Life through my eyes......
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
So many times you realize how blessed you are to have wonderful people in your corner and you forget about yourself so I wanted to take this time to tell you that I'm so thankful for you....for who you are...for who you will become....for who you want to be and what you want to do.
I know that you sometimes feel overwhelmed by life, but dont let it get you down and forget that what you're going through provides you with strength...we all know that God doesn't put more on you than you can bear. So you must be a pretty strong person. To be honest you amaze me. I can remember when you wanted so much for others to like you when that wasn't even necessary.....if they dont' like you that's on them, not you. You're the bomb without them and no you don't have a big head you just know how wonderful you are and if they can't see that then boo to them. As Mary says in your favorite song take me as I am or have nothing at all...remember that song when you start to think you aren't good enough for someone to be friends with...who cares about them wanting to be your friend..you aint in HS no more LOL
Thank you so much for finally realizing just how special you are. I didn't think you would ever see what I see. How I love the way your eyes glow when you look at things you love...how you smile inwardly when you smell fresh cut grass in the summer. How you look in the mirror in the morning and make faces...how you sing in the shower and even how you dance when you think no one is watching. Life is about living and just being and you've finally realized it.
Thank you for realizing that love isn't all peaches and cream...that sometimes it takes tears to go through it and come out ok. He was a bum for hurting you....and he apparently didn't know what he had and wasn't ready to be with you, and yes it hurt...but you got over it. I know that you can be finicky at times LOL...but hey we all can be. You cried and moved on..realized that there must have been something so much better on the other side. I know you get tired of me trying to remind you to be positive...but believe you me I'm not shutting up so you might as well get use to it. Someone has to see the sun through the rain.
Yes you can be negative sometimes and I've even caught you being jealous, but you need to check yourself before things get out of hand. Its ok to notice what others have but you need to be thankful for what God has given you..you never know you might be stopping your own blessing cause your watching someone elses. And that is not a good thing, watch yourself from now on.
You finally opened yourself up to getting over him and look what you got. You finally stopped comparing HUN to him and look how things have blossomed. Yea I know you have your moments with doubt, but you can't let that destroy something that clearly makes you smile. I see you staring at him sometimes when he has his eyes closed....how you reach to hold his hand as you all are walking along....how you all play around just being silly. Do you know that if you hadn't let go, you wouldn't even be able to experience this right now? Believe me I know this whole living with him is scary but that's what life is about.....not being afraid to just live and experience something outside of your normal box. He's right for you....and that's that.... no if ands or buts about it. He does have his quirks but so do you..need I remind you about how bougie you can be sometimes..momma didn't raise you to be that way. You better stop before you lose him then you'd be foreced to deal nonsense again and a good thing like him doesnt' come around too often.
Thank you for finally being able to look in the mirror and love your curves. You've lost some weight and you do look pretty good...but don't get caught up in trying to be what society claims to be beautiful. I personally love your thighs and butt LOL...but that's just me. Do what you have to do to tone up but don't get caught up in the hype of weighing what they claim to be right for you.....you know what feels right and what makes you look like a crackhead. And we can't have that now can we. How you look makes you who you are...realize that and accept it, what does society know anyway..they think Paris Hilton is HOT LOL...and she's clearly not :)
I know that you cry sometimes because you just feel like things aren't going right, but I hope you understand that things have to go this way in order for the future to be the way that it will be. It's ok to cry, but don't get to the point where you can't see the good that comes out of those tears..that you cant see how much better you feel once you have cried...don't cry so much that you aren't ever happy....because you have so much to be happy for...a family that cares for you, that loves you, friends who are more than friends...they are another extension of family...you are more than blessed...in fact too blessed to be stressed too anointed to be disappointed. Learn that your tears are cleansing you and allowing you to progress....don't discourage them from falling accept them and what they stand for
I know you get discouraged that your relationship with God isn't where you want it to be...but he knows your heart..he knows you are striving to do better. Just work a little harder on the things that you can do better at...recognize your faults and work to better yourself...that's all he asks...accept who you are and don't try to be someone that you aren't. He created you wonderfully, why would you want to change that?
Thank you for being such a wonderful friend, even to those that don't deserve it. Many people aren't blessed to have a person like you in their life...someone who will give of themselves and dont think twice. Yes some folks take it for granted and believe that you are weak, but hey they will get what they got coming to em. Just keeping being who God created you to be and doing you...
Just wanted you to know that I think your wonderful Honey, you are beautiful and if you ever stop thinking that I will personally meet you in a dark alley somewhere and open up a can of whoop tail on ya :)
I see you, I understand you...I love you...because I am you