Life through my eyes......
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Growing Pains (Listening to it and def feeling it...go get it!!)
People loving people when they don't need to or would rather not... but they do so anyway.
The ability to see colors and the on-going ability to see things I never realized or comprehended previously.
Fighting that ends -- whether it's between countries, in marriages, or between little friends or big kids who should no better in the first place.
The beauty, simplicity and healing power of laughs of all kinds...
Weird ones, Louder than you'd like ones, Barely above the sound threshold ones, And ones that make your stomach ache despite any feeble attempts to stop the process.
Dreams that create ways to help, heal, motivate, inspire, and conceive dreamers who repeat the process.
Teachers who give more than they receive and know more than they share because they they'd rather build up than tear down, see eyes brighten with every new discovery, and design for others ways to enjoy and improve the one life they've been given.
Soldiers who defend for all the right reasons instead of maiming and destroying for every wrong one in the book.
Moms who love their kids, kids who love their moms, and dads who love them both.
Butterfly Kisses that mean so much more than the song ever could because of lyrics played during the ever changing rhythms of daily life.
Those who really do help little old ladies across the street, and little old ladies and gentlemen who preserve the art of caring by living and loving in ways that leave legacies of hope for each of their watching worlds.
Dogs at the neighbors that don't bark and barking neighbors who don't live near me.
Cars that run, Empty bathrooms during times of ultimate crisis, Spyware that works, And cats that quickly leave my back door.
Minds that remember what they should while forgetting what is brought to mind because they love people more than they do grudges that don't matter anyway.
Addicts who win, And athletes who know and show the difference between winning at life and simply taking a win to the next game.
In short, I'm grateful for my life................and the God who entrusted me with the same.
Monday, December 17, 2007
When life gives you lemons...thrown them at someone!
School is finally over and now I have to register for next semester. Great
My favorite shows are over till next year now I have nothing to watch....Great
I want a new job and I just got a good evaluation....great
I want to go to school full time but I can't.....great
I can't wait for Thursday to get here so I can be off until Jan 2nd.....great
I did nothing this weekend and that was.....great
Constant is moving back to DC, he's out of the navy........ugh.....great
I had some drinks with my Hun this weekend and we played UNO.....wonderful times
I so want this week to be over....NOW
Why the heck is it so cold outside...oh yea it is WINTER.....so why are folks still walking around like it's spring then again walking around with a hat, gloves and a coat on with shorts....doesn't really work as spring weather either
What am I going to do with myself for a whole week......NOTHING and I'm looking forward to it, yea I might get bored like one day but I doubt it lol
I can catch up on some reading, clean the house cause I need to do that.....and catch up on some movies I've been wanting to see....have dinner ready for my Hun when he comes home and I'm sure he'll love that.....and catch up on Maury.....who is NOT my baby's daddy LOL
I have done NO christmas shopping yet...I plan to get it all done this weekend..which means I will probably be mad standing in those long tail lines......great
I miss bloggin but I mean hey I dont wanna make up stuff to write so I just dont.....
I wonder did Tenacious finish her wedding planning....I wonder how Luvin me is doing....I really need to go to one of Tiff and James' events coming up. Too bad I can't have a blogger jet fly all over the US to keep up with some of my homies
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
If it is to be, then it's up to Me
Just remember the homeless family who has no bed to lie in.
Should you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don't despair.
There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.
Should you have a bad day at work; Think of the man who has been out of work for the last three months.
Should you despair over a relationship gone bad;
Think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.
Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the man or woman in some third world country, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week, for 20.00 to feed the family.
Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance, Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.
Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror, Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.
Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, what is my purpose?
Be thankful, there are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.
Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, prejudice, or insecurities, Remember, things could be worse. You could be them!!!
Should you feel depressed because of your weight, Remember, obesity is curable: AIDS is not.
Be thankful for who, what and where you are in life.God Bless and always be a blessing to others.
Friday, December 07, 2007
Relax, Relate, RELEASE
1. If your partner buys you a sexy little "something" is it a present for you or for your partner? I think it would be a present for the both of us..I mean we could use it together
2. What are 3 characteristics of "your type"? Tall, full lips, and a nice smile...I dont really have a complexion thing everything is situational.
3. On a scale of 1-10, how good a cook are you? I think I'm about a 6, as time goes on and I have to cook more I'll probably get better
4. Tattoos: Love them or hate them. On you? On a partner? I love them, I have two and my hun has one and wants another one
5. Stubble: Good or bad? How often do you shave? Umm stubble where LOL
Bonus (as in optional):What are a few of your favorite things (both sexual non-sexual)? I love kissing, caressing, music, ranch dressing, shoes and pretzels just to name a few :)
1. Are you a member of the mile high club? Nope but I think it's something that I'd like to do I'm a member of other clubs though lol
2. What is the most public place you have ever had sex? in a nightclub..dont ask maybe if your nice I'll tell ya..one day
3. What is your most embarrassing family moment? I was at a family reunion dinner and my lil cuz who is not so little anymore came up to me (I think I was still in college) and he was like remember when we came over your house and you farted and it stunk..I was like dang homie lol every farts wow..but everyone was all quiet and busted out laughing..great
4. What kind of birth control do you use? Umm why are you gonna buy me some more
5. Have you ever had sex in the snow? Rain? Not in the snow and not in the rain but the rain is on my to do list..the snow however is too cold and I'm not trying to freeze my ovaries..thanks
Bonus (as in optional):Describe your flirting technique: innuendo, telling a dirty joke, talking about sex life, or physical contact? I tend to smile and touch a lot, lean on you that's about it
1. what's the sexiest gesture a woman can make? I have no clue someone said me acting and looking mean attracted them to me
2. what are 3 inevitable things about you? I talk alot, I ask lots of questions, I love being in love
3. what do you want . . . . now? Some food
4. what asset do you have besides the physical and the material? I'm a wonderful listener and a wonderful friend..once your in my circle it takes alot for me to eliminate you :)
5. describe a sexy mind. ME lol
Bonus (as in optional):What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving? Just being able to enjoy life and all that it comes with including the bad.
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
for friends who show me love even when I'm being a bia bia lol
for those who love me enough to listen to me ramble on and on about the same thing
for my family....couldn't wish for or ask for anything better
for being able to talk to my god daughter she is getting so big she sang dont you want me baby to me on the phone yesterday and said she wanted a baby for christmas and $100 lol (of course the money was prompted by her mother lol)
for my nephews they are getting so big..time passes so fast
for being able to not snoop...as nosey as I am....I will ask over and over before I looking for crap
for having the ability to not make something out of nothing
for the anticipation of hanging out with my homies ALLLLL weekend starting fri night with a sleepover (dont act like ya'll dont do that anymore lol and it's only for girls so dont be thinkin nasty)
for partying sat night with my friend and her boyfriend before they move to Miami...I'm gonna miss em....you rarely meet folks that you can deal with on the regular lol and when they move away you get sad....
for realizing that I've outgrown my job....it's time to move on and move to another area in my life....so umm if you know of anything holla at a sister via email lol
for the miniature amount of snow on the ground LOL...I mean it shows me that maybe dreams do come true :)
for being able to cry and not feel bad for feeling so relieved after I had let it out.
Monday, December 03, 2007
However after talking to a friend of mine...well an associate I need to hang out with her to call her my friend a little more right now she's my girl but I use that term loosely and I dont mean that offensively I just guard myself when it comes to chics....so anyway we were conversing at my house after I had treated her to a bday lunch since I had missed her bday due to the fam emergency with my sister. So we're at my house chatting it up when Hun comes down the stairs. I had gone up there to his music room when we got home to harass him as I normally do and he's on the phone with one of his best friends named C (has been changed to "protect" the innocent. So anyway he's on the phone with her and I'm not saying they weren't talking about something important and I know how I am with my best friend....but I harass him thinking that he's gonna get off or what not but he continues to talk which I dont care about so I mosey on downstairs to chat it up with my homie before she heads back home.
He comes downstairs and informs me that he is going over her house...I'm like didn't you just talk to her on the phone and hes like yea but I'm going over there and I'm like well can she come over here. He gives me a strange look and is like do you want her to come over here and I'm like I mean she moved back here and I haven't met her yet..shes your best friend.....but aight go ahead. We were suppose to go to walmart so i'm like are you coming back so we can go and he's like yea I aint gonna be gone that long...so I'm like aight....I continue to talk to my homie, she leaves and i do some laundry, pop in a movie, clean a little. To make a long story short..I finally went to bed and he walks in after 6...yes 6 a.m.
I'm like aight whatever..he has a hangover and I say how come you didnt call me and he's like my phone died....now at first i'm thinkin yea aight but he does have a horrible thing about charging his phone......I say I was worried he says I shouldn't have been he was fine. Then he says remember the times you've stayed out and not called and I said yes that was when we first moved in together if I know I'm not coming home I call you so your not worried and if I stay out you know that I'm not coming back home..correct he replies that I'm right and I go on back to sleep.
Yesterday I cook dinner, call him downstairs and he's on IM talking to her..I'm thinkin dang should I be offended or nonchalant like he is when I leave and dont come home. I mean if you meet Hun you would know that he is not an emotional type dude he's just there sometimes...he isnt' all emotional..i mean he says I love you and I miss you sometimes but I mean its like 2-3 times a month LOL compared to me who is alll emotional all the time LOL
Now I'm not jealous...but can you see my frustration....I dont snoop and I aint gonna start. So I'm forced to just let this play out...if this even is something it might not be...I mean she is his friend he says they have never slept together and she does know about me.....so my hands are tied......great
They are just friends...they are just friends...they are just friends...