Life through my eyes......
Monday, December 18, 2006
He was suppose to come over Friday after I got work, but when we had a meeting of the minds (a phone coversation) he said that he had to take care of some stuff and would call me when he was done. But he said that if he didn't see me on Friday night he would see me on Sat (I should have smelled it then).
He can kick rocks or go stand at the edge of a cliff and seriously think about jumping (got that from Music lol). I mean don't lie and say that you've changed and the same thing that drove me wild and not in a good way when we were dating is still driving me wild not in a good way. I mean dang...you've been here since Thursday night and just because I didn't see you when you called and asked means that I don't see you at all..who does that.
I mean ok you just found out your dad had cancer but I mean what can you do, he doesnt' live in the US so you can't go see him, you can call him but no one wants to feel your sadness over the phone, especially since people go into remission from cancer everyday. On top of that how were you suppose to see me on Friday and the nothing..meaning you weren't gonna see me on Friday anyway..freakin liar...man I am detesting him more and more each day. I think he knows it cause when I told him that he couldn't come over he sounded taken back...I said what I said, got off the phone and proceeded to chill with Music..I mean it is what it is. I'm a dang on good woman and you lost out on it when you decided to send I love you emails to half the women in the nation.
No call, no text, he could have been in the ditch somewhere, but I get nothing till Sunday night around 745. By then my Friday/Sat morning had been spent with Music and he was at my house again on Sun afternoon/night. So Constant calls and I'm like are you home ok..meaning back in Norfolk. He says I'm leaving now, I said ok well drive safe...he's like well I figured I'd stop by on my way..now mind you it's sunday he has to be to work on monday morning and it's already almost 8pm. It takes about 3 hours to get back to Norfolk. So I was like why don't you just go on home, you gotta be to work and it's already late, so i'll catch up with you when I get home this weekend. He then says well I have to work this weekend and I said well you don't work 24 hrs do you ....he was like no and I said ok then I'll call ya when I get down there and we can meet up for dinner or something...I don't plan on being too alone with you...I might forget my common sense LOL
On top of that he was like well I had to finish up some family stuff and I said that's fine I'm not your family so it doesn't really matter anyway. My thing is dont' make it seem like you trying to see me and talk to me and you're no where to be found...not only that you don't even call or send up smoke signals..I mean dang how inconsiderate is that...but it did help me to be a lil stronger to tell him to keep on going down the highway...cause any other time the other me would have been like well how about I meet you somewhere or make up something else other than just tellin him not to come over...you dont' have the privilege to just think you can pop over...you lost that when you said you loved oh girl (but in a diff spirit..how insane is that)
I just don't see how you could not call, just to say hey I was more busy than I thought can I stop by on Sunday (that would be too much like right)..don't just assume that you can stop by...cause I'm gonna sniff that out like a hound dog sniffs out deer. Your BS is not needed here...I've already eaten and I don't eat S$%@. I'd prefer to hear the truth as lame as that might sound..but hey I'm not even worried cause Music kept me occupied...he is sooo cute when he smiles LOL....I call him my homeless man cause when he doesn't shave he looks like a cute homeless man LOL or like common with all that hair on his face.
Roomie was like he was probably about to get off the exit to come here and I was like well being that we moved and he doesn't know where we live at now..he had to call and on top of that he better not pop up..he'd get his feelings hurt..cause Music sure was sitting there LOL.
After I said bye..I informed roomie of what the call was all about so we get to talking about what a jack butt he is and of course Music chimes in and I give him a watered down version of what occurred. Mainly because I don't like talking about it and besides who wants to hear about drama between an ex and someone you're trying to get to know..not me. He adds his opinion calling constant a homo LOL...meaning his behavior was homo LOL...i was like umm ok moving along. We ate dinner, or rather he ate (some baked ziti that I made on Friday when he came over for dinner), watched a lil tv. He worked on some music and I added my lil 1 cents in, played around and went on to sleep.
Funny thing is Green Eyes, the cop that I use to date last year called talking about he wanted to watch the game with me. Man this fool was sleep and I wasn't tryin to see his psycho tail anyway..sad but sometimes when I'm bored I could care less who I'm talking to as long as I'm talking..I know I have a problem LOL..and I'm quickly fixing it. Fools be thinking that just cause I answer the phone or whatever when they call that I want to chill...ummm NO, I'm just bored at the moment.
I took the GRE's let's just say that I'm glad I can take them again in January and prayerfully I will do wayyy better. But I'm not mad, it was my first time taking them and I got to see what I should expect and that's always a plus. And on top of that my application as a whole will be good so they won't just be looking at my GRE scores.
So as you can see I hung out with Music for most of the weekend...last night he was going to leave to meet one of his boys to work on his mixtape cover and asked me would I be mad..I told him no, cause he came over and if didn't spend the night I wouldn't be mad...he decided to stay cause he has today off and will work on it today...we've been trying to figure out what this weird smell is in my bathroom LOL..we think it's the water but I can't do nothing about that but buy a freshner and keep it in there LOL...his toothbrush looks so cute beside mine haha
I have yet to see Young One..he was with his son all weekend which is nice..I did talk to him on the phone though and R wanted me to come over the other night but I told him no that I was coming over. Cause he had his son and first he was gonna ask him mom to keep him but the time he spends with his son is few and far between because of his sons mother so I told him we could do drinks some other time.
I'm ready to go home for the holidays..get some much needed sleep and do a lil shopping...I'm getting the pics developed this weekend LOL..I didn't go anywhere to take pics and you might not have wanted to see me and Music LOL..so great
Off to see how your weekends were..hit up aol.music.com (Nas's cd is up there among others)