Life through my eyes......
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Change is good....but it can also sting
Got up the next morning and took jailyn with me to look at apts since I didnt wanna take fatfat along...he would be all over the place. Found a spot and had to get the funds for a deposit. So as of next Friday I'll be a resident of Landover, MD. I love the apt, can't wait to move in.
The rest of the weekend was spent playing auntie and spoiling my nephews and goddaughter who came along. She started K-3 on Tuesday so we went and bought her some school shoes....I tell ya that girl cracked me up telling her mom and me what she didn't like I was like boo do you have a job LOL. They stayed till Monday and I just laid around and slept....having a baby in the house is NOOOO joke. I love my JayD but I promise that boy slept all day and wanted to be up at night LOL
This morning I had a breakdown..I guess it's getting to me that I'm moving out. I cried in the house, in the car and then finally called my mommie to have her pray with me. She did so and told me that I'll be fine (I know and sometimes I get tired of hearing that). She said that me feeling how I feel is a trick of the devil to get me to doubt what is occuring...God can't bless mess...and I get that I'm just gonna miss him... I miss him already. He's been gone most of the tme cause he says it feels strange and I know but dang I can't help wanting to hug him since I'll be gone in a week or so.
Dont wanna think about it too much might start crying again....crying cause I'll miss him and that I'll be living alone...I have only lived alone for like 3 months LOL and it's SOOOOO freakin quiet I didnt know what to do with myself. I mean it was nice coming home to me, shopping for me, having folks come over then leave lol but it was still SOOOOO quiet. I like the area though and it's near Captiol Blvd and the metro so I should be fine. Some of my blogsisters live near by so I'll def have a chance to visit them more which is great :) BK has also informed me that I now have no excuse not to come to her class on the weekends...and sadly she is correct LOL what have I gotten myself into :)
Thank you ladies (you know who you are) for helping narrow my list down, telling me that I'll be fine and listening to my pain......I'll def have to have you guys over for some wine and cheese :)
So I'll be packing starting tomorrow LOL...I dont wanna I dont wanna I dont wanna...and not because I dont wanna move...but because I hate packing....unpacking is gonna be worse though...roomie has already said she will help so I'm thankful for that. She's actually gonna look at the complex and she might decide to move out there since her rent is going up in Oct lol
"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." ~Anatole France