Life through my eyes......

I tell ya trying to find words to go with the day of the week is causing me to think up my own make up words of use a dictionary or a thesaurus. So in case ya didn't know tempestuous means stormy..but I'm sure you all knew that (wink)

So last night I got off a lil earlier than the other day..I was here at work till about 8:30pm. The perks of working late are that you get free dinner..which a sister like me ain't even gonna pass up lol..especially since I have cooked dinner for real for real in a while. So bring it on....at this point I'm past complaining and just thanking God that he gave me the OT cause he knows how much I need the extra cash.

With that being said why do supervisors, bosses, managers, whatever you want to call them (higher management) tend to take out their frustrations on the people who work under them. Man I was at the comp yesterday asking God to help me and venting to the girls and they were of course making me laugh and that helped me cool down. One of my boss's I guess got hung up on somethings that were overwhelming him. So the time comes for me to get lunch and I go upstairs and heat my food up on my way back to my desk I can hear a intercom going off I peak over my ledge to see if it's mine and it is. I see that it's my guy boss so I go to his office instead of sitting down and calling him, at the time it seemed easier. I said i just got back to my desk what's up..he give me the be gone motion while saying go back to your desk and call me when you get there.....WOW..needlesstosay Honey did a sidelook and rolled her eyes and walked on out. Ok he wanted me to look at his email and fax it to someone but I mean dang did you have to give me the "you are but a servant to me" hand motion. On top of that I went to the bathroom which apparently isn't suppose to occur during work hours cause he was like why did my phone go to voicemail..at that point I got kinda irritated..I was like I don't know and I think my tone kind of set him off cause after that he closed his door and was real nice the rest of the night lol even said thank you after he asked me to do everything.

So I got off, rode the metro to the station to get my car, got home and got on the phone with a friend who I haven't talked to in a month of sundays. He goes to school down south and we have a pretty good convo going..so good that it lasts till a lil after 2am. I told him about Constant and all that and he told me the girls that he was kicking it with or trying to kick it with. But it kept going back to him wanting to see me when he came home and I'm like I don't think that would be a good idea. Cause I know how I would feel if constant saw someone I knew had a thing for him. I know he has female friends..he's even been on the phone with one of them (he calls her his lil sis) while he was at my house...she knew I was there cause he kept talkin to me and sayin nasty stuff lol which is why I trust him whole heartedly (spell-check). If he says he's sleep or he was at work..I never have to think or read between the lines with him. He's so chill that it scares me sometimes. He's just that laid back and I have to get use to that lol. Anyway me and SC boy were chatted and of course he's asking questions about how I am and what not....yea sexually. Why is it that after 10pm..convos held after hours tend to be risque? I didn't indulge him as much as I'm sure he would have liked cause that is saved for Constant....but he did tell me that I surprised him. By looking at me he said he wouldn't have known that I'm so open about sex.

I've posted about this before but of course growing up lil girls are taught not to do things and what not. So once I found out what I liked, how I liked it and where or when I liked it..hey what can I say it just kinda went from there. Now I'm gonna let ya in on a lil secret...then again if I tell you it wont' be a secret anymore, plus this is the internet so secrets no longer exist lol....when asked what's the wildest place i've had sex...of course I could say no where, and in actuality this place isn't all that wild..but I've had sex in a club..in the raggae room to be exact. I'll leave it at that..needlesstosay the guy that was the second party in the situation still says to me this day that he didn't know I would do something like that...everyone got a lil freak in em. And by no means is that my definition of a freak cause there are too many to even get into....moving along

He asked me if I indulged in some self pleasure lol.....silence.....crickets....I think I'll leave that alone lol....then again if you dont' love yourself who else will (wink) that's all I got to say about that.....after that convo I was actually a lil surprised at myself....cause hearing some of those things out loud and coming out of my mouth lead me to believe that I still have a lil ways to go before I'm totally open with my sexual side..and that's cool. There is always room for improvement.

EDIT: Aight so I'm upstairs at the microwave heating up my lunch and this woman is standing beside me putting her lunch into a bag..I'm assuming to take it back to her desk. Instead of her bending down to look in the cabinet for a bag...she leans over sideways and put's her leg up in the air like she is a figure skater..on top of that she was kinda big and I could see her panty line..not a good look..at home or at work lol especially at a firm full of "conservative" people if you know what i mean...I was like wow..never are your dress pants that tight that I can see your draws and can tell you have a wedgie....and NO I wasn't lookin that hard it's just that her butt took up half my line of vision LOL....back to work!

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