it's about work and if you love something then you work for it...but at the same token each person has to give and apparently I'm seemingly the problem child in this relationship so maybe I'm messing up his life.....I dont know....who knows....
We're suppose to hook up tonight after I get off....we'll see what gets talked about and what gets ignored but this can't go on for too much longer cuase he's continually pushing me away when I'm trying to make it work..I can't do it alone....and being alone is way better than being with someone who you feel doesn't want what you want out of a relationship...I'm not saying that we're done I'm just saying that last night while we were on the phone I began to tear up and I dont often do that (out of anger that is and partial sadness) all the yelling reminded me of dealing with Red...which I despised. I always told myself that I never wanted to be with someone who made me want to hang up on them...and Red was that person and now Hun is beginning to be it. I feel like he doesn't care, he says I'm being a baby. I expect him to stop what hes doing when I'm ready to hang out and that's not true. Then again maybe it is and why would you want to be with someone like that.....
It was deja vu all over again..all I kept thinking about was how Red tried to be controlling and yelling makin me feel like what I was feeling was stupid and that I was being a big baby...which is how I felt with Hun last night..and I didn't like it....all I can do is speak on it and see what occurs I can't do anymore. I'm not gonna do anymore....I dont wanna do anymore....I understand men have a way of doing things but you can't honestly tell me that you expect me to be fine with sitting up in the house and never really hanging out with you....yea right...you should know me wayyy better than that....
Some things got to change and maybe the things that need to change are things about me....wow that's a hard thing to acknowledge.